To Love and to Hate: part 1
[Before I start this story, I would like to dedicate it to my good friend darkwolfie, it was his friendship and his story Gutter Punks that inspired me to write this.]
To love and to Hate: Part 1
By Shiroji Magnus
It All started one morning...two years ago. I had just turned eighteen years old and my life had really begun to turn for the better. Back then My family was not around often...my older sister had gotten married, and my parents were usually abroad taking business trips to the States. My Father was an executive for a large electronics company that dealt with video games also, this of course contributed to my love for video games. But, this story isn't about my family...this is about my one true love, And I know what you are thinking "Oh no...not another cheesy love story.." don't worry...you won't be bored. As I said, two years ago...
"Hideo Yushime, wake up.", called a rather tall woman, her hair deep brown and her eyes also of a similar shade. Her lips were bright red from lipstick, and her dress clung to her thin, perfectly curved body and a soft almost sun colored golden brown fur. Her hands were clenched tightly around a pillow. As she stood there, watching a young man sleeping, the covers nearly falling off the bed, his blue sleeping shorts and yellow loose fit tanktop were easily visable. Her face grew increasingly agitated. Without a moments notice she raised the pillow high above her head, then slammed it down hard against the man in the bed. On impact he awoke and held his own face gently, as he had just been hit there with the pillow. As he rose to a sitting pose on the bed, he continued to hold his face, his features hidden from sight. His hair was also rather dark, but a more redish tone than brown, his bangs hung low, down to his nose, and the back hair hung down to his lower neck, in a sort of bob cut. And he too also had fairly golden colored fur. He finally released his face showing a slender almost womanly like face, his eyes were of a deep green.
" Hey, what was that for, Sis." The man screamed out, finally. His voice gave off the same feeling of his face, womanly, but also a male's voice at the same time.
"What was that for? what was that for!?...I'll tell you what that was for...it's the first day of school, and your going to be late, Yushime...and look at you...your a wreck." She screamed back at him, her tone gave off the sense of authority, but by the man's expression, one could tell he didn't really care.
The Boy yawned greatly, bringing a hand up to his muzzle to yawn into. He then lowered his hand after ending the yawn. He climbed out of the bed looking for all the world like a zombie, the way he slumped. Moving to a dresser that was across from his bed, his sister all the while standing there, he turned around with a slight blush on his face then sayed alittle sheepishly. "you mind getting out of my room now?"
His sister just smirked, then shook her head as she turned around and left the room, slamming the door behind her. Yushime looked at the door, a single green eye pearing through the low hung bangs. He growled slightly then turned back towards his dresser. He mumbled something under his breath that could have only been something ill towards his sister. After quickly removing his tanktop and his shorts he stood there in complete nudity and turned to face a mirror in order to examine himself... more like fawn over himself. He let out a sad litle sigh then quickly dressed, as he did so still watching his reflection in the tall standing mirror. After he was fully dressed, placed his hands on his hips, or where they would be if he had been a woman, and sighed again. His greatest wish was to look more feminine, but to look at himself, he didn't think he could look more feminine unless he had breasts and hips. The thought of breasts made him shudder with revulsion, but the thought of having hips, he found to be pleasant. A sudden beeping behind him made his eyes widen in panic and as he turned around to see his digital alarm clock going off, he realised that, thanks to all of his daydreaming about hips, he was going to be late for school. He ran down the stairs of his house, passing by his sister, not even stopping to speak to her. He ran out of the door and began his usual jog for his school, albiet slightly more rushed than normal.
Elmore Park High was bustling with it's usual morning activities. Many cheerleaders could be seen practicing on the front lawn, and the guys, usually the nerds, were fawning over them. Friends greeted eachother, and even the occasionial sightings of friends engaged in an arguement. The tiger walked cooly through the halls, his orange fur and black stripes gleaming in the sunlight filtering through the windows. He wore a loose white buttoned shirt that was, it seemed, purposefully untucked over black dress pants. His tail swayed lightly back and forth as his eyes scanned all those around him. He stopped for a moment when several girls came up to him and start pleading with him over something.
