FSE

Furry search engine

formerly SoFurry search engine

Greetings, well this is my first written piece in english, my native language is spanish, but i want to improve my english. Thats why I made this, hope you enjoy it. ^^

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"I just hate myself... Why I just fell in love in the first place..."

Those words could be heard in the darkness from a sobbing voice, the person was a young man, his black hair covered the upper part of his face as on his hand he had his phone, looking at a picture from an anthropomorphic husky hugging a black lion and kissing. He was destroyed, tortured by the thoughts of his own crush, "his" husky having sex with the lion.

"Come on Nathan... Grow up. You knew that he looked at you as a brother."

The human male called Nathan got up and walked to then turn on the light of his room. As the light appeared, he looked at the wounds of his arms, then he looked at the razor in the floor. He cut himself again, he promised himself to stop hurting his body but the only way to release the pain on his soul was that, he could only think about hurting, cutting and burying his skin. He took a first aid kit and opened it as the blood stained the white cover of his bed.

He took the hydrogen peroxide and he soaked a cotton ball with it, then passed it through his arms, making foam as it came in contact with the blood and cleaning the injuries. Then he wrapped them up in bandages as he looked at the stained white bed sheets. He sighed and took them off, then replaced them with a sky blue one, his favorite color as it was the first he ever saw when he was born.

Nathan sat on the bed and took the razor from the floor, looking it as the blood in it made his hand dirty. He just grinned as a tear came from his left eye and he left the razor on the nightstand, then took a pill for the pain that was in the same nightstand with a glass of water that was in the opposite side. When he drank the pill with the water, he closed his eyes and threw his head back to land on the pillow, ready to go to the dream world.

--- In Nathan's dreams ---

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_"Nathan, I love you." _

An anthropomorphic husky dog was above the body of the human, caressing his face as he gave butterfly kisses all over his cheeks and neck. They were both naked, the manhood of the husky was fully erect as the human's, the dog's knot squirted precum as he rubbed it against the thighs of the human.

_"Daniel, put it in already. I want to feel you inside me and become one." _

Nathan said as he hugged the husky male and lifted his ass a little. The husky just smiled and borrowed his head between the humans's right shoulder as he started to push his erection deep into the human, Nathan gave up a moan full of a mixture of pain and pleasure, it was the first time that he was going to do it with his husky, he gave up some tears, but they were from the happiness that he felt with his beloved.

Suddenly the dream changed. He wasn't the one having sex with the husky, but was in fact the black lion. He was looking at them far away, with shackles on his limbs as they kept loving themselves, the husky smacked his muzzle with the lion's and entangled their tongues together like if they were dancing.

_"D-Daniel! No! That was me remember? That was me! Not Michael!" _

Nathan tried to break the chains that were put on the way to his beloved, but they were strong, even stronger than most of the known metals. He started to crack up, as he sobbed and the tears came from his eyes, the two animals didn't even heard him as the husky called Daniel shoved his tongue on the lion's maw and keep trusting, ripping some moans from the lion named Michael.

"Why is this happening to me!?... Why to me!? I love him so much! Why you keep being in the way Michael!?"

Then both animals disappeared to let see a shadowed figure, the shadow grew from a tiny doll like figure to a grown man, then the darkness started to take color. The skin became red with markings all over, muscles could be seen, having a good size of pectorals, abs and biceps, the figure grew a pair of black skin wings, two black horns and a long thick tail along a mane of reddish black hair, then it opened his eyes and smiled, letting see two golden orbs like eyes and its white teeth, which were all sharp. The darkness became a pair of boxers, which contained a good proportioned manhood.

The demonic being approached to Nathan and looked him all over, then passed his hands through the body of the human like if it was analyzing that he was OK. The demon leaned over the mouth of the human, making their breaths mix together. The human inhaled the scent of the demon, it smelled like brimstone mixed with the sweet scent of honey.

"So, you must be suffering from what those two did to you, eh?"

"What do you mean?"

"Don't make yourself stupid. We both know that you loved the husky, but the lion took it all for himself."

"Why you are interested in that!?"

Nathan, looked down as the tears increased and his sobs became louder. He wanted to be with the husky dog, he wanted him to be his lover, his boyfriend and even his husband if that could be possible. But what he didn't thought that would occur was the lips of the demonic being locked on his lips, the demon gave up a small groan in between the kiss as he went deeper into the warm throat, slipping his tongue on the human's cavity and hugging him with those huge arms. The demon got up without breaking the kiss, he was taller than the human, but he didn't cared about that.

When the demon felt that the human needed air he broke the kiss, leaving a thin strand of saliva that connected the human's tongue with the demonic black tongue. The human cut the strand with his heavy panting as the demon just smirked and looked at the face of the smaller male, it was really red as he was completely flustered.

"Why you did that!?"

"calm down Nathan, you're safe with me."

"How you know me? How you know my name?"

"Because i'm your guardian demon."

The human was shocked. He knew about guardian angels as his mother told him about them and made stories with guardian angels on them, but he was completely new in the subject of a guardian demon. The demon took off his restraining in order to have a proper look at the human's body, it wasn't really that bad as it was slim but a little athletic, the demon gave a kiss on the human's forehead.

"You... Protect me?"

_"Yes, I do. My name is Kharon, at your service." _

"So, why you manifested in my dreams?"

_"Because I hate to see the one that is in my protection suffering. That is why." _

The demon caressed the face of the human and gave him another forehead kiss. Nathan was confused, but somehow, it felt like what he needed, like what he wanted. He wanted to be loved, to have one of those romantic stories from the TV, in those shows all things go right and the protagonists are happy, he wanted to be happy.

Nathan looked up to the demon with a small blush and then looked away, the dark being was extremely handsome and maybe he could fall in love with it, but then he remembered what happened with his crush, maybe the demon had another being that he loved, maybe it won't be forever.

"Your name is Kharon, right?"

"Yes, it is. What happen Nathan? Is it something wrong?"

"Exist a method to bring you up to the physical world?"

_"Well, yeah. Though it is hard to achieve." _

The demon made a black book appear and then opened it right into the page he needed, he sighed as it was really difficult but the human looked so sad, requesting to be with him. The demonic entity passed the book to the human, letting him read the ingredients for the summoning ritual.

"It is a kinda simple ritual, but hard at the same time. It needs a perfect pentagram made of sulfur and ash from the death, then you chant the words on the book and put a blood offering in the center of the star. I will form a body made of the DNA of the blood."

"Oh, so I only need to get sulfur and dead people's ashes."

The human gave the book to the demon again. The demon took it, asking himself why the human wanted to summon him up, maybe it was for revenge. He didn't cared about being used for just revenge as he was his guardian demon, but there was something on the last expression of the human that was a little confusing, he looked away as he blushed.

"Nathan, why you want me with you?"

"Well... I get alone easily. If I'm alone then I start to think about bad thoughts and then I end up cutting myself."

The demon knew that already as he looked at the human from the time he was born, he was assigned to the human from the first second of his life even though the human didn't knew that.

"OK, I'm gonna go now Nathan. We have a connection, so anytime you want to talk, just think about me."

"OK, I promise."

The demon extended wings and then flew right away from that place. The human started to feel like his physical body was starting to wake up, he sighed and closed his eyes.

--- In the physical body ---

Nathan and wake up, seeing that his body was naked. He blushed lightly and then giggled as he got up and went to the bathroom, he filled the tub with warm water and then got in. He leaned against the blue wall, looking at the white ceiling as he kept the memory of the demon on his dream.

"Kharon. What an interesting name."

Nathan submerged in the waters of the tub, closing his eyes and asking himself why he felt safe and nice with a demon that he just met today.