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It was done... I had finished with my past. But my heart still weighs heavy in my chest.

I try to ignore it and begin my catalogue of questions. "Say... you have to work, right? How does one earn money up here? How do you?" "You really want to talk, hm? Sorry..." he raises back into a sitting position, but I still rest my head on his shoulder. "I work on the fields. It's hard work, but well-paid. Well enough to easily survive the winter when nothing can be planted, like now." He can't hide the smile as his arm encloses me warmly.

"So when spring comes, you will have to work again?" "I can't just fly down and hunt deer in the woods, can I? No... And I am afraid that my job alone won't be enough to feed the two of us. I saved up enough for a few months, but after that..." "What can I do? I have to admit, I don't like physical work. You probably know that I worked as cashier in a supermarket, and as programmer in an office. Any chance I find such a job here?" "Can't tell you... but we could start looking for a job for you next week." "Another thing that got my curiosity. This... other language... What is that?" "You mean Draconic? Don't worry. Mike can only speak a very few words of Draconic. It's mostly used in highly official stuff... and magic. But you should be able to learn a few of the easier spells." "Like this transformation?" "You mean the feral form? Yeah. A few minor fire spells... feral form... a few other spells." "And flying?" "That's not magic. You just need to get the feeling for the right muscles. We will practice that soon." "Cool." I can't wait for it. I really wonder how it will be, and how it will feel.

"Anything else?" "Phew... probably another hundred questions... I just can't come up with them right now. Maybe you can just tell me about life... as a dragon." "Hmm... where to begin? Most of us just do their jobs, come home and have fun with each other."

My head immediately begins to feel hot again. Drake smiles at me. He's close to laughing. "We have more ways of having fun, not just only that, you know?" My head seems to be close to bursting. Why? Why was I thinking so much about it? Why had sex suddenly become so dominant in my mind? In my whole life, all the 25 years, I was fine being a single, helping myself getting off every few days while watching a few... 'inspiring' videos. Why did I have to think about sex all the time?

"Because it is new... exciting... you want more than just being with yourself." He had been reading my mind again, but I started to accept it. Some things were easier for me to think than to say out loud. "Well... why don't we continue..." his voice shifted back to a lower tune, making it hard for me to resist "...what you started before breakfast?"

My heart raced. Drake wanted... quick... panic... "Drake... I..." I stutter crying. I don't want to cry. Deep within I wanted it too, but my body kept reacting on its own. His hand glides over my chest, skimming over my scales. Hot and cold feelings ran over my body. I feel myself starting to shake.

Drake notices it and stops, gives me some space to breath. "Oh god, Chris? Are you okay? I'm so sorry I... I shouldn't have tried it. I'm so sorry Chris."

My body continues shaking. Why? He was not going to hurt me. Why was I afraid? Why was I scared? Was it because I was opening up for someone... because of my bad experience from the first time? When this girl flirted with me for whole three months and then told me about her fiance? Was I remembering the pain? But Drake is so completely different. I feel he would do anything for me. He wouldn't cheat on me, wouldn't lie to me. What was terrifying me so much?

I look into his face, trying to tell him that I am sorry for this, but before I could even think it, he squeezed me tight. "I'm terribly sorry Chris. I always say I won't force you, but then... I just can't hold back much longer. We are finally so close to each other, after all those years." "Just... just a few days... I know I am sending you signals... and I want to do it. You know that. But my body keeps reacting on its own. I can't keep up with your speed."

Drake begins to smile. "I know... I will show you my place." "Drake? But... this here is your-" "No no, not our house... my secret little place. You will like it. Maybe you will start to relax there. I wanted to wait with it till you got comfortable with your new body... but you wanted to learn how to fly, right? I show you." "Right now?" "A dragon that can't use his wings? Come on... enjoy the change of topic, would you?" He places a soft kiss on my cheek. Blood rushes through my head. I am still like a small child, blushing over such small things. Am I really ready for the big thing?

I hadn't notice Drake standing up, now he pulled me off the couch. "Come, hurry. It will take a while till we arrive there." I am a bit confused but follow him to the front door. A cool breeze. It is already afternoon. Time flew by. I follow Drake to a raised platform. It looked similar to the landing platforms at the palace, but it stands on a pillar, hovering about thirty meters above the ground. A wide stair led up to it.

