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~~Ben~~

'What a day,' I thought to myself as I walked towards my room. Practice sucked, I was having trouble minding my strength and Louis seriously pissed me off as he continued talking shit about Dil. Apparently Glen had rammed a soccer ball into Roy Nelsons face and Dil had walked him to the nurses office to get treatment. I just hoped Dil was actually there because I was getting tired of this running around. I was planning on cornering him and making him tell me what happened but sadly, the room was completely empty.

Sighing in defeat, I checked my messages and saw it was empty as well. His bow was still there also so he hadn't gone to the Archery Range either. 'Maybe he's with Howie?' I thought to myself. If he wasn't with me he was almost always near Howie, the two of them seriously hit it off in middle-school. With that in mind I walked towards Howie's room where I heard loud music coming from. Wincing at the volume I knocked on the door and heard cursing and shuffling until a slim leopard opened the door. Looking in I saw Stacy Rich fling herself under the covers...oh... the leopards annoyed face swiftly turned into surprise.

"Ben? What are you going here? Dillon not with you?" He asked, completely not seeing the panther behind me.

"He isn't, Howie not here? I was going to ask him if he's seen Dil." The leopard, James just shrugged in response.

"Howie is probably at the weight room, but he didn't say anything bout meeting up with Dillon." I gave him a thankful nod and apologized for... interrupting him since both me and Dil were sexually active. (Yes, I had slept with a few girls in my time. Wasn't really hard to find a girl who was willing to do so, being the schools basketball star certainly had it's perks.)

We both agreed that if we had a date we would NOT use our room for hookups (Dil really preferred the room not smelling like sex.) so it always happened either in the other persons room or we met up somewhere else. (Sneaking into the girls dorm was surprisingly easy.) Howie and James obviously had a different method for handling such things. Everyone had rules like that, it came with being a co-ed boarding school. Sex happened and nobody wanted to walk in on their roommate doing the nasty.

Eventually I made it to the weight room which was on the ground floor of the men's dormitory. It looked like your typical gym with weight benches, treadmills and the like. Howie was on one of those benches with his teammate Milo Hubert, a horse acting as his spotter. He had just gotten finished doing a set when he noticed me.

"Hey man! What brings you here?" He cried out as he sat himself up. "Dil not with you?" He asked as he took a swig of his Gatorade.

"I was thinking he was with you?" I asked anxiously. "You seen him anywhere?"

"Nope! Haven't seen him all day but I wouldn't be worried though, I'm sure he's fine." He stated after seeing my worry.

'That may very well be true but where the hell is he?'

~~Dil~~

I let out a sigh as I laid back into Roy's bare chest. My belly was covered in my own spunk as my tail clenched around Roy's knotted cock. I might have stated this before but canines were my favorite, even though I certainly had a deep affection for a fellow feline barbs and I loved the state of being tied the most out of everything, especially the feelings of closeness. Roy just growled at the feeling.

"You drained me man, that was awesome!" He sighed as he wrapped his arms around me. The room stank of lube, cum and buttsex and I had no idea how he'd get things aired out by the time his roommate got back. I also stank... stank of him mostly and I would probably use his shower like he offered. "It's nice actually being able to remember sex."

"Say it is..." I yawned out. "So how long until you deflate again? I need a shower... like bad! Plus I got laundry duty."

"Be another ten or so minutes honestly, should probably do laundry myself, running low on uniforms." I just nodded as i reached for my phone, I had turned it off so we wouldn't get interrupted and frowned when I saw I had like 30 text messages from Ben. Almost immediately after it rang and I picked it up.

"Hello?" I asked and Ben's angry voice rang out from the other end.

"Where the fuck are you!? I've looked everywhere for you! Why did you have your phone off?!" I rolled my eyes at that, did he seriously think I had to answer to him about everything?

"I'm with Roy," I explained patiently. "Not that that's any of your business! I had my phone off because we were busy alright? So calm down!"

"You're with Roy? Roy Nelson? I thought you were avoiding him because of the Halloween incident!"

"I was, but I'm not now and again this is really not any of your business! I'll see you in a bit goodbye!" I said before hanging up and turning off the phone. With a shake of my head I let out a frustrated sigh. Why the hell did he have to be so damn overprotective? Wasn't like I was completely helpless...

"Things okay for you?" Roy asked me curiously. "You two haven't gotten into a fight have you?" I just shook my head, we hadn't had a fight... not yet at least and he was probably going to force me to tell him what happened but I already had a counter plan.

"We're fine, don't worry!" I said as I felt his condom covered penis slip out of me. Getting up, I stretched and walked towards the shower to which I REALLY needed one. "Thanks Roy, I had a good time, we should meet up again sometime!" I said as I slipped into the bathroom.

The room was clean thankfully and it seemed that Roy and his roommate did their best to keep things clean which I greatly appreciated. Since I was already naked I turned the shower on and waited for it to heat up. Once I found it warm I stepped inside and let out a purr as I felt the water flow through my furs. I was really sticky (Yay for feline multiple orgasm potential!) on my belly furs so my primary focus was getting that cleaned first. As I did so my thoughts drifted back to Ben... I was so going to catch hell from him later for hanging up but he seriously pissed me off!'Calm down Dil, he means well, even if his way of doing it needs work. He was just worried about you.' Cosmo stated from behind me.

