Love Loss
#1 of Bonds
Edited by my friend Shadow Wolf1994
Disclaimer: I do not own pokemon. Pokemon are the property of Nintendo and Gamefreak
Some minor sex in this story but if it offends you then stop reading now. Otherwise enjoy
These last few months have been hard. My life outside of home has been great. I've been working at a pokemarket. I'm an assistant manger and make pretty good money. I have one pokemon left from my days as a trainer. My mate of four years a Lucario named Ruby. She was very attached to me. Yet these last few months have been strange, as she' been distant with me. I've done much to keep her happy or try to make her love me. But she seems to be trying to stay away from me. No matter what I do to make her happy - buy her favorite food, buy her expensive pokemon wear, or just show I love her - it all seems for naught as she seems to shun away from it. I know I work long hours and I guess maybe she is punishing me for not being there for her.
Yet on a recent vacation from work I wanted to spend it with her. Yet as soon as I was on it she seem to want me out of the house and away from her. This only made me more depressed. A whole week outside the house away from her it seemed.
I was able to talk to a friend who also had a pokemon as a love. Jeff was normal to most had a lovely girlfriend who he loved. Yet on the side, only known to a few, he fell in love with his ninetails. He did his best to hide that from everyone. Hell I had to once say I was the one who was in love with her. Not to say she wasn't hot. Yet Jeff got sick of his girlfriend wanting to give up being a trainer and give away his pokemon. Yet nothing about her giving up dream of being a photojournalist. She had wanted Jeff to give up his dreams. Yet Jeff was one who also did some investigation of his own. He found out she had a secret also yet it wasn't as bad as his. She had another lover on the side. Another female. It didn't hurt Jeff as much as he thought it would but to hide it was the worst. So Jeff came out and told her the truth.
Surprisingly she took it well. She told him she could smell his pokemon's musky scent on him. Yet had him tell everyone as she did that they were still in a relationship together. SO neither family knew what was going on. I sat in the living room as I watched him groom his ninetails. "Look Ken I know what you're going through. It's rough for the both of us. Jen and I have thought about this for the long term. Though the sex is great and we do love being with each other. You have to think about what your Lucario Ruby must want." Jen lifts her head up and looks at Ken and he hears her voice in his head 'Dear child you are both connected to each other. If you truly believe in that bond that Lucarios are to have with their trainers or lovers, you must know what she wants and needs.'
I sigh at hearing this. "I do try to feel that link that we had when she evolved. It was strong for the longest time. Yet now it's not even there. She closes me out. She won't speak to me or even share the bed with me anymore. She sleeps on the couch." Jeff looks at his friend with a disheartening look. "I know it hurts that you have to go through this."
Jeff looks at Jen who looks back at him as if wanting to say something. I see this look. "What is wrong, do you know something?" I look at them in a panic. Jen sighs as I look at her. She seems to be just like Jeff in that matter. Knowing both will come to the day where she wants a child of her own and Jeff would never be able to give her that , they would have to adopt or let his love get impregnated by another mon. Also that would she out live Jeff as it has been said that ninetails can outlive humans if they desire. Yet for some reason I think she would join her love in the afterlife and give up on living.
'Dear I do not know if it is my place to say this but a few times when I have been walking around at night to get some air. I saw her entering the forest then return before you would get off from your job at night.' Jen gives me a sad look.
My reaction does not help as I give a blank expression. I have never known Jen to lie, ever. She was bad with secrets. She was the one who came out and told Jeff's parents that she and Jeff were lovers. His father never spoke to him again. But his mother did, and to this day her only worry was that if Jen was bathed regularly. She told Jeff she was afraid Jen would give him fleas. I had asked Jeff's mother why she didn't freak out like Jeff's father. She just said if they truly loved each other they wouldn't care what the world thought about them. She also said she figured it was a faze he needed to go through.