"Oh, Seguchi-kun, Would you go out with me?" one of the girls asked rather rashly. The other two girls almost instantly started argueing, allowing the cool faced tiger known as Hansunoma Seguchi to move out of sight before the three girls knew what had happened. But after looking back and determining that he was safe from the brooding hoards of constantly fawning women, he turned around, only to smack right into another person. The six foot tall tiger looked down at the obviously smaller leopard. Seguchi simply shoved his forepaws into his pants pockets and looked at the boy. "Such femimine features..." he thought to himself as he reached down to help the leopard up, removing one paw from his pants to do so. The leopard, after having been helped to his footpaws smiled and bowed. "Thank you so very much for helping me." his voice rangs out as feminine as his face. "I'm..." the leopard started, but was interupted by the tiger. "I know who you are, Hideo Yushime-san... You are well known to be quite gay.. or am I mistaken?" Seguchi's voice rang out with a coldness that could be only rivaled by ice itself. "I....uh...well you see..." Yushime stammered before lowering his head and blushing furiously from the tiger's, albiet true, accusation. Although the two didn't know each other... they actually did know of each other. The Leopard finally managed to get his words out. "Uh.. Yes...I am." The tiger nodded once with a slightly raised eyebrow then looked up at the empty hall. "The bell rang, queer... better get to class..." Seguchi begins to walk away, moving as silently as before. Yushime just stared for a second. "Damn.. he is so hot....why does he have to be straight....and why does he have to hate me?" He let out a sigh of sadness then found his way to his class, his head downcast the entire way..
All during class Yushime couldn't help but think of that lithe form...the cool face...His thoughts weren't on the class, which was evident by the fact that he was partially drooling. but then he thought of the coldness of that voice, of the utter hatred that the tiger seemed to harbor for him. The Leopard almost cried, but for remembering that this was not the place for that. The bell rang, but he seemed not to notice. He continued to sit there at his desk, book open to a few pages farther back than it should have been. The teacher aproached him and layed a gentle paw down on his shoulder before saying, " Is something the matter, Yushime-kohai?" He looked up at the teacher of his English class, a grey furred wolf by the name of William Jackson. He was an American, but had agreed to come teach English to the japanese kids. Yushime realised he had been staring at his teacher, and lowered his head, mostly to hide the blushing. He shook his head a few times rather quickly, his hair going every which way, and began to put his things away and then he stood up from his desk. "No, I'm sorry, Jackson-sensei I was just daydreaming that's all..." The wolf shook his head and opened his mouth as if to say something, then stopped and just sighed. "One of these days.. one of you kids are gonna get it when I tell you that it's my first name that's used as my given name, not my last name..." Yushime blinked a few times at his teacher then quietly left the English class room.
A few weeks passed and things only got worse with Yushime's daydreaming. Almost all of the good points of Seguchi were replaced by the memory of the hatred that was in the Tiger's voice that one day in the halls of the school. Then, one week later, after class he made his way to the locker and noticed that Seguchi was standing directly infront of it, his fierce blue eyes locked on him. He stops dead in his tracks wondering what the tiger would be doing there, fearing the worst, and what happened next never in his wildest dreams could he have imagined. He finally found himself able to move again as he lowered his head and made his way over to his locker, and Seguchi.
"Hey, Yushime, Meet me at the school gates after school..." Seguchi said before moving off silently as before, his voice was not that of coldness, but of the same coolness as he gave off... the same coolness that he was so attracted to. His mind began to wander even more mainly on the idea that the Tiger, just maybe, didn't hate him after all. He drove himself through the rest of the classes, grudgingly watching the clock, waiting for the bell to toll three and to be released. He made his way after school to the gates and waited there. An hour...two hours passed before Seguchi finally appeared.
