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It was another quiet, boring day as Notrix walked down the dimly lit

hallway of the preschool. A stormy and otherwise melancholy Winter

afternoon made the whole building feel especially small, and the 14 year

old cat/raccoon hybrid loathed every minute of her time there already.

It had been a long day at school, and now she was stuck being there for

the next few hours - and she couldn't stand it! Sighing, she rolled her

eyes and looked at the time as she reached the end of the silent hall.

It was in the middle of the afternoon, and certainly after traditional

operating hours - but she absolutely had to be there, or else she'd be

in even worse trouble than she already was...

Notrix stopped and stared at the brightly lit and colorfully decorated

preschool room through a window on the door. Everything about it

screamed innocence and childish happiness - but Notrix wasn't feeling so

enthusiastic. The young teen wasn't there for fun, after all. Before

knocking on the heavy wooden door, she pulled out and unfolded a piece

of paper from her pocket and stared down with spite.

"Community Service Log," it read, with big, bold, intimidating letters.

Indeed, Notrix had gotten in trouble - and now she was learning her

lesson the hard way. It was only a few days ago she had gotten caught

stealing diapers from this same exact room. It was all very complicated,

and it was horrible to think that she had actually betrayed the trust

of a few people that meant so much to her. She didn't mean to disappoint

her mom or anyone else - but she couldn't help but try. She had been

in-and-out of trouble several times, but never before had she done

something so stupid and embarrassing.

When asked why she was stealing diapers from the preschool, she insisted

they were for someone else. She lied and insisted over and over that

she was just trying to keep them for her next babysitting job! Notrix

sometimes babysat on the weekends, and what better cover-up could there

have been? The truth was much stranger, and she scoffed at the thought

of what could have happened had they not believed her. The diapers were

actually for her - not anyone else! How could she possibly have

explained that?

"Hi there, you must be Notrix!" she suddenly heard.

The cat nearly jumped out of her own skin at the sudden surprise!

Standing behind her, a tall adult had snuck up behind her while she

wasn't paying any attention. She was a caretaker; a tall, young, white

rabbit with beautiful flowing hair and a friendly face. Hanging from her

neck was a lanyard that revealed the adult's name. Hanging over her

shoulder was a satchel with what looked like a bunch of boring books,

binders, and notes.

"O-Oh! I'm sorry to have scared you!" the adult apologized, chuckling as Notrix regained her composure.

Suddenly, the shy cat was in the company of others - and the attitude

that both protected her and got her in so much trouble began to reveal

itself.

"Yeah - that's me. Who else would I be? Duh," the teen prissily scoffed.

The preschool worker laughed, shook her head, and began to unlock the

door into the classroom. It wasn't a good idea to be smart with the

person in charge of your community service hours, but Notrix couldn't

help but give off the tough exterior she was notorious for.

"Now, now - no need to be sour. I appreciate your help even though I

know you don't want to be here," the adult explained as they walked in

together.

Notrix gazed around the preschool and observed. The whole room was meant

to house plenty of playful, cheery cubs - and it seemed to be settled

in quite well. Kiddish paintings, posters, and miscellaneous decorations

lavished the brightly colored walls. Most of the floor was covered in

soft carpet and playmats, as well as messily scattered toys. The room

had a big round table to sit at with little chairs, easels to paint or

draw on, chalkboards to teach on, and all sorts of things that made even

the nervous and bitter Notrix smile. It was truly the happiest and

safest place for cubs to be in that Notrix had ever seen.

Of course, one of the first things Notrix had stared directly at was the

changing table in the corner. Diapers stacked up underneath the

platform where a cub would be getting changed, and flashes of what had

happened a few days ago played in Notrix's mind. Of course, the teacher

stared over at Notrix and knew exactly what was going on.

"I heard all about why you're here, Notrix. I'm not going to belittle

you or discipline you anymore than I'm sure you already have. Let's just

do the right thing and get through this," she said to the anxious teen.

Notrix shrugged.

Her punishment was simple; she was to come in and clean the place up

however it needed to be - not just today, but for several other days,

too. She'd help him put up the decorations, organize the toys, clean the

tables, or do anything else that seemed like petty grunt work while the

teacher was doing more important things. It seemed like a terrible

time, but it was an honest way to pay for trying to steal. Her mom and

her principal were all going to verify that she was doing the things she

was supposed to, so there was no getting out of this one anyway.

"S-So... what do you want me to do?" Notrix asked.

The teacher idly walked over to his desk and began sorting papers out.