One day he would find a nice human to be his lover. I thought about that. I did the same thing and my parents were...ok but they never looked at me the same. They still keep in contact with me but it wasn't as close as it was before. I look at Jen and Jeff and the hardships they have had. Yet for me to hear that .... what could she be doing in the forest on her own? FIghting? No she had no injures. The thought floated to my head ... I didn't want to think it but it was there written all over my face as Jeff and Jen both gave me a look of sadness. Both knew what I was thinking.
"I'll ask her." Knowing what that will entail. If I am wrong I will ruin what I have with her. Yet as it stands now I don't have anything. What do I have to lose.
Jeff sighs. "Look I can lend you Jen. She can help you track her."
Jen 'Loan me dear?' She laughs at this. 'Don't worry dear, I will help you. I know it has to be something stupid....I pray it is.' She looks away as I can see her face.
I shake Jeff's hand as Jen stands next to me. "Look she is very high maintenance." He jumps back a bit laughing as Jen's tails try to hit Jeff. "Don't be mad dear, Ken will take care of you. Ken I hope this is nothing but if it is ... something else, what are you going to do?"
I sigh "I don't know. I just don't know." We both wave bye to Jeff as we head back to my home. I look to see the lights are on. I realize she is home. I tell Jen to go along with the story that Jeff went on road trip and I was asked to look after her. I hope this will lead to nothing. I pray she is just going through a phase.
I open the door as Jen walks in and once again Ruby has just showered. It seems she went out again. I don't bother to ask as Jen walks to her. Hopefully this will help some. Yet as soon Jen approaches Ruby she scowls at the ninetails. 'Why is she here? You wanted sex just ask.' Jen swings back around and hits Ruby with her tails hard making it feel like a smack. Jen walks back to my side. "No, she is here because Jeff is going out of town and wanted to know if I could look after her, since I have a few days off. Also since I have nothing else to do." I glare at Ruby who seems to look away embarrassed knowing I was off because of her.
'FIne whatever I am going to bed.' She walks off in a huff knowing she won't let me join her. I just sigh as Jen sees what I have told her and Jeff was the truth. We both watch movies until sleep overtakes us. In the morning I make breakfast for both. Ruby eats little then leaves without a word. She walks out of the house with a loud slm to the door.
I decided to spend my day with Jen. I take her out as I would Ruby. At least she would appreciates what I do for her unlike Ruby. As day slowly turns to night, Jen reminds me that we have to look for Ruby and see what she's up to. As we head back to my home, the street lights show a shadow of a Lucario run from my house and I see my lights to my house are out. I take a guess that it's a Ruby that 's coming from our house.
I look at Jen as she picks Ruby's scent up and follows but slowly so I can keep up and so we don't get caught. I pray that I am wrong. That I am seeing something that is not there. As we travel a bit I begin to hear sounds in the distance. I try to make sure I don't make too much noise. As we get closer, the sounds turn into grunts and growls and low moans. The sound of sex.
Once again I pray I am wrong. That two other pokemon are mating and it is not Ruby. Jen gasps as she stops and I see what she sees. My fears come true. Ruby is with another male. Another male pokemon. A Zoroark to be exact. He's a bit taller than Ruby as he has pinned her to the tree fucking her hard grunting with each thrust. I hear her panting hard in pleasure from being fucked hard. I take out my phone and zoom in as I record this. As much as I tell myself I do this to get answers, deep down I already knew this was so I would remind myself I was alone once more. That I had to do something when I saw her at home. Something I know will hurt later. They continued to fuck as Jen looks away her paws over her ears.
The Zoroark fucks Ruby harder, his hips a blur. Her tongue hangs out in pure bliss as she's ravaged by the Zoroark. I see the dark pokemon ram hard into her, tying them together as he moans loudly. I see the Zoroark hump her madly until he throws his head back and howls as she joins him. I've seen enough as I put the phone away. As the howl dies down, I stir Jen who opens her eyes with sadness at me, knowing how this must hurt. My face is expressionless in the moonlight from where the two are ...mating.
