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-Simba-

I was walking with Martin to school. He was really worried because Jasper disappeared and we couldn't contact him since 2 days. I put my hand over the foxes shoulder and smiled to him.

'He is okay. You said the light in his room was on so he has to be fine, right?' I said lightly. He just nodded but the sadness was still on his face. We were about 100 meter from school when Martin stopped with his eyes wide open. I searched for something that shocked Martin so much. I couldn't believe what I saw! Some guy was walking in our direction. He looked totally like Jasper... well, maybe not totally. Our little wolf was rather shy but his guys looked pretty rebel. He had short purple hair, red eyes and gray fur on a skinny body just like Jasper. His left ear was pierced in two places. He was wearing skinny jeans, a black T-Shirt and a black, leather coat. He had a cigarette in his mouth.

'Jasper?' I asked. I wasn't sure if it's him. I looked at his forearm and saw the cuts. It had to be him.

He looked at me with an evil grin.

'What do ya want?' he asked as if he didn't remember us. For a second I thought it was a joke but his red eyes didn't lie. This guys only looked like Jasper but his personality was a 180 flip over.

'You want something or what?' he asked a bit irritated. Suddenly his eyes glowed and his smile became creepier than before. He touched his forearm and focused on Martin. The fox was shivering and couldn't look at the devilish version of his best friend. Jasper made a few steps to Martin and put his paw on the fox muzzle. They looked each other deep into their eyes. I could tell that Martin was scared as hell.

'Hello Martin. How are you today, honey?' said Jasper letting a cloud of smoke onto Martins face. He started to cough and tried to push the wolf away but he grabbed his both hands. I felt like I should do something but everything happened so fast.

'Don't be sad. I am better than the old Jasper' he said and licked Martins nose. After that he Martin was free and Jasper walked down the street letting us all alone on the pavement. I helped Martin to stand up and felt his arms wrap around my neck. He was crying. My body tensed up.

'Okay, Martin. Go to school. I will talk with Jasper.' I smiled and started to run after the wolf.

-Jasper-

The smoke filled my lungs once again. I was so proud of myself. Martin was scared while I was looking into his eyes. His fear gave me satisfaction. I wasn't so exited for a very long time. I felt insane but still so awesome.

'Hey Jasper' I heard the voice of that lion. My other ego didn't write his name on my second forearm so his name was unknown to me.

'What do ya wa...' a huge fist punched me in the muzzle and I could swear I heard a crunch. I fell on the ground. The lion was panting with rage. My lip was bleeding. I looked up at the muscular guy and started to laugh. I never felt so alive. All this satisfaction, pain and emotions. I just wanted more and more. I stood up and went closer to the lion. My head was on his shoulders high. I looked up and smiled at the confused and angry feline.

'What the hell are you doing?' he asked. 'What happened to you?'

'Please, lion' I said with a big smile. I couldn't believe someone like this guy liked my second personality. It was just hilarious! 'Come with me and I will tell you everything' I said a bit flirty and walked down the street to my favorite pub.

-Simba-

The pub was empty, only the girl behind the bar was enjoying her loneliness with a book. She looked at us and focused on the novel again. Jasper sat down at a table in the corner and fired up another cigarette. I sat on the opposite side in a comfy chair. The place looked awesome. It was all retro, walls with a lot of pictures of motorcycles and cars. The air was filled with the smell of meat and beer. I never had the urge to drink but I always liked the smell of alcohol. I had to look silly with my jaw wide open but suddenly I focused on the main problem- Jasper!

He was looking at me with an devilish grin and his red eyes were glowing in the half-dark room. He realiesed a big cloud of smoke and his grin transformed into a friendly smile. I felt like every one of my muscles tense up. The moment was totally awkward and I didn't knew how to start the conversation. Jasper opened his mouth and giggled.

'Relax, kitty. I' m not going to bite' his voice was gentle and friendly. 'So what do you want to know?'