"Sorry I made you wait so long, Hideo, I've got an image to uphold...I'm sure you understand." Seguchi's voice was still as cool as ever, but what happened next was even more surprizing than the invitation to meet with him. The tiger pinned the much smaller Leopard to the large stone wall then looked at him feircly. "I've been watching you for some time now, Yushime-san. There is only one thing I want to do, It's been on my mind for awhile. I'm getting sick of the girls always crowding me... they are nuisances... but if people thought I was queer, then the girls would finally leave me alone, wouldn't they? What I want to do, is to give people the appearance of us as a couple." Yushime was speachless after this. He had almost thought that maybe Seguchi didn't hate him, but now the tiger only wanted to use him. He wanted to scream out that he was a bastard, to tell him no.. but something deeper controlled him. "O...oh kay..." the leopard stammered finally. He wanted to hit himself for agreeing. After so long of feeling pain from this guy, even though self inflicted, he wanted so badly to say no, to tell him to fuck off. But he couldn't. In the end he found himself being treated like trash at some points, and like a lover at other times. Hell couldn't have been worse.
This too lasted for several weeks. Seguchi wouldn't let Yushime be anywhere he wasn't, outside of classes. Over the weeks, Yushime would end up seeing a side to the tiger that he never thought he would. The tiger was alot kinder than expected, and over time, Seguchi even stopped mistreating the leopard. As the days went by, Yushime began to realize something... something he could not deny. He was falling in love with one who could never love him back. this weighed heavily on his mind, and Seguchi would often question him about what was troubling him. but he would only blush deeply and turn his head to hide it. One day though, Seguchi would not let him...
"You know... We have been 'dating' for almost two months now... you should stop hiding things from me... like your face..." Seguchi said softly to Yushime. This once more caused the leopard to blush and turn his head, covering his cheeks alittle. "I'm... not hiding anything from you." He reassured himself, but he didn't actually say anything. Seguchi growled slightly and got up form a bench. They had been eating lunch together as usual. He grabed up Yushime and turned his face to look at him. "You need to tell me whats bothering you..." he would say softly still, but firmly. but the Yushime merely lowered his gaze to avoid any eye contact. "The reason you hide your face from me...it's because you love me, isn't it?" Seguchi grinned cooly and raised Yushime's chin to elicit eye contact. Then his grin turned to a soft smile and he pressed his muzzle against the leopard's, embracing him in a kiss. Yushime's eyes widen at this and as soon as Seguchi had released the kiss, Yushime's face had become flustered with fury. " You would use me for whatever purposes you wished, then you try and 'act' like you actually cared for me? you bastard!" Yushime's headfur was drenched in tears, then in his fury and confusion he began to run. he didn't care that he was still at school, he had to get away from Seguchi, he couldn't take it anymore. He loved the tiger too much, and the thought that the tiger was teasing him brought him to dispair. He eventually stopped and stooped down, breathing and coughing fairly hard. but then he heard the familliar pawsteps of Seguchi and began to panic. What if the tiger was mad at him for running away like that, what if he tried to hurt him for almost ruining the tiger's cover. everything made him panic even more, but in the end, he could not run. He fell to his knees and lowered his head, tears still running down his face, a visible line in his fur. Seguchi fially reaches him and kneels down on one knee, placing a paw on Yushime's shoulder. the Leopard shrugged it away as he continued to sob.
"Yushime...I'm sorry..." The tiger's own gaze was downcast this time. "I didn't mean to hurt you...it's just..." Yushime stoped and glared at him as coldly as the tiger had first glared at him in the hallway. "Just shut up...I can't take it anymore. I don't wan't to be used anymore... I don't..." Seguchi silenced Yushime with a finger to his lips. "I never meant to hurt you... the truth is...whether you like me or not...I love you, Yushime...I didn't know how to say it...so I did what I had to be close to you..." Yushime's eyes widened, his tears were still flowing but they were now of a different sort. Yushima flung himself into Seguchi's arms, and the two held eachother for what would seem like an eternity to some, and but an instant to others. Yushime prayed that this was real..
After this day, the nature of their association changed. Seguchi no longer 'acted' when he was with Yushime, and niether did the Leopard. They both knew that everything was sincere now, that what was once just a roose was now honest. The two spent most of their time together, as before, and usually made a habit of kissing in public, which is something they never had done, they had never even kissed, before that time on the school rooftop. And of course, the girls were even more jealous then before, but the two didn't mind, they had eachother and that was what mattered.