Just moments later I find myself standing at the edge of this platform. "Remember the tingling feeling in your back earlier?" Tingling feeling? "Your wing muscles. About... here..." He stroke over my back, just between my wings. Again I felt the blood rushing with adrenalin. "Try imagining to have an arm there... try to move this arm." "An arm on my back?" I start laughing. Do I look like a mutant to him? "No, seriously... imagine it. Imagine there is an arm connected to this muscle." "Err... okay... an arm... on my back..." I try to concentrate... moving my arms... it was so natural to me, I kind of don't even know how I move them. I just... move them... But how shoul-

A strange sensation went through my body. A sudden wind, it got slightly colder around me... no... not wind... my wings... I had spread them. "Great. That's awesome. Now fold them back." "But I just spread them. Shouldn't I-" "You first need to gain control over them. I know this is going too fast, but I want to show you that place. I want to show that place today, not just tomorrow."

He had something in his voice... he really... wanted to show me. He was excited. This motivated me to give it more than just my best. I couldn't disappoint him here. So I try to move this imaginary arm again... slowly... and my wings obey. Without having him tell me, I repeat this a few times, until I get a feeling for unfolding and folding them.

"Like a natural. You show-off." He laughs. Is that... is he... crying? But still he looks so happy while laughing. If I was still a human I would have been scared by all those teeth he showed, and the deep laughter... but again it was my draconic brain that showed me all the small details. His cheek bones, his eyes, his forehead... all of them formed a picture of true happiness inside of my head. Pure bliss.

"Now it is time for the flight muscles." He comes closer to me and gives me a close hug. Just as I want to close my arms around him, he starts pressing his fingers into my back. "Around there... can you try and tense them?" I feel a bit embarrassed and... was this disappointment? Bullshit. He was teaching me how to use my wings, so I shouldn't be expecting that kind of closeness right now. "Chris? Can you try to tense them?" I feel where his fingers were pressing. I try to send signals in that region... but it is hard to move a muscle you know nothing about. Not even a tickle like the other one... but I try to imagine two more arms on my back... and laugh. A dark blue, five-armed walking lizard forms in my head, stumbling around blindly. And I also feel Drakes chest making small jumps. He has a hard time to stay serious this time. "Come on Chris. Please at least try it."

I gulp it down and try to focus harder. He is right. He wants to show me his hidden spot and I am playing around.

Another try... I feel my wings moving a bit, but only slow. But there is a feeling... a muscle I can move... It is only faint, but I can sense a lot of power. This muscle is a lot stronger than my arms combined. Another movement... slowly getting stronger. I am getting the hang of it.

Soon I can move my wings in a fluid motion. My body seems to become lighter as my wings start to produce some lift. But moving these new muscles was demanding. I just stood here, flapping my wings for a minute or so, and started to feel exhausted.

"Don't worry, you don't need to flap them all the time. Most of the time you will be gliding. And in the worst case, I should still be able to carry you." ...should be able to... ...should... The scared nature of me highlighted these words. And what if not? Will we crash down all the way down to earth? "Have a bit more trust in me. I hadn't suggested this if I wasn't sure we could do this." He gives me a clap on my butt. Blood rushes through my veins as I turn my head towards him. His sly grin... exactly like I imagined it... so damn sexy.

He moves his head closer to me, his smile becomes even more sly. I feel my heart throbbing hard and slowly close my eyes. There was this warm feeling of his gentle hands on my chest. My heart accelerates further, threatens to burst through my ribcage. Drake, I am still not ready for... A push. His hands pushed me. "Fly Chris!"

What?

I am falling, soon I will hit the ground. No I won't. I was at the rim of the platform. It was a thirty meter drop from here. Drake... why? "Fly! Use your wings, Chris."

Everything seems to run in slow-motion. All I can see is blue sky... the edge of the platform... Drake's face which slowly switches from curious to scared as I drop further. 'Fly' he says... as if I was able to do that. But I have to try... Otherwise I'd smash into the ground.

I am falling... head first, my back - and thus my wings - too close to the platform wall. Rotate... I have to turn around. I twist my wings slightly, turn around rather fast. Barely manage to stop my rotation. Next, pull up. Maybe twenty meters left. I angle my wings against the headwind, trying to break my fall while changing my vertical velocity into horizontal.

I feel the wind changing directions in my face. No... My body changes its direction. Ten meters. My body glides over the ground which only slowly comes closer. I turn my head to the left, want to look back to Drake, but my whole body starts turning to the left. Quickly I start looked straight forward again, and my body follows. I carefully move my head to the right, and again my body decides to turn to the right. A wide turn to the right until the platform is back in front of me. I can see Drake jumping around and waving at me happily.