'Even still, I can handle myself! He has no right to force himself into my business like he did with Howie and Steve!' I fumed. 'I know he cares and all but I can't rely on him for everything. After school who knows what will happen and even if we both got into NYU we would have different classes and priorities. And after college we'll probably go our own ways so we can't stay together 24 forever. Things like work, family and other things would effect that.' I thought with a sigh. 'He'll probably find a girl during college or something and she would become his main priority.' I thought.

'What if he is dating you though?' Cosmo asked hopefully though I just gave him a snort. Yeah, not likely since I still refused to make the first move and Ben is as unknowable as ever on the issue. Sensing that, Cosmo just frowned. 'I still think you should tell him, it'd give you closure even if he says no.' Sometimes I envied his optimism but I was rather annoyed at it currently.

'I'd rather not face the humiliation of rejection thank you, especially not from Ben!' I thought sharply before I noticed the water was going cold. Shivering I hurriedly turned the water off and stepped under the furdryer. While I waited for my fur to dry I picked at my claws, I really didn't want to face Ben but I didn't have a choice. I still needed to get laundry done.

'How on earth do I get myself in these situations... it's times like this that I wished Raymond had never went to California. I really do miss him, but then again we dated for nearly a year, he actually spent Christmas with me, Ben and Dad! (His Parents had other plans so they allowed it) Hell, we would probably still be dating if he was still here and I wouldn't be in this situation...' Once I was sure I was fully dry I put my uniform back on and made sure everything was neat. Once things were in order I stepped out and saw Roy spraying air-freshener to get rid of the sex smell.

"I'm heading out...I had a good time, see you in gym!" I told him as I reached to the door. He didn't say anything, he just nodded as I let myself out dreading the eventual confrontation with Ben.

~~Ben~~

"He hung up on me!" I shouted as I looked towards my phone. "I can't believe he did that! What's gotten into him?!" Howie just stared at me awkwardly as Milo backed away as if afraid I would take my wrath out on him.

"Something wrong?" The horse asked cautiously. "You two haven't gotten in a fight have you? It isn't like Dillon to up and hang up on someone and you two have been inseparable as long as anyone can remember!" I just shook my head. It was true that we hadn't been in a fight...at least not to my knowledge but since yesterday he's been acting so odd.

"No we haven't, not as far as I'm aware..." I said before turning towards Howie, my eyes all but begging him to tell me what was wrong. "You know something Howie, Dil's hiding something and it scares me, it's never good when he hides something." I said remembering those days in middle-school where he would do nothing but stare at the wall, the days where he struggled with the fact he was gay. I had no idea what was wrong and that scared me more than I would like to admit. "Please, I'll do anything, I've got to know what he's hiding!"

Howie just fidgeted on the weight bench, it was obvious he was uncomfortable and I did feel bad about putting him in this situation but I had no other option right now so I was desperate. For a moment it looked like he was about to spit it out before he clamped down and closed his eyes. When he opened him I knew his answer, the look of pity and a bit of frustration, probably aimed at Dil mostly I'd wager.

"I'm sorry Ben I can't...I gave him my word and a Todd never goes back on their word. If you want to know you need to ask Dil, he can't avoid you forever so just try and talk to him tonight if you can manage." He said before getting up. "Hey, me and Milo are going to grab something at McDonald's wanna come?" He offered and my stomach growled at the thought of food...I hadn't eaten since lunch and my body wasn't happy about that obviously.

"Sure, I'm starving." I said. "But let me get changed out of my basketball gear... and shower maybe, I stink." I said as I sniffed myself and winced at the stench.

Howie just laughed at that. "I'm probably gonna catch a shower also. Jay should be done by now so we'll meet up in an hour and if you find Dil drag him along!" Howie said, and with that I was all by myself in the weight room.

Silently I made my way to my room and noticed it was open. Stepping inside I saw Dil standing in the room, he was holding the laundry baskets and looked about ready to leave before he noticed me. I stood in the doorway blocking his path and glared at him. This running was gonna end now and I would make damn sure of that!

"What the hell is going on Dil? I know you're hiding something! What is it? Who hurt you? And don't you dare lie to me again!" I snarled out. "You're worrying me...this isn't like you, why are you running away from me? I'm your best friend, did I do something wrong?" I then stated, letting my confusion and frustration step out. Dil just sighed, he didn't look happy at me but I didn't really care, I was tired of being left in the dark.

"It's none of your concern Ben, I'm fine." He said firmly. "But please, I've got to get laundry done so move so I can do so." I just shook my head, there was no way I was letting him go without telling me know what was going on with him. "Ben, move!" He growled out eyes flashing.

"Not until you tell me what's going on!" I told him firmly. "Who hurt you? I promise I won't fry them THAT bad, they'd still be recognizable in the morgue!" I growled. Dil just shook his head and glared at me with a surprising amount of force.

"It's none of your business Ben! I'm FINE!" He hissed out angrily. "You don't have to worry about me all the time!" He said before his ears drooped. "Just please Ben, drop it? If it was serious I would tell you." I just growled, my whole body was shaking in anger, none of my business my ass!

