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My eyes slowly open as I wake up, the sun being blocked from reaching me by the curtains on my window so at least I'm not rudely blinded first thing in the morning. My head feels a little odd but I'm tired and shift around to try and get into a more comfortable position so I can go back to sleep. My dozy brain can't quite be bothered to think and my antlers feel like I should be pressing them against something, but before I can even get comfortable there's a strange tugging at the base of my left antler and then an even stranger release feeling. A soft thud sounds and I open my eyes again to be greeted by white, a slow something dawns on me as I lift myself up a little to dumbly stare at the white thing right in front of my eyes. “Guess it's that time." I sigh as I heave myself the rest of the way out of bed, careful not to accidentally knock off my other antler. I must have caught my left antler on the headboard and just my luck it's shedding season so it just came right off. After picking up my shedded antler and rubbing the sleep from my eyes with my other hand, I amble my way out of my room and towards the bathroom so I can remove my other antler and avoid getting blood all over the place.

“That's an odd look, Ross." I hear from my left as I walk down the hallway. I turn and see my dormmate, a sentient feral otter named Theo, standing in the hallway with his breakfast held in both paws. “Are you okay? You're bleeding, did something happen? Do I need to call an ambulance?" Theo asks, worry building in his voice as he fully takes me in.

“No no, I'm fine. I know it looks like it hurts 'cause of the blood and the fact that one of my antlers has fallen off but I'm fine. It's just time for me to shed my antlers. It's a deer thing." I try to reassure him, giving my best attempt at looking like I'm fine while holding one of my antlers in my hand and trickling blood from my head. “I'm just going to shed the other one in the bathroom and clean myself up. I'm fine." I add as I can see that seeing me like this has shocked Theo. Theo nods his head, still worried, and moves back into the kitchen to allay himself with his breakfast. 'I'll apologise to him just as soon as I've finished shedding' I think to myself as I go into the bathroom and close the door behind me. The bathroom is quaint, not too small to be nice but when you have big antlers sticking out of your head it can be quite annoying when they keep hitting things when you're having a shower or brushing your teeth. 'Guess that's one thing I'm not going to miss once I've shed.' I smile as I move to the sink. “Right. Now for- goodness I look silly." I say as I catch myself in the mirror above the sink. “Sort of like a lopsided….something or other." It looks rather funny, or it would if there wasn't a little bit of blood on my head. With a long inhale of breath after putting my other antler down, I reach up and gently tug at the antler still attached to my head. It's a freaky sight seeing me pulling off my antler in the mirror but it doesn't hurt and something tells me that this is what I should be doing, albeit that something is actually telling me I should rub my antler against something hard to break it off but I'd look silly and I just know Aileen would find out and tease me about it. It takes a little time but eventually it separates from me, a little bit of blood dribbling down from both stumps now. After placing my recently removed antler down, I start dabbing at my stumps with some toilet paper until the bleeding has all but stopped. “I probably should have warned Theo that it's shedding season and that this would happen." I comment to myself as I clean myself up with water and more toilet paper. Once I'm sorted I walk out of the bathroom, put my antlers on my bed to be sorted out later, and then go into the kitchen to get some breakfast. “Sorry about that, hope I didn't make you too worried." I say as I search around my cupboard for breakfast.

“So your horns- antlers, sorry, just fall off every now and then?" Theo questions from where he sits on the table.

“Yeah, pretty much. Once a year they just decide to shed and then I'm left like this." I motion to my stumps, “Something about a decrease in testosterone blah blah blah."

“You do know it's near enough four in the afternoon right?" Theo comments as I pick out my cereal.

“Huh?"

“Yeah, you were asleep for quite some time. Is it because of your…" he raises his paws to his head and makes antlers with them as best he can.

“Maybe." I think it's just because I'm lazy but I could be wrong; Aileen might also be the reason since I got back from her place in quite a state, my poor girlfriend having to help me back to my dorm. “Well, guess I'll have a late lunch then." While my food is cooking Theo says his goodbyes and tells me he'll be out tonight and probably won't be back until late in the morning tomorrow so I shouldn't worry if I can't find him. The rest of my afternoon isn't anything special, I eat my lunch, watch TV, and generally just act like a university student. “Well, this is boring," I say to myself as I finish my dinner. “Let's go to town, see what else there is to do round here." I'm not from Maple Hills and only decided on this uni because I liked it on the open day I went to, so the town of Maple Hills itself is still a mystery to me.