Jen leads me back to my house with the sounds of their mating slowly vanishing. We arrive back at my house and I call Jeff to pick up Jen. She asks if she and Jeff should stay. I look at my phone with what I have seen on it, as I smile sadly telling her no. I have to do this alone. Jeff arrives minutes later. He also asks if I needed some comfort as he knows a place where he could have some pokemon who would have sex with humans.Mindless to get over what I saw won't really help I tell myself. I tell him no, that it wouldn't help and I needed to do this tonight. No more stalling, I needed an answer. It wouldn't help to push it back any more.
They leave as I head back inside and sit on the couch. I turn the tv on and set it up so it can receive the video from my phone. I test it on a video of her during her birthday. I watch the video. Ruby is blowing out the candle. As she digs in I laugh a bit as I record her eating a chunk of cake off her paw as she sees me. She rubs the paw over the phone and we're both heard laughing.
Tears run down my eys as I realize that what I am about to do. It pains me but I need to know. The minutes tick on by as I sit in darkness. Nothing can be heard in the house besides the creaking of the walls. Finally, I hear the door rattle as it opens. Ruby's trying to be quite as she enters. As she closes the door. I turn the lamp on near the recliner I'm sitting in.
"Did you have fun tonight Ruby?" Ruby jumps a bit. I can see her fur matted from the sweat and I can see between her legs the dried cum she always washed off. "Where have you been?" I ask softly. She looks away.
'I've been out training.'
"Really?" I have the video play on the television. She watches in horror as she is shown being fucked by the Zoroark. She looks at me in horror at being caught. For a brief second I can feel through our link that she actually feels remorse. Then it turns to anger.
'Why should you care? You only got me as a pet and nothing more! All you ever wanted was sex, you never loved me. I found a mate who loves me as I am and wants to love me...'
I cut her off. "Love to fuck you all the time. I have given you much and given you a comfortable life. I have never done anything but try and make you happy and yet you do this. I love you, you are my mate. Yet you accuse me of seeing you as nothing more than a pet." I'm shaken by this, her view of me as a master and being nothing more than a household pet.
'Yes You still have my pokeball. I bet if you felt like it you could just store me away and go fuck Jen. Isn't that why you brought her here. Since I wouldn't bend over over for you to fuck me. Not so good when your pet tells you no is it master!!!'
She bites out the last words with a growl. I can feel her arua become dark. I pull her pokeball out and look at it. It had a simple blue and purple color to it. The day I took her as my mate I promised myself that I would never put her back in it. Then it hits me all at once. It was over as I look at the simple sphere. I look at her. She has as smug look as if to say 'I told you so.'
Without another word I open the ball and she takes a step back thinking I was going to recall her. Then I grab the other end of the ball and snap it in half. It drops to the ground as sparks fly from the broken device. "I give you the freedom you want so much. Yet if you leave through that door, don't come back. I don't want you as a partner nor my pokemon. You don't want to be my mate. Nor do you care about if you ever did."
She is shocked as I did this. She takes a step towards me. Then recoils as the link that bonded us together has broken. Her heart breaks and I can see it in her eyes. She then realizes what she has done. As she turns to leave, I can see tears in her eyes. She leaves the key to the house she wore around her neck on the table. She looks at me once more but I refuse to look at her, my face stoic. I hear the door close and I can hear sobbing. Then I let the tears flow from my eyes.
--- Three days later.
I lay on the couch. I have barely moved at all the last days of my vacation. I did nothing besides go to the bathroom. I refused to even answer the phone and didn't care about much else. I heard a knock on my door as I laid there. I can hear a muffled voice of Jeff telling me to open up. Finally he stops. I think he went back home and then the back door opens. It was then I realized I forgot to lock that door.
Yet at the same time I didn't care as he comes in. I hear water running, then he comes over with a bucket water and dumps it on me. I sputter as I get up and look at him angrily. "What the fuck man!!!"