"It damn well is my business Dil! I swore to your dad that I'd always look out for you! You are my best friend! I'd do anything for you but I'm not dropping this until you tell me why you are hiding the person who hurt you from me! Why are you protecting them?"

"Because I'm afraid you would get in trouble!" He shouted out in frustration. "I know how you are Ben! You'd place them in the hospital in an instant! You barely avoided getting suspended for slugging Steve! You could wind up in jail! I'm not letting you risk wasting your life in attempt to avenge me!" I just stared at him in shock, he was worried about me?

"I'm fine Dil, but whoever hurt you must pay! If they don't this will happen again!" I stated firmly "I'm not letting that happen!" I begged. "Please Dil, just tell me..."

"I'm sorry Ben, I can't..." He said sadly before he blasted me with lightning. It happened so fast I didn't even have time to set up a shield. The blast hit me in the chest, stunning me while he ran past letting out a quick apology before he vanished. Dil just attacked me... he was so desperate to keep his secret he blasted me.

"Dil..." I muttered as I tried to hold back tears. "What's going on with you...why are you running away from me? Did I do something wrong?" Composing myself the best I could I got up and headed to the shower, grabbing a sweater and jeans on the way.

'Maybe getting something to eat would help my thoughts?'

...

It didn't... as I sat with Howie and Milo my thoughts were still centered on Dil. But thankfully I got a text from Boss... A reaping mission, simple enough. I quickly finished my Big Mac with some coffee before I excused myself from the two.

"Gotta run! Something came up! See you back at school!" I told them before I ran off, ignoring Howie's protests. He was a nice guy but being around him made me think of Dil even more, especially since he was always more Dil's friend than mine. Once I was sure I was alone I quickly grabbed my flute and activated my powers, letting the familiar heat wash through me. Once it was complete I looked at my phone and checked where it was and texted Hope to find a rendezvous point. Once everything was settled I pocketed my phone and rushed off not noticing that I had been followed.

~~Howie~~

'What the hell?' The bear thought as he just stared at where Ben had burst into flames. He hadn't meant to snoop but he was curious at where Ben had gone so he had followed him into an alleyway and was about to confront him before he took out that flute and boom! 'I must be seeing things...' He reasoned to himself. 'People don't just burst into flames after playing a flute.' But that was what he had saw just now.

"I'll just ask him about it later." The bear said to himself before an icy chill ran down his spine. At the corner of his eye he saw the shadows had began to converge on several sites around him. He could vaguely make out the figures come from those spots until they slowly but surely resembled feral animals. "What the hell!?" He cried out. He knew something was very... VERY wrong here, he didn't like the way those beasts looked at all!

His flight or fight instincts kicked in right then and decided on flight. Before the shadows were fully formed he ran past them and into the streets. He had to warn Ben! And Milo! Those monsters were dangerous! He knew it in his bones! He heard the beasts unholy cries as they continued to chase after him. He continued to run in the alleyways until he found himself at a dead end.

"Shit! Shit! Fuck! Damn!" He cursed as he found himself trapped. 'Is this how I'm going to die?' He thought to himself sadly. 'Eaten by these shadowy abominations?' Fear rang through his heart and he was just about to give up hope before he heard someone cry something out.

"Tir Sacré!" A bright bolt made up of both light and electricity slammed down towards the ground, vaporizing the shadows and temporarily blinding Howie. Once he stopped seeing stars Howie opened his eyes and was relieved the shadows were indeed gone but as they vanished several tiny balls of light spawned from them and then went above him as if drawn in by a magnet.

Looking up he saw the lights converge on a figure. The figure itself was slightly blurry but he could still make the figure out, he'd recognize it anywhere.

"Dil!?" He cried out, catching the figure off guard and causing him to fall. 'Yep definitely Dil...only he could be that clumsy. ' Howie thought while face-pawing. "Get down here!" He ordered and reluctantly the feline hovered down and the closer he got the clearer he got to the bears eyes. "What the hell just happened!? What were those things!? Why are you transparent? Why are you dressed funny?" He asked motioning towards the black and white getup the panther was wearing.

"I'm surprised you can see me... I had no idea you were spiritually aware..." The panther mused before focusing on the questions. "Those were Shadows, soulless monsters that eat well... souls. I'm transparent because I'm in a spirit state, you shouldn't even be able to see me and what do you mean I'm dressed funny?" He pouted before gripping his neck which was covered in a thin white scarf and with a bright flash he was normal again wearing a blue sweater and black jeans. "But what are you doing out here?"

"I was following Ben. Me, him and Milo were eating at McDonald's before he got a text and ran off saying something came up. I was curious so I followed him into the alleyway then he suddenly took out a flute and played it before he burst into flames!" Dil just sighed and shook his head before speaking once more.

"Let's go back to school, I'll explain everything there okay? But first let's fetch Milo, he's probably annoyed at being left alone." Howie nodded then blushed as they walked back out of the alleyway. They found Milo still at the restaurant and he was indeed miffed at being left alone. After apologizing profusely the trio wound up back at the school and Dil and Howie found themselves inside Dil and Ben's room.