"Hmm... you see all those toys all over the floor? Can you start by

putting them all in that big toy chest over on the other side of the

playmat? Anything that doesn't fit can just go in those containers next

to it," the teacher said.

Notrix understood completely, and sighed as she saw the enormous mess

that the kidfurs had made earlier during the day. Blocks, action

figures, dolls, and generic toys were seemingly tossed randomly all over

the place. It all started with a simple toy dinosaur; she scooped up

the toy in her paw, and tossed it into the chest like she was

instructed. Next was a pony; a light blue one with rainbow colored hair.

She recognized it from TV, and kind of liked the show - though she

never dared admit it. Tossing the pony into the toy chest, she resumed

her cleaning duties in silence.

But although she stayed quiet on the outside, there was nothing quiet

inside of her head. Each toy she picked up, she thought about it. She

thought about why she was there in the first place; not because of her

punishment, but why she did what she did. It was because of the diapers,

but she wanted to wear them because she loved the idea of being little

again! It was a deep, dark secret of her's - something she was certain

others wouldn't ever understand. She wasn't all bad, just rough around

the edges. She was sensitive but had to be tough. The last thing she

wanted was to be another target!

Notrix hated doing chores and hated the fact that she had to be there in

the preschool because of her punishment - but she loved being there

otherwise. The bright colors, the toys, and kiddish happiness of

everything - she loved the idea of being one of those kids and playing

and having fun again! It was a time of innocence; something she felt she

was losing every day. She was growing up fast and she hated it.

Everything she learned about the adult world was terrifying and

intimidating - that was why she acted so tough.

You had to be tough in a world like this, after all. How much better

would it be if she could just be taken care of her like a baby? She

loved to draw, color, write, and watch stuff on TV that was meant for

kidfurs much younger than her. Of course, she liked the idea of being

fed from a bottle, wearing diapers, and just being a baby again - was

that really so bad? She knew other kidfurs would think so, and so would

adults. They wouldn't understand why feeling littler made her feel so

much better because it hardly made sense to her! It was her own little

secret that she kept to herself. And so she did.

But it wasn't the only secret she had. Notrix also loved to be bold, and

on a day like this, she was especially so. In the silence as she

cleaned, a soft, quiet crinkling could be heard from the diaper she had

put on this morning before school. It was a daring move, but Notrix

loved wearing diapers. It was one of her favorite things to do, after

all - and wearing one right now, where she was, brought her a bit closer

to what she wanted. She thought about what it must be like to be able

to wear freely and be herself without any consequence...

Of course, as bold and daring as little Notrix was, she was also foolish

to believe her secret was well hidden. In the silence, as she walked

back-and-forth to clean the room, crinkling could be heard with her

every step. To most, it wouldn't be noticed - but to someone experienced

as the preschool teacher - it was a subtle giveaway to what was going

on. At first, the adult thought they were simply hearing things in her

head. But as she stopped what she was doing and listened in, she knew

without a doubt that Notrix was wearing a diaper.

The signs were all there; the way she walked with a strange waddle, the

rustling as she moved around, and he could even see a bulged outline of

it as she bent down to grab something from the floor. The diaper was

thick and not easily hidden from someone like the teacher, and suddenly,

everything began to make sense. Why else would she have been stealing

diapers from the preschool? The adult shook her head and chuckled to

herself in disbelief; why didn't she see it or think about it sooner?

Unbeknownst to Notrix, her secret was poorly kept. The adult in the room

was well onto her. But there was more that she was not aware of. As the

teacher idly did the paperwork, she kept a small eye on her - and

thought about how he could possibly reveal to Notrix that she wasn't the

only kidfur that wore diapers. Indeed, it was a small town. The

grownups had kept a close eye on their kin and knew what was going on in

their lives - and wearing diapers for fun or wanting to be babied

wasn't as outlandish or uncommon as it may have been in the past. It was

a secret to those who did not know, but those who did know - knew that

it was completely harmless. How could he possibly explain without

scaring her? It began as the teacher cleared her throat. Notrix stopped

and looked at the adult from the far side of the room, wondering if she

had done it to get Notrix's attention.

"Yeah?" Notrix asked, tossing a toy into the toybox. She was mostly finished by now.

"Um... Notrix, can I ask you a question?" the adult began.

Of course, the teen just shrugged.

"...why did you steal diapers from my classroom?" she then asked.

Notrix's heart stopped, and the angsty teen flicked the hair out of her

eyes only for her bangs to cover one of them all over again. She was put

on the spot...

"I... thought you said you knew all about why I was here..." she groaned.