Now I have to rise back up. I try to move my wings, just as I had learned it a few moments ago. But it is difficult. Way more difficult than when I was standing on the ground. Of course it was. They now had to carry my whole weight through the air. But with just three hard flaps of my wings, I rise back to the platform. Just as I pass the edge, I fold my wings to my back and try to land on my feet, struggle a bit... and stand. Not very elegant and a bit wobbly on my legs. But I stand.

My whole body shakes for a moment... I did it... I flew... What many people always wanted to do... I just did it. "And you did it surprisingly well, if I may add." Drake hugs me tight and presses the air out of my lungs. "You still lack a bit of control on your tail, that's why you turned when you tried to look back, but you are amazing." His compliments make my heart jump. I really seemed to impress him with my quick learning.

"Oh, you bet you do. Four days since we met and already flying like a five year old." He laughs. I give him a smile in hopes that this was a compliment. "I was a bit worried you would take longer. Mike took whole three days to be able to glide like you." "Guess I'm something special." I joke at him, a sly smile on my lips. "You bet you are. The most special thing to me." I still feel a little uncomfortable when he says something like this, but then I remember how long he had been dreaming of me, knowing me... searching for just me. It was just me who knew little about my other half. Just my fears keeping us from doing what my body desired the most.

"Stop worrying about that. Hurry, before we miss it." Miss it? Miss what? "You will see." My legs can barely keep up with his speed as he races down the platform. We run along a nice alley until we reach another one of those landing platforms like at the palace.

"Are you ready?" I highly doubt I am ready... but what was I supposed to say? He was so eager to show me something very precious to him. I just had to be ready. Without reacting to my last thoughts he let go of my hand and jumped, opened his beautiful red wings and started hovering in front of me. "Come, hurry."

No way I'd be able to hover like him, but I jump and unfold my wings, start gliding. Drake takes the lead and I follow him. This is the first time I really see him flying, rather than appreciating the surroundings. Every single motion looks so easy, effortless... fluid.

Every now and then he looked back and checked for me, but this time he slowed down and let me come closer. "Are you okay?" "A bit dizzy... and hot..." I pant. Just now I realize how exhausted I am. "Just keep going. We are almost there. Two more minutes I'd say."

The sun almost touches the horizon as we land on a small... island I guess? There was a thick forest in front of us... not very inviting... I am heavily panting and my wings hurt while I fold them back. No way I'd do that flight again today... Drake would have to carry me home. I just wanted to collapse right here. "A few more steps through these woods. It's really not far." "I... I hope... it's... worth it..." I gasp. I just discovered those new muscles and already overstrained them by far. What did he expect me to do? But of course it would be worth it. Why else would he be so excited to show me this place?

He has a sorry look on his face, but then grabs my arm and pulls me through the forest. And really just one minute later, we arrive at his secret little spot... A beautiful lake that spread to the horizon. The water was so clear, it almost seemed as if the plants in it were flying in thin air. Still exhausted, I walked into the lake till my knees got wet, then let myself fall on my back. Wasn't that smart as I had totally forgotten my tail and my hurting wings. With a painful scream I jump up and rub my wings, not noticing the splashing noises Drake causes as he comes closer. He places his hands on my shoulders and pushes me down gently. Without any resistance I sat down, wondering what he was up to.

Next thing I know is that he rotates me towards him while he still stands upright. My head was now right in height... of... "Don't be stupid. I'd never force you to do that. And now lie down on your belly." "I'm... Sorry Drake... I just..." "I know you are scared. But each time you think of me as a mindless sex-driven monster it hurts me, you know? I know you don't want to hurt me, and I know you want it as much as I want it... But it still hurts."

Now I had done it... Now I had really hurt him... my big love... the one who changed my life forever... He pushed me down so I laid on my belly. Only the upper half of my head, including my nostrils, sticks out of the water.

I felt Drake kneeling down between my legs, spreading them apart. 'Stop thinking that. He won't do that. Stop thinking that shit. Stop it.' A touch on my butt. Stroking hands. My breath goes faster... and faster... Another panic reaction. But why? Why? He won't do that. Stop thinking such nonsense. I get a bit dizzy.

His hands wander upwards, towards my overstrained wings. His touch hurts at first, but then the pain starts to fade. I feel his hands kneading exactly those spots that hurt most. His touch changes into a stroking, getting more and more gentle.

Suddenly I feel a weight on my back as Drake now leaned... or better said, lied on my back, and starts to whisper. "Close your eyes." Again I feel my heart beating fast... but nowhere even close to before... It was just... a bit faster than usual... "Just close them and trust me. Loosen your body. Relax."

Closing my eyes is no problem, but loosening my body? Come on Chris... you either completely trust him and stop acting like a pussy, or you will always be afraid of him. Choose now!

And I choose...