"Now, what I tell you must not be repeated you understand right? There are forces far bigger than any of us... Forces beyond even my understanding." The panther started. "All my life I've been able to see Spirits... You see, Shadows are ghosts who became corrupted and lost their souls. When I was little I befriended a trio of young spirits but they grew jealous when I started making living friends. That caused them to turn into shadows and devour each other. They harassed me for months until the day my mother died and the Reaper who was assigned to her slayed them. Ben is exactly like that who reaps souls and sends them to the afterlife."

"Are you a Reaper?" Howie asked confused which made Dil chuckle.

"I'm a Lumiere; a group of Mediums that have obtained the power of light." He said. "But we have lots to talk about." He said before explaining everything in detail.

~~Ben~~

"That was easy!" I said as I waved the spirit goodbye as it faded. For once we weren't attacked by Shadows so it was a quick job. Hope just nodded as she adjusted her cloak, she still wasn't fully used to having a tail it seemed.

"Yeah which is unusual but other than that how are things with Dil? You get him to tell you who hurt him?" I just shook my head, she seemed surprised. "Really? Odd..."

"He attacked me... I tried cornering him and making him tell me but he wound up zapping me out of the way." I confessed. "I never thought he would do so, it's why I didn't set up a shield but..."

"I can't believe he actually attacked you... that can't be normal..."

"It isn't..." I stated while shaking my head. "Dil hates violence, if he is willing to resort to violence instead of telling me it has to be serious" I muttered before I got up from where I had been sitting. "But let's get back, I just want to lay down..." Hope just nodded and we were both about to head out before I got a text, it was from Dil and what it said shocked me

'Howie attacked by shadows He saw you transform Trying to explain things but need help Get here now please!'

The text read Hope looked over my shoulder to see it and gasped.

"He saw you transform!?You idiot! You let a mortal see you transform! We'll probably have to erase his memory!"

"We are not touching his memory! Dil would never allow it on one paw and the other I won't, Howie is a friend, he deserves to know everything so his memory stays!" I stated firmly. Hope just sighed in defeat before agreeing

"Fine his memory stays but if he blabs it's on you!" She stated before she started her way back.

I followed her in silence as Suzaku hovered around me. 'Where have you been!?' I asked him annoyed. 'I've tried calling you for hours and you never replied!'

'I was distracted' He told me. 'I have other things to do and I thought it best to let you handle Dil on your own. I can't believe you cornered him without a shield! What were you thinking!?'

'How was I supposed to know he would zap me?' I thought defending myself. 'But something is up since Dil is hiding from me and I need to find out why.' I thought as we were following Hope. 'I've got to find out because I'm afraid I might lose him forever if I don't.'

'You'll just have to figure it out is all I can tell you.' Suzaku sighed. I just nodded and went the rest of the way in silence finally however, once we reached the school and floated up into mine and Dil's room Howie was sitting on my bed and nearly tumbled over when Hope and I returned to our mortal selves.

"Holy shit!" He bellowed out as he grabbed his heart. "Don't just pop up on people like that!" He hollered out in indignation. "But is what Dil told me true? That the entire reason you were in that coma was because your soul accidentally got knocked out?" I grimaced and nodded. "And you became a Reaper to save Dil from those shadow monster things?" I nodded again before Hope decided to take over.

"Listen, normally I would be immediately erasing your memory.... but since I have been informed that this won't happen..." She stated, sending a glare my way before continuing. "You must keep everything you have learned here secret! We work hard to keep things hidden from mortals do you understand?" Howie just nodded nervously. "Good, I'm going to my room!" She said before letting herself out leaving us three behind.

"So..." Howie stated awkwardly in a hope to break the silence. "Tomorrow Toby is throwing a big bash at his house! You guys wanna go? I know you guys had fun at the Halloween party!" Aww I remembered that (Well not really because the majority of it was a drunken blur and I remember waking up in the shower wearing only my boxers) I had fun and Dil had drunken sex with Roy...

"Maybe," I answered. "I assume he'll have alcohol right? "

"Of course! It wouldn't be a party without the booze!" He stated cheerfully. Dil just grimaced at that. He had stated that he would never let himself get that drunk again saying it was a miracle that Roy had remembered to use protection.

"I'll sit this one out, last time I wound up having drunken sex with Roy, I don't want to risk drunken sex again..." Howie pouted but turned towards me.

"What about you? You wanna come?" I thought about it for a second, last time I was probably inches away from alcohol poisoning but I had fun. Sure Dil wouldn't be there but things were seriously awkward right now...Would probably be best to go out on my own for once.

"Sure, it sounds like fun!" I told him. "You sure you want to stay behind?" I asked Dil who just shrugged and nodded.

"Yeah, I'm sure. I swore off alcohol after the party and I don't trust myself in it's presence. I'll probably just study and stuff." He answered before looking at his phone. "You should probably be heading to your room, I'm going to turn in early tonight, today's been a long day." Dil stated. Howie just smiled and nodded before leaving the room leaving me and Dil alone.

"Um..." I stated awkwardly. I wasn't sure WHAT to say right now... I was still kinda pissed at him for keeping secrets... and zapping me of course. He also looked extra awkward himself though.

"I'm sorry for zapping you." Was all he said before he gathered his pajamas and headed into the bathroom leaving me alone. Well, at least he apologized... but as I laid on my bed I was even more determined to enjoy myself, what could go wrong...?

...