"I do. I know what you did, and I mean... they told me what you told them.

But I just don't get why that'd drive you to stealing," the grownup

confronted.

She was as slow, gentle, and as cautious as she could be. Meanwhile,

Notrix was on edge. The cat froze in her place and stared directly at

her attacker before immediately going on the defensive. Notrix scoffed,

rolled her eyes, and flailed her arms.

"Whatever! It was dumb - okay? Can't we just drop it?" she whined.

"If you don't want to talk about it, that's okay, too. I'm not mad. None

of us are. We just don't want you to ever think stealing is okay,

because it's not," the teacher began.

Standing up from her desk, she abandoned her boring paperwork and

redirected her attention towards Notrix - who clearly had something to

hide. Unbeknownst to Notrix, however, she was hiding for no reason.

There was nothing to be afraid of.

"Off the record, Notrix - I'm saying this to you as a person. If someone

stole diapers because they needed them, or couldn't afford them... I'd

help them out. That makes them less fortunate. But if they stole them

because they... wanted to wear them... and were too embarrassed to buy

them themselves... well... maybe I'd tell them they had no reason to be

afraid, because they weren't the only ones who liked wearing diapers,"

the teacher said.

It was a bold move, and nothing but silence followed. Notrix stood there

silently with heat bursting in her chest. Her eyes widened, and she

swallowed hard as she began to realize her secret wasn't a secret any

longer. The two locked eyes, but it was Notrix who began to yield. She

stepped back and nearly tripped on a toy before regaining her composure.

What was she going to say?! What could she possibly do!? They couldn't

possibly find this out about her! What if they told everyone else?

"I-I don't know what you're talking about," she began.

But they both knew that wasn't true.

Notrix's embarrassed silence spoke louder than any words she was tempted

to yell. On any other day, in any other situation - the young, angsty

teen would have shouted and screamed with fury. She'd have defended

herself and lied until there was nothing left to lie about; her pride

was more important than anything else. But the strange situation she was

put in was so outlandish that it had actually taken her by surprise,

and she found herself too speechless to lie. How did this adult know

about her wearing diapers for fun? Why was she saying anything about it

instead of just keeping her big mouth shut? This was a secret so dark

and was hidden for so long that she knew that there had to be a reason.

"W-What're... what're you gonna do!?" Notrix asked.

Half of her face was covered in long hair so only one big surprised and panicked eyeball stared back at the grownup.

"N-Nothing, Notrix! I mean it!" the adult admitted.

There was more silence but this time the adult broke it. The rabbit

knelt down so she was closer to Notrix's level; the tough, bold teen was

clearly shook and scared. This was a vulnerable side of her that no one

saw often because she tried her absolute hardest to hide it.

"I just... wanted you to know that I know. And that I won't tell anyone," they began.

Notrix's heart was on fire. Suddenly the diaper between her legs felt

uncomfortable. She wanted nothing to do with it. As the two stared at

each other, she began to regret being so stupid as to seriously believe

she could wear a diaper to school and not get noticed...

"...but I also wanted to tell you that I know because you're not the

only one, Notrix. I don't know what your story is but it's not as

uncommon as you'd think," they continued.

Notrix's attention snapped; she heard everything her teacher had to say.

"I-I mean, I can't tell you who. That's not for me to say. But around

here, us grownups know more than you kidfurs think - and I know for a

fact that there's no reason for you to steal diapers just because you're

too embarrassed," they finished.

"W-What're you saying?" Notrix responded.

"...are you telling me there's... other people here? In this school that...

um..." Notrix began. She was still too shy to dare admit what they were

talking about.

But the preschool teacher's slow nod made her gasp. The teenage cat was

absolutely speechless; it was all too much to take in at once.

Everything had happened so fast. Of course she was embarrassed about

everything. She knew that what was happening was strange, but she wasn't

scared. She didn't trust them much now, but she knew she could, if she

allowed herself to. This was someone she had seen around plenty of

times. They had a reputation, a friendly face, never did anything wrong

to her, and she knew nothing was happening in bad taste. Those three

things were the only reason why she didn't panic and run. Of course, the

rabbit was relieved that his approach wasn't bad.

The teacher could tell that Notrix had a lot on her mind now. It must have been quite overwhelming to hear for her!

"Yes, Notrix. It may be silly... but there are others like you. You don't

need to feel afraid anymore, dear. You'll be okay," the teacher began.