I get dressed into warm clothes and put on a hat to keep my ears warm; as any stag does, I have hats for both when I have antlers and when I don't as per my father's advice. Dressed appropriately, I leave my dorm after putting my wallet in my pocket and start walking into town. It's dark since it's February and I'm heading out just after half ten at night, the street lamps illuminate the campus as I walk through it and head into town. It's not too windy but I'm thankful I have a hat on, even if the only reason I really put it on was to cover my still pretty raw stubs. I make it into town after taking a moment to remember the way and walk my way down a street at random, a pub hidden inconspicuously between two neon-signed businesses catches my fancy, the words 'The Hole In The Wall' painted in black on its white front wall. I head inside to be greeted by an old-timey sort of ascetic, bare grey stone walls between dark wood beams which hold the place up, the tables are wooden as well and the ground sort of has a straw covering but there's not enough of it. The bar is what you would expect from a place like this, dark wooden counter and the alcohol displayed on shelves behind the bartender, a hyena woman who looks friendly enough. There aren't many people in the pub, but one bear turns to look at me and I see him smile, unsure whether I should be worried or not. I make my way to the bar and order a drink.

“Hey, love, you fancy anything or do you need more time to choose?" The bartender asks.

“Uh……. I'll have a double of whisky, please."

“Any preference?" She questions with a friendly smile. “If you can name it I'm pretty sure we have it."

“Uh, I don't really have a preference. Whatever you think I'd like, I guess." I smile back, trying to seem comfortable even though I'm nervous.

“I think I have just the thing," she tells me as she turns and picks out a bottle. “This one's called 'Oak Hart'. How's that sound? Or am I being rude since I'm assuming you'll like it since it's deer-themed and you're a deer? Sorry, I'm new to this bar stuff so just-“

“No, it's fine. I'll have that." I interrupt.

“Alright, honey." She sets me up with a glass and pours a double for me, I tap my card and take my drink as I look for a table. I take an empty one, not difficult since the place is so empty, and sit to sip at my drink while I think where to head next, no real destination in mind since I don't know Maple Hills well enough yet. Since coming to university here I've discovered a lot of nice people are on my course, everyone seems nice, and that Maple Hills is rather small which makes it even worse that after a few months I still haven't been out to town with anyone other than Aileen, and that was only once and only because it was under very special circumstances.

“Hey there, mind if I join you?" It's the bear from earlier, his voice is deep and husky which fits with his overall look.

“Yeah, I guess." I answer, not too sure what's going on.

“So what's a pretty doe like you doing in a place like this?" He asks in what I can tell is a very canned way after he takes the seat across the table from me. “I'm sorry, that was terrible. I swear I'm not usually that bad." He chuckles as he realises how he just sounded.

“Hang on, did you say doe?" I ask, wondering if I'm hearing things.

“Yeah, you're so pretty and all so I thought I'd try saying something endearing or something, this whole pick-up-line thing hasn't worked for me has it?" Again he chuckles at his own expense and warm embarrassment flows through me, far warmer than the oaky heat of my whisky.

“Sorry for confusing you," I start apologising to the anthro bear on the other side of the table. “I'm not a doe, it's shedding season so I don't have antlers and that confuses people that aren't deers, sorry." He looks shocked and a little bit embarrassed but quickly puts on a forced neutral face.

“Oh, sorry mate, um…" he gives me an apologetic look before getting up and shuffling away awkwardly. He takes a seat as far away from me as possible in this small pub and I watch him out of the corner of my eye as he laughs at himself while putting his head in his hands and shaking it. I down my drink quickly and stand to leave the bar, walking out back into the street. 'I can't look that much like a doe, right?' I think to myself as I start walking in a random direction, feeling sorry for the bear. 'I guess I do look quite lithe, Aileen would say curvy, and I don't have my rack so there's that too.' I muse to myself as I walk. Having ambled around town for a while, a wolf whistle sounds from the other side of the street and I look over to see a group of three very drunk-looking wolves, all of them staring at me.

“Hey honey! Fans yourselv some lupine meat?!" One of them jeers while making a thrusting motion. The other wolves laugh at their friend's actions and I try to ignore them as I continue walking, quickly now that I have someone to avoid. Thankfully they decide not to tail me and move on with their night. 'Guess I do look enough like a doe then. Aileen's never going to let me live this down…..unless she never finds out……she always finds out.' The whisky I had earlier has travelled to my bladder and made its presence known so I decide I've had enough of exploring Maple Hills for one evening and head to The Hole In The Wall to use their toilets. I walk through the door and quickly make my way to the toilets, but before I can push open the door to the male toilets a gruff feral badger stops me.

“Hey! I think you've got the wrong door there, dear." He says, stopping me as I push the door open. 'It's unbelievable how frequently this is happening to me. I guess alcohol makes people less observant.'

“Oh! No, this is the right one. It's shedding season so I don't have my antlers, you see." The badger looks shocked and a little embarrassed but doesn't stop me as I push open the door and walk through it. I go into a stall and empty my bladder, washing my hands and then leaving the toilets, then the pub and making my way back towards my flat. As I walk back my phone starts buzzing in my pocket so I take it out and see that Aileen is calling, answering the call while I walk. “Hello?"

“Hey, Ross! I'm in the mood for some 'fun time' if you're up for it, I know you got pretty wiped out yesterday so it's okay if you say no." My girlfriend tells me happily, how she always has so much energy I don't know, it must be a weasel thing.