The party was in full swing, I had been avoiding the liqueur but I think someone spiked the punch since I could vaguely taste the vodka. Oh well, I came here to get hammered anyway so no worries! School had been normal... except for Dil not talking to me at all now. He had been even more distant this morning and hadn't even told me to have good time.

Taking a swig of my punch I sighed as I looked around the room. Everybody was drunk naturally, and several people had vanished into the upstairs rooms. Toby Miller was one of the students who lived off campus and his parents like mine, where they were always too busy to bother with him so he was always throwing these massive parties paid for by his parents. The ferret was nice enough but he was far too much of a hedonist for my tastes and he was one of the few openly bisexual students in the school. He was talking to a pretty female wolf who was wearing a strapless shirt and a skirt that barely covered her ass. For whatever reason I felt drawn to her and before I realized it I was standing right in front of her.

"Lanie this is Ben! The basketball star I told you about!" Toby shouted out, breaking the silence that could become unbearably awkward. "And Ben this is Lanie Harrington! She goes to another school but we've known each other for ages! I think I'll leave you two alone!" He said before running off.

"So..." I started awkwardly. "Having fun?" I asked her while looking the girl over. She really was pretty, wearing her hair long and in a braid and her eyes were a light green and her fur was white. She looked just as awkward but answered pretty quick.

"Yeah, not often I get to go to one of his parties,."

"How do you two know each other?" I then asked, genuinely curious. Lanie just chuckled at my question but still answered it nicely enough.

"We became neighbors before his family moved to Manhattan." She explained. "We were always good friends but my parents never liked him much." She went on with the short life story before probing into my own. "But tell me about yourself, you play basketball obviously, what else do you do?."

"I hang out with my buddy Dil mostly, we've been best friends since kindergarten." I told her, finding it odd that I was talking about Dil to a complete stranger but I felt comfortable around her (Probably because I was drunk but oh well...)

"That seems so nice, what's he like?" She asked, she seemed generally curious and for whatever reason I felt like talking, it wasn't like we were ever going to see each other again, we were both seniors and she would probably go somewhere else for college so it couldn't hurt to tell her anything. Besides she seems friendly enough and her being a friend of Toby's speaks volumes.

"He's a genius!" I started out, he truly was so it was best to start out with that. "He's always done amazingly well in school and is always reading something." I explained. "He's also very funny," I continued, Lanie just smiled and continued to listen intently to my story. "He's also... well... gay..." I stated awkwardly.

"So? Toby is bisexual and makes no attempt to hide it." She stated firmly.

"Yeah, Dil has dated though, he dated our football captain for nearly a year until the captain graduated and went for college in California." I told her. "Dil was pretty sad for awhile but they agreed that a complete break up would be best so neither would be tempted to try a long distance relationship." Lanie just nodded but didn't say anything. "He's also the clumsiest person on the planet." I laughed out. "It doesn't take much for him to slip, trip or fall. It's hilarious really."

"So this Dil is a gay clumsy genius correct?" I just nodded. "He seems nice!" She stated brightly. "It's obvious you care for him a lot. You seem like a good friend also." She stated kindly which made me blush a bit.

"Thanks, we've been close since as long as I can remember. I would do anything for him and I like to think he'd do the same for me." I said as I took another swig of my punch... just how much vodka did they put in here? "We've had our ups and downs of course but we always fix things up." I said before taking another drink... I hope I'm not going to get alcohol poisoning from this they've had to have poured an entire bottle in here.

"All friends do." She stated neutrally. "It's good you two are close enough to make up!" I just nodded and with the way things were I was wondering if we would be able to fix things... Dil had been acting so weird around me lately and I had no clue why. I took another drink and I was seriously becoming lightheaded... and horny... liqueur always made me horny.

Lanie was looking pretty tipsy as well... this probably wasn't a good idea and we were drunk...I know I certainly was! And we would probably regret it later but right now I didn't care, I was horny and confused about Dil and maybe sex would help me clear my head so gently I drew her in close before giving her a light kiss. She jumped a bit in surprise before she placed her arms around my neck and deepened the kiss. We made out for several minutes before we split apart.

"Why don't we go somewhere more... private?" I whispered in her ear. Lanie just shivered but nodded before she gently led me into once of the upstairs rooms. Once we were in the room I held her close and kissed her as all rational thought left my brain, lost in the desire for sexual satisfaction. Once she removed my pants she gasped which boosted my ego ah, the perks of having a foot long cock. As soon as she grazed it my entire mind shut down leaving me blank.

~~Dil~~

I just sighed as I looked towards the clock. It didn't seem like Ben was getting back tonight, though I wasn't surprised, he probably caught some tail there. I winced as I felt the jealousy boil in my stomach. Being in love hurt... knowing the person you were in love with was probably pounding some chicks wet pussy made my blood boil. It just wasn't fair!

'You need to tell him Dil.' Cosmo stated as he floated around my head. "Tell him everything, this can't continue or I fear your friendship might be lost for good.' I just sighed as I began to dig through my drawer. After several minutes of feeling around I found the secret compartment and dug out my personal dildo and lube. It was a canine dildo of course, knot and all. It was made of black plastic and was nearly 11'. Raymond had actually gave it to me one day for whatever reason. I rarely got to use it because of Ben but now I should have plenty of privacy.