Carefully, the grown rabbit placed her big paw on Notrix's shoulder. She

was still knelt down to the teen's level, no different than when she

handles a little cub. Notrix was looking away, and her lip began to

quiver as emotions began to come rushing in. She had a lot bottled up,

after all - and showing some of her weakness was an easy way for strong

emotions to follow. In the silence, under Notrix's concealing bangs -

light sniffling could be heard. The adult had hit a nerve.

Though the adult wasn't sure why Notrix was beginning to cry, it was all

too clear to Notrix where it was all coming from. Shame was filling her

head. She felt so unbelievably guilty for betraying so many peoples'

trust. Her principal, her mother, and others who heard about it - all

seemed to be looking down upon Notrix with conviction. She didn't care

at first... but somehow, being confronted about it like this seemed to

make her break and now the tears couldn't stop flowing. How could she

seriously have disappointed so many people for such a stupid reason?

"Shh, shh... it's okay Notrix..." she heard the teacher say.

The adult's voice was gentle. One thing led to the next and before she

knew it the angsty teenager found herself enveloped in the arms of the

grownup. The two were locked in a warm embrace for some time as Notrix

continued to cry. The grownup consoled her, all the while.

"E-Everyone... everyone thinks... thinks I'm a thief!" she complained.

"No one thinks that, dear. It'll be alright," the rabbit explained.

For some time longer, Notrix continued to cry and vent. Emotions and

stress poured out of her, and the empty classroom stayed silent as she

let it all out. But in time, Notrix's spirits needed to be lifted. The

teacher felt awful for Notrix's sake, and it was natural that her

caregiver instincts began to kick in.

"Shh, shhh... I know what'll make you feel better," the teacher said.

Reaching downward, the teacher grabbed one of the last remaining toys

left on the floor, and held it up to Notrix's level. Making silly

noises, she did her best to make Notrix laugh.

"W-What're... s-stop! Ah... erm..." the sad teen sad.

She did her best to not laugh, but a chuckle or two escaped her at the

sight of the silly toy in front of her. Her teacher didn't stop, though.

The rabbit caregiver continued to make silly noises and do outrageous

things in an effort to make her sobbing, overgrown cub laugh a little.

Of course, it did make Notrix stop crying - but she was left feeling

melancholy and tired.

"Sit down, dear. Let me go fetch you something that'll make you feel

better," the grownup said. Notrix lazily complied, and slowly descended

onto the playmat.

Wiping her tears and sniffling her little nose, Notrix looked around the

room again. It had gotten darker outside, as the sun was beginning to

set. Staring upwards from how low she was to the ground made her feel

even smaller, and the diaper squeezing between her butt and the floor

made it all the more intense. What was going to happen next?

"Here Notrix. Just... take this, and lean back," she heard.

At once, a baby bottle filled with milk seemed to appear right in front

of her. Her teacher was behind her, reaching the bottle up to her mouth.

Notrix was reluctant to lay back into the teacher's embrace, but it was

something that couldn't be resisted. Apprehensively, she fell backward

and felt her head rest on the shoulder of the adult. The nipple of the

baby bottle soon found its way into the teen's mouth, and before she had

anytime to stop it - she was soon swooned by the warm sensation of

being bottle fed for the first time in years. It was an unbelievable

sensation; one that Notrix had longed for.

Again, silence filled the room. The adult kept the baby bottle in

Notrix's mouth, rocking back and forth gently as the teen drink every

drop like the little baby she longed to be. Notrix's heart was racing

the whole time, but it gradually settled down as the baby bottle began

to empty. Somehow, Notrix knew she could trust this grownup. Mouthful

after mouthful, Notrix drank from the bottle and let the grownup take

care of her... but she'd inevitably finish it off. But the end of one good

thing would lead into another...

"Good girl. We're almost finished here, Notrix. It's almost time for you

to go home," the teacher concluded, pulling the now-empty bottle away

from the teen's mouth.

"Mhm," Notrix nodded.

The grown rabbit wandered away to wash the baby bottle. Meanwhile,

Notrix fidgeted and wiped her face. She glowed with all sorts of strange

feelings; a mix of her babyish mentality meeting with adult

contemplation and bewilderment. But she would soon make a discovery that

would make her shame worse, and the babyish emotions skyrocket. The

little teen rose to her feet, but to her dismay... she discovered a big,

dark, wet spot where she was sitting. Notrix had leaked her diaper!

"Oh no!" Notrix gasped, before immediately descending back down. But it was too late.

A loud splut sound rang out, and Notrix's diaper felt like a puddle had

splashed up. Notrix must have gotten carried away while being bottle

fed; she was often one to leak her diapers because she would be in them

for too long! But now she was really in for it. The adult had encouraged

her to be herself, but now she had leaked all over her pants and the

carpet below. How angry was the teacher going to be!? Notrix sighed...