I scratched my chin and thought how to start. I wanted just to know why has he changed but... It wasn't a normal change of the look. He was a different person and acted like he was someone else.

'Okay if you don't know what questions you want to ask let me just give you answers.' He said with a serious face. 'I am Jasper but not that one you know. There are two of us. Two different persons in one body. You could call it split personality or just insanity.' He laughed gently and put his paw on mine. I blushed a little. His hand was soft and I liked the heat beaming from it. 'The Jasper you know will return, don't worry. It just a matter of taking some stupid pills. He forgot to take them for too long and let me out. He has no memories of what I do and I have no memos of his live.'

'M-my name is Kiba' I said quietly. Jasper looked at me a bit confused. 'You don't know my name because you don't have memories of the wolf I met.'

'You catch up pretty fast' He smiled and took my paw in both his hands. I felt like my whole face is becoming red and I knew he noticed it. 'Kiba is a nice name. It suits you.' He smiled and I just couldn't hold out and looked the other way. 'Am I making you a bit uncomfortable?' His devilish grin came back but it wasn't so scary this time. I looked at him and shaked my head. I wasn't uncomfortable, I really liked the way he was to me.

'Sorry I was so rude with Martin.' I could really hear repentance in his voice. ' It just... I wanted to feel alive. I want to gain as much as I can before I give you the "real" Jasper back. I have no friends or anyone when I come out of my shell. I never even tried to make friends because I knew I am not going to stay here for long. After two or three days I take the pills that change our personalities back because I didn't want to harm nobody. Even if I thought that my second ego is the worse one he had started a life and I would have to begin with everything. I have no knowledge about school or even cooking. I wouldn't survive here.'

'Why?' I had tears in my eyes. He wasn't a bad... personality? He was just a lost child. 'Why is it so? Why are you both in one body?'

'If I knew' he smiled and put his paw on my face. He dried my tears and poked my nose as he took his paw away. 'I guess my parents know something but they are never home.'

Two girls entered the pub, sat at the bar and started to chat. There were going to be more people because the lunch time started and everyone wanted to find something for dinner.

'You want to eat something and watch a movie?' Jasper asked and I nodded. I felt a fire inside my chest and suddenly I didn't know what to do in this whole situation. I was hungry and his question sounded more like he would ask me on a date.

-Jasper-

I was sitting on my bed with Kiba's head on my lap. I petted his red hair and smiled. Today was the most beautiful day in my whole shattered life. I learned how to use sticks to eat sushi and saw a very good film. It told about a mad scientist who wanted to create a perfect being but at the end the creature killed itself because it felt lost in the imperfect world. A lonely tear fell from my eye. I really wanted to stay like this but just like the creature I didn't match this world. I reached to the shelf and took the pills. Kiba sat up and looked at me blankly. He knew I had to do it.

'I will try to talk to your parents and the second Jasper.' He sighed and looked me deep in the eyes. He was handsome and the sad look didn't fit him. 'I will explain everything to Martin'

'No' I said with a sad smile. 'Not everything'

My lips sealed with his in a long and passionate kiss. He stroked my cheek. And I felt like I had never before. I felt love. It made me even more sad because I had to say goodbye in a while. I broke the kiss and hugged the lion. His strong arms were wrapped around my neck tightly. After this day he wont look at the second Jasper the same way. Still he will know it's not the one who kissed him. I had a little satisfaction that I will have someone who is going to wait for me.

'Kiba... I love you'

His tears made my shirt wet and I could fell he was shivering but I had to return the life to someone else. I petted his head and played a little with his fluffy ears. I knew it was tickling him. I didn't want to see him cry. He looked at me with big, wet puppy eyes and sniffed.

'You should go... Tomorrow everything will be normal again.' I said with a forced smile and pushed him softly away. He stood up and walked to the door. He turned around and looked at me taking the pills. I laid down and saw him waving to me.

'I love you too' He whispered and everything went black.