I heard Cosmo vanish as I started to undress myself. Once I was naked I walked myself and laid down on Ben's bed while letting his scent soak into me. Carefully I reached down and started to lube my fingers before I gradually allowed them to enter my tailhole. I let out a gasp as they did so and gradually felt myself loosen around my fingers. Once I was sure I was ready I removed them and grabbed the thick canine toy before placing it right outside my asshole.

Taking a deep breath I slowly penetrated myself with it imagining it was Ben leaning over me fucking me. Gasping as it grazed my prostate as my own feline cock drooled out a steady amount of pre. I started slowly at first of course, didn't want to hurt myself but ever so gradually I sped up until I was slamming it into my ass at breakneck speeds as my other paw was rapidly jerking myself off in-synch with the thrusting. Eventually it became too much as I shoved that knot inside me as I screamed out Ben's name as I came!

I let myself enjoy the afterglow until the full impact of what I just did sunk into my brain.... I just fucked myself in Ben's bed! No way would he not smell me! Looked like I would need to wash his sheets... like now! At least after a shower yeah... that should probably be my first priority!

~~Ben~~ I woke up alone and with a pounding headache, it looked like my Reaper powers did nothing against a hangover. Though being left alone sucked, sure it was a one night stand but she could have waited for me to wake up before she left. At least she was nice enough to leave a note though.

'Dear Ben, Sorry for leaving you but I really needed to get back home! I had a good time though, thank you for spending time with me! :D'

I sighed as I folded the letter up and gathered my clothes together. Once I was dressed I sniffed myself and winced, I probably should take a shower before I left. I didn't want to go back to school smelling like sex. Dil probably would be annoyed and I didn't need to drive him away even more. So I walked outside the room and found Toby and a few others cleaning up from the party when he noticed me he beamed brightly.

"You have fun?" He asked wagging his eyebrows suggestively. I just rolled my own eyes before I decided to ask him if I could use the shower before I left. He just smiled and told me that the bathroom near the room I woke up in should be good, but told me not to leave a mess. I thanked him and went on my way. As he said the bathroom was clean and most importantly empty! I took off my clothes again and folded them neatly before I stepped into the walk-in shower. But before I turned on the shower Suzaku popped into existence looking quite anxious.

'Something wrong?' I asked him wondering why he was freaking out so badly.

'Did you remember to use protection?' He squawked out anxiously and I frowned at that. 'I think I did... I kinda just blanked out and I didn't remember much of the sex itself but I was sure we did.' I told him that but he just frowned. 'What if you didn't...? What if you got that girl pregnant?' The poor bird was seriously freaking out. I hadn't thought about that, I had never considered kids at all really and I wasn't even sure I wanted kids but one thing was certain.

Ever since I was little I swore to myself that if I ever became a father that I would damn well make sure I was a better one than my own. I knew he did love me, I never worried about it, even if he was horrible at showing it. But I still felt like shit when he never made time for me. GRANDPA always made sure to try and see at least a few games a month despite living in upstate New York!

Even Mom made sure to never miss a Mother's Day. She never missed a single one either! (Though Dil always got a bit sour on that day. Probably because him missing his own mother. I had never met Mrs. Patterson since she was already dead when we became friends. He always looked depressed when we had those Mother/Child events in Elementary school. I could only imagine what it was like to lose a parent so young, hell, I was a wreck after Grandma died and I was sixteen!)

'If it comes to that I'll support the child, I want to be a better father than my own!' I told him before I turned the water on. 'Now go away and let me shower!'

...

I arrived at school around 2:00. Me and Howie had agreed to split the cab fair and he wouldn't stop going on and on about this cheetah with huge boobs and a clamp-like pussy.

"She was amazing I tell you! Took my cock like a pro! Her pussy also tasted nice and so wet! I brought her to orgasm several times just by eating her out!" I was starting to grow a bit squeamish at his graphic details on what her pussy felt like while it clamped down on his cock when she came...

"Howie... please stop... I really don't want to know about the girl you fucked! I already got images that I would rather forget." Howie just blushed and apologized before I let him off the hook. Once we reached school we both split up and went our own ways. Once I reached the door I saw Dil sitting on his bed reading a book. The cover looked like it was in German though, but Dil always liked foreign books.

"Hey!" I shouted out causing him to jump a bit. He looked to me for several moments and looked like he was about to say something before he waved and went back to his book. Frowning, I kept on with it. "The party was a lot of fun! You should have gone!" Silence. "What did you get up to?" More silence. "You know you can't keep this up forever... Why are you giving me the silent treatment anyway?" Still more silence.

"Damnit Dil! What the hell is going on!? What is happening to us? We're breaking apart and that scares me! Do you even notice that?" Dil didn't say anything but he nodded. "Please talk to me Dil! I need you to talk to me!" I cried out. Dil just shook his head and looked on the verge of tears before he grabbed his book and ran out of the room. I just watched as he did so. What was going on... My heart was starting to drop. Was this it? The end of our friendship?

I don't know when I started crying but I did so. It hurt... I had never felt so lost before this. My heart felt like it was going to explode...what was going on? Our friendship was collapsing all around me and I had no idea how to stop it...