"Um... Notrix... was... that a puddle, underneath you?" her teacher asked.

Notrix's heart sank so deep into her stomach she felt nauseous!

"Wha-what!? N-No!" Notrix lied.

But it was no use. Notrix's wide, terrified eyes told the truth for her.

"O-Oh... Notrix... you really should have asked for a change, dear," the teacher said.

Notrix stayed silent, and sulked. She was really in trouble now...

"...c'mon, scoot over. Let me clean you up... we can't have you leaving

puddles in your parent's car, now can we?" the teacher said.

Notrix thought she was about to have a heart attack.

"H-Huh?" Notrix whined.

"I'm... going to change your diaper for you, Notrix. You're leaking!

Unless you'd rather do it yourself, but you have to get out of that..."

the teacher confronted.

Notrix could tell there was no getting out of this one. Her teacher was

right; no way was she getting in the backseat with her diaper leaking

all over like it was. The rabbit smiled, and nodded her head kindly as

Notrix scooted over, and laid down on the floor. Of course, the teen cat

was blushing, and her heart was racing faster than ever. This was one

of the things she had wanted most - and she trusted her teacher enough

to let it happen.

"There, there. No need to be shy. I've told you once and I'll tell you

again. You're not the only big cub in town.... certainly not the first

big cub who needed a diaper change..." she gently teased. Notrix wanted to

know more, but kept her mouth shut for now - just to relax.

Kneeling down, the grownup flipped Notrix's skirt up over her tummy, and

slowly pulled the teen's pants down - where a very soggy diaper

awaited. The baby-printed diaper swelled and crinkled loudly as Notrix

wiggled about. Tearing one side off, and then the next - Notrix blushed

even redder as she found herself exposed to the unphased but trustworthy

caretaker. After spreading her legs a bit for the caretaker, she winced

as an icy cold baby wipe spread across and cleaned her shame away. A

yellow wipe, and then another yellow wipe both found themselves

discarded into the soiled diaper.

Next, the rabbit pulled the teen cat's diaper out from underneath.

Balling it up and tossing it to the side, Notrix felt the adrenaline

rush as a clean and fresh diaper was slid beneath her. Suddenly, a big

puff of baby powder clouded the air between the cub and the caretaker,

and Notrix wiggled playfully as the rabbit rubbed the powder against her

fur. With the babyish scent filling her nostrils, Notrix couldn't help

but feel goosebumps all over. This experience was nothing short of

amazing to her...

"Okay, all done, little one," the preschool teacher playfully teased as

she finished putting the fresh diaper onto her cub. Notrix smiled.

Sitting up, Notrix found herself pantless with the diaper poking out

from beneath her skirt. Feeling her bare legs and the diaper press

against the carpet, with the grownup standing over her, made her feel

unbelievably little. She didn't want to go home!

"I-I don't... want to leave!" Notrix said.

But it had to be so.

"Aww... I know, little Notrix. Don't worry baby girl, we'll see each other

again soon. Your parents will be here soon, so I need you to get your

pants back on. Unless you want to explain your diaper to them, too," the

teacher explained.

Notrix didn't want that. Not yet.

"Okay," she reluctantly sighed.

At once, the teen pulled her pants back on. They were a little damp, but

nothing could be done. The moment she got home, they were to be tossed

into the laundry. Surely, a little damp spot wouldn't ruin anything or

be obvious. At least Notrix hoped not...

"Did you enjoy yourself?" the preschool teacher asked.

Notrix most certainly did. She was still shy, and was still trying to

take everything in; there was so much to handle during her few hours.

But something inside of her knew that things were going to be okay now.

She wanted to know more about the other kidfurs in her area that were

just like her. Did she know any of them? Would she ever meet them? What

else was going on out there that the shy teen didn't know about? Notrix

was sure to find out.

"Thanks... for everything," Notrix said.

In the distance, as they walked down the halls and approached the

parking lot, they could both see headlights from a parked car. There was

no doubt in Notrix's mind that this was her ride. As she and the

teacher hugged, a certain bond was formed. Something changed for her

that day; something she couldn't explain. A weight had been lifted from

her shoulders, and a new sense of the world seemed to augment her

perception. The shy teen felt... happier now. Climbing into her car, and

driving home at long last - she wasn't sure what tomorrow was to bring,

but Notrix had a feeling that this was the beginning of something new.

She knew not what to expect, but she was very, very eager to find out.