"She broke your heart, it happens. You can't just give up, she will come back...." He stops as the broken pokeball hits Jeff in his chest. Jeff knew she was gone forever. "I don't care anymore. I gave her everything and she up and left. Like a cheating bitch she was!!! ALL I WANTED WAS HER TO BE HAPPY AND FOUND HER IN THE ARMS OF ANOTHER MALE!! FUCKING BITCH!!! I JUST can't care anymore....it hurts to much to care..."
I feel wrap of tails around me as Jeff also hugs me. "Let it out don't hold back anymore." Jeff says softly.Then the tears I thought were gone and I had none let to cry for came out as I cried my heart out in their embrace.
I called my job the next day and quit. I couldn't go back like this. I had to find out where I was going. Jeff tells me I could do other things. Yet something was calling me.... The road of trainer. It has been a while but what I was looking for was on it. Just maybe, I could find love once more. I tell Jeff what my plans are and he just smiles knowing I was dead set on doing this. I would pick up a pokemon from the nearby ranch.
Then I thought about my home as I packed everything up and store it in the basement. I had a pretty sized house it was then I realized how little I had. I threw her stuff out as I knew keepin it would only make the pain worse.I thought of the next step as I had invested all my winnings into this home thinking I was planning for the future. I didn't want to sell it. Than I thought about renting it. It was a nice size house. I could have some extra money from doing that. It took one month of posting online for a response.
A trainer came up named Jeff. I asked if he had a brother. He looks at me weird and said no, he was an only child. His only brother was a Lucario named Link who ran past us into the house and began to bounce on the couch. I told him if he breaks anything that he would pay for it.
A Kadabra suddenly appears next to Jeff. He has a sleeping umbreon in his arms and has a laptop strap on his back. I ask him if he would make enough money by being a local trainer. He smiled up at me and nods, saying no problem as he makes money off of videos he post online with his Lucario.
Hearing the word Lucario makes me think of Ruby. It has been over a month since I heard from her. But she's gone. The pain in my heart still hurts. Jeff tries to control his Lucario who seems hell bent in trying to see if the house can withstand his power. The Kadabra looks at me with sadness in his eyes. 'One day you will find that love you seek weather it be human or pokemon. She will love you as you have a big heart. Those who have scorned you in the past are only steps you take to find your soulmate'
I see the Umbreon in his arms and understand what he means. The Kadabra cradles her as a loved one would. "Thank you" I smile at the Kadabra. I finally catch up with Jeff 2 as I think of him now. I tell him to pay my friend who will be by once a month to collect the rent. He pays 3 months in advance so he can set up in town for his prime shooting. As Jeff 2 makes grand gestures about his vision the Lucario is doing the exact movements of his trainer.I try not to laugh seeing them almost copy each other. I pick up my backpack and sling it over my shoulder, I bid farewell to him and his pokemon as I head towards Jeff's home.
He meets me half way with his love Jen and they both ask me to reconsider. They tell me that I'm making a rash decision. I simply shake my head no saying I have to do this. That I need to find my self. I need to find out if I have anything in me anymore. With that he wishes me luck as I kneel and hugged Jen as she wrapped her tails around me and hug me with them. I get up and shake Jeff's hand once more. I tell him I will call him as much as I can. I head off on my road in life as I reach the edge of town. I see the road to the ranch. I smile knowing I have many adventures ahead. As I take my first step out of town I hear a voice I didn't expect to hear.
'I'm sorry...'
I look around and see nothing but I know who that was. Knowing it was time to let the past go and I move forward towards tomorrow.
"Yesterday I did not want to be borrowed but this is the typewriter that sits before me and love is where yesterday is at."
Author's note : I wanted this to be sad. To many times I read a happy ending but what next can it last. Love is not forever. For some yes but not for all. This one was rattling in my head for a while. I did try to have it where it would have a happy ending but as I wrote I knew it wasn't going to happen. Mind you I hate sad stories. Yet in life we can't all be happy.
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