~~Dil~~

"Why won't you talk to him!?" Howie shouted at me. James was out somewhere thankfully so it was just us. "What is going on with you little dude? First you swear me to secrecy and now you won't even speak to him!" He hollered out. I was actually surprised to see Howie so angry... or angry at all really. But he looked seriously steamed right about now.

"Howie..." I started carefully but he growled and shut me up before I could say anything

"Don't you 'Howie' me Dil! This is bullshit! He's your BEST FRIEND! You two have been inseparable for like ever! What the hell is going on with you?" I just looked down, not saying anything but it seemed to click in Howie's head causing him to facepaw. "Oh dear god, you're in love with him aren't you?" I just let out a silent nod, no use in denying it, Howie would see right through it anyway. "Oh hell.."

"Yeah..." I stated glumly. "I do love him but I'm afraid of me confessing my feelings and him rejecting me... it would make things so unbearably awkward that I don't even want to comprehend it."

"So you are trying to sabotage your friendship instead?" Howie asked me bluntly.

"No I-"

"Save it Dil! He was BEGGING you to talk to him! Ben never begs for anything! Not in the time I've known him! Listen, either you tell him about Glen and Louis or I will! I'm tired of hiding this bullshit! Do you know what it's like? Seeing him so desperate and not being able to help because I promised you I wouldn't tell him? I can't do this Dil! I can't just do this anymore! I hate keeping secrets and all this is tearing you two apart!"

"I just don't want him in trouble... especially over me, you know exactly what he's like when it comes to me. He'd probably set them on fire and dance around their burning corpses..." Howie just chuckled at that image but stopped once I gave him a death glare. "It's not funny Howie! You know he would try something like that. He could get in serious trouble and I would never forgive myself if he did."

"You would have nothing to be regretful of though! You did nothing wrong!" Howie exclaimed frustrated. "Those bastards would deserve it! If they survived maybe they would learn to leave you alone!"

"They are his teammates though! Ben loves basketball! You know how hard he works during practice and hell, I wouldn't be surprised if he got a basketball scholarship when he graduates! This could seriously mess up the entire team! He might not like them but he is able to put that aside and work with them."

"Why not just kick them off the team? I could talk to the coach and besides, it's not like they don't have reserved players." I still shook my head at that.

"They do. Malachi Martin and Rikard Rues, they are good yes but those guys have been playing since middle school, they know how to work together. That's why they've went to state every year and this will be their final year Martin and Rues are sophomores, they're inexperienced in comparison and you know it."

"Still, Ben would choose you over basketball in a heartbeat."

"I know he would and that's the problem, he would quickly quit the team if it caused conflict between us but he loves it so much, he's devoted his life to it, basketball camp and everything!"

"Kinda like you with the archery club, I never understood why you let McManus take the leadership role, you're the best archer they got."

"I didn't take it because I didn't want it to get in the way of my studies. I love archery but it's just a hobby. Tery lives and breathes it so it was only fair he got to be club president." I explained, Ben had asked the same question months ago when it was announced. I didn't have time to run the club, study and maintain my social life.

"If you say so..." Howie muttered before shrugging. "But please for the love of god at least TALK to him?"

"I' might..." I told him shyly. "I'm just scared and I have no idea what I'm doing...I'm hurting him, I know that and I hate myself for it but I just feel helpless and it's driving me mad! Right now I just wished Ray was here... I miss him so much sometimes." I admitted.

"Well, you guys dated for a long time that makes sense." Howie stated helpfully. "You two were happy...I talk to him sometimes and he asks about you all the time."

"He does?" I asked blushing.

"Yeah, think he misses you also but he is determined to keep your agreement about the complete break up. Why were you so against the idea of a long distance relationship anyway?"

"Because absence doesn't always make the heart grow fonder and plus I was seventeen, I don't know many seventeen year olds who could handle dating someone who lived on the other side of the country." I stated glumly. "I just wish he stayed in New York you know? We would probably still be together now." I was taken by surprise when Howie hugged me (Not his infamous glomp of doom thankfully.)

"You'll figure things out little dude, just talk to Ben and get this shit sorted out okay? You two have always had each other, I know you are afraid of relying completely on him but I think he needs you to need him sometimes... I don't know what he'd do without you sometimes, you keep his temper in check for one. Plus you help him be more of a social lord knows and he needs that!" Howie joked at me causing me to laugh.

"He's not so BSD once he drops the frowns, he's had a hard life with his parental issues honestly... so he has trouble socializing with others."

"Thanks Howie," I stated with a smile. "I still can't let him find out about Glen and Louis though, it could seriously damage the team dynamic and I don't want that." Howie glared at me but I held firm to my conviction. I wasn't going to wreck the basketball team. They didn't really like me that much as is really. Some were nice, others were completely indifferent but I wasn't the most loved person there. They'd probably hate me even more if I told Ben and he flipped on those two.

"Just trust me Howie... please? I know I'm probably being stupid but it's all I got right now." I stated, Howie just sighed and shook his head in frustration but didn't say anything. "But I'll talk to him, I promise okay?" Howie just hmphed but again didn't say anything so I smiled and got up from his bed. "I'll be heading back... see you later Howie!" I said before I left his room, hearing him give a halfhearted goodbye himself. I passed James on my way back to my room and once I peaked in I saw Ben curled up in a ball.

I could tell he was asleep but it wasn't a restful one from what I could tell...he looked fitful. Quietly as I could I tiptoed towards him but before I could sit down he opened his eyes and gave me an annoyed look.

"I don't know why you bother, you know I'm a really light sleeper and I woke up as soon as you opened the door." I just gave him a sheepish smile at that.

"Sorry for waking you..."

"Oh, NOW you're talking to me?" He asked harshly making me wince, it was obvious he was very unhappy at me. "What changed?" He asked coldly.

"I talked to Howie," I said simply, "he yelled at me the entire time, calling me an idiot for the silence thing... I'm really sorry Ben, but I still can't tell you anything... I don't want you in trouble over me." Ben just rolled his eyes in frustration obviously annoyed at my speech.

"Save it Dil! I'm frankly pissed at you! First you lie to me right to my face, THEN you swear Howie to secrecy and then you zapped me! And finally you give me the silent treatment triggering me into a near emotional meltdown! Just fucking tell me who hurt you!"

" I..." I couldn't... he was looking at me with such desperation that it broke my heart... "It was Glen... and Louis... Steve didn't touch me..." I finally stated. I was tired, tired of hiding... but I immediately regretted it when I saw Ben's face. He was growing angrier and angrier by the second and he seriously looked like he was about to implode with rage.

"I knew it! No wonder Twitch clamped up! He'd do anything for those bastards!" He snarled as he got up. "I'm going to grab Howie, see if he wants to help me teach those two a lesson! Nobody hurts you! Nobody!" Quickly I got up and scrambled to the door, blocking his path. Right now I was seriously concerned for their safety.

"No! Stand down Ben! This is why I didn't want to tell you! I knew you would react like this! They are your teammates! I don't want to cause any trouble for the team! They already barely tolerate me as is! The last thing they need is you harming them!" This only made him angrier it seemed.

"The team!? FUCK THE BASKETBALL TEAM DIL! THOSE TWO HURT YOU! YOU ARE FAR MORE IMPORTANT THAN A SPORT!"

"A SPORT YOU LOVE AND DEVOTED YOUR LIFE TO!" I shouted back. "You love basketball! You are damn good at it! I would never allow myself to get in the way of that! I would never forgive myself! So please calm down! I won't allow you to hurt them! You are not risking getting expelled because I can't handle bullies!" I stated as firmly as possible. "You will act as you usually do, plus Steve cares for them, I don't want him hurt by proxie! He doesn't deserve that!" I said waiting for Ben to calm down.

Surprisingly he deflated rather quickly. With a huff he just sat back on his bed quietly fuming.

"I can't believe you kept this from me! And for such stupid reasons! I would choose you over basketball in a heartbeat and never look back. Yes I love it and yes I'm good but you are far more important to me than it. I can live without basketball but i have no clue what I'd do without you..." He stated shyly. "You give a purpose, a reason to live. Protecting and looking out for you makes me happy...to be honest I was jealous of Raymond. Because I was afraid that you would run away to California after graduation and leave me behind."

"I would never leave you!" I told him kindly, "I do miss him of course! He was the first person I ever fell in love with and hell, we were talking about moving in together for college possibly getting married, gay marriage is legal now in New York. But that was before he got accepted into that college. He had no plans on returning to here and I had no plans of leaving New York so we just broke up."

"I'm sorry Dil, I really am..." Ben told me sadly. "I wish he never left, he made you happy and I hated how he made you happy in ways I couldn't." He told me in a frustrated manner. "But trust me Dil, I won't go after them now, but if they ever touch you again I'll crush them, and I'll make Howie personally informs me if they do you hear me? So no swearing him to secrecy." I just nodded, there was no way I would be able to dissuade him from this so best to go along with it.

"I promise!" I told him lightly. "So how was the party?"

~~Ben~~ "So how was the party?" Dil asked making me shiver. Was it a good idea to tell him about hooking up with Lanie? He really never spoke about his (Much more frequent) hookups and I doubted he wanted to hear the down and dirty details of cock and pussy sex.

"Was fun, got drunk as hell, someone spiked the punch with an entire bottle of liqueur I wager... Reaper powers don't fix hangovers apparently." I muttered still feeling the after affects of mine. "Which sucks, it wasn't fun to find out." I pouted to myself. "What did you do all day?" I had to raise my eyebrow at his blush. Just what DID he get up to?

"Nothing much just read and studied, still worried about college and stuff...we'll probably get our letters in April and I hope we get onto NYU. I've had my heart set on it since I was a kitten." He stated hopefully. I just rolled my eyes, they'd be mad if they didn't let him in. His grades were perfect, he did volunteer work and was part of the archery club of course he would get in.

"April is three months away Dil, focus on the now." I told him with a sigh. "I have no doubt you'll get in. You got the best damn grades in the school they'd be foolish not to." He just gave me a happy smile before a quick hug.

"Thanks, it's still early, wanna get a coffee?" He was probably meaning the Starbucks, it was a great place to relax and hang out and they had good deals for students.

"Sure, let me get my coat." I told him cheerfully. "It's getting colder right now." He just nodded and after getting ready we headed our way out, both feeling much lighter from talking.