“Uh, yeah I guess we could do that tonight."

“Great! Can I come round your place?"

“Yeah, that's fine."

“Great. And you're sure you're not too wiped out? Sure?"

“Sure." I say warmly, flattered that she cares so much about me. “Just don't worry when you see me, okay."

“Uh……okay……." I can tell Aileen doesn't quite know what I'm talking about but she doesn't ask for more information. “Alright then, I'll see you at your place then. Bye!"

“Bye!" I end the call and feel a strange anxiety welling up in me as I make my way back to my flat. I get back and get out of my outdoor clothes, keeping my hat on since my stubs are still in need of protection. Minutes later I get a text from Aileen saying she's arrived. She smiles as I open the main door to my flat and quickly gives me a puzzled look. I lead her into my dorm and she finally breaks her silence and asks me about what I'm sure she's been wanting to since she first saw me this evening.

“You don't have any antlers!" She bursts out. “What happened? Was it some sort of stag thing and both your antlers broke off and you lost?"

“No, nothing so cool," I say with a chuckle, kinda wishing it had been something that cool. “Every year stags shed their antlers around about now, I woke up this morning and knocked one off by accident, then gave Theo a small shock when he saw me walking to the bathroom." I explain.

“Could- could I see?" She asks timidly, I smile at her unusual display but nod.

“There's going to be a little bit of blood and it might look a little freaky." I warn before taking off my hat. Aileen gasps at the unusual sight but other than being shocked she doesn't give any other reaction.

“Did it hurt? It looks like it hurt."

“It's kind of like the feeling of getting a tooth removed under heavy anaesthetic, really just a weird pulling and releasing feeling." I answer, putting back on my hat.

“You look a bit like Sally." Aileen comments jokily.

“Ah, you're not the only one, I went into town and got confused for a doe a few times."

“No way!" She states disbelievingly.

“Yeah, to me it's obvious I'm a stag, but it seems I look very much like a doe to everyone else."

“At least now, if we're talking about stereotypes, you look more like you act. Though, I will miss your handy dandy handles during our 'fun times'. They're going to grow back right?"

“Y-yeah." I stutter at the mention of Aileen and I's 'fun time' together. “But it's going to look really freaky in September when I shed my velvet." Aileen just looks at me as if I'm talking nonsense but smiles lovingly.

“Well my little doe, I think it's time we have some fun." She says as she stands up. “If you were more of a stag I'd grab you by your antlers and drag you to your bedroom but oh well, I suppose I can't have everything I want."

“Sorry." I apologise as I stand up as well and begin following my girlfriend to my bedroom. “I can't control when my antlers shed though, it happens to every stag so-“ Aileen turns her head and gives me a look that means 'just go with it, please' and I promptly shut up. We enter my bedroom and Aileen closes the door behind me.

“Get on the bed." She orders and I do as she says, moving my shed antlers off the bed and shoving them quickly under it before sitting on my bed facing her. “You better not have moved any of my stuff, doe." Aileen moves over to the locked box in the corner and smiles as it opens and she sees all the things inside. Her smile makes a feeling of nervous fear and excitement bubble up inside me while I sit quietly on my bed. “I love being an engineering student sometimes," Aileen mutters as she takes out lengths of red rope, ankle cuffs, wrist cuffs, and a harness bit gag. “Time to get you into position. Get up and stand here." I do as she says and then she starts feeling over me. I let her hands explore my covered body, trying not to get tickled as I'm quite ticklish. “Take off your clothes, show me your body, doe." I take off my top and shimmy out of my trousers so I'm only in my pants. “And those, fawn, or am I going to have to teach you to listen?" Aileen threatens, I wince as I remember the last time she had to teach me to listen, I couldn't walk right for a few days after that. I take off my pants and now I'm fully exposed to my girlfriend's eyes. She gazes at my light brown sheath and balls and the small amount of my pink tip poking out. “I can see why the people in town thought you were a doe. Still, I know just what I feel like doing tonight." Without explaining further she puts the ankle cuffs on me and secures them to the ground with some of the rope. “Raise your arms nice and high for me." Once my arms are raised she attaches the wrist cuffs to me and with a bit of effort, and standing on my bed, she secures them to the roof with more of the rope so I can't lower my arms at all. “I realise I haven't let you talk much, anything you want to say?"

“No." I get a firm slap to my side and try to move away but with my legs and arms bound I don't succeed. “No, Sir!" I correct myself after Aileen makes it clear I've made a mistake. Even though Aileen is a woman, she made it very clear early on that I am to call her 'Sir' when she's dominating me, she likes it and I have no problem with it.

“Better. Now that you're all set up and can't stop me, I think I'm going to let you know what I have planned for you tonight." My heart races as I look at Aileen's wide smile. “Since you don't have any antlers, I'm going to make sure you look even more like a doe by draining those balls of all that useless stuff in them. You're a doe now so you won't be needing it." She tells me and laughs somewhat cruelly at my wide-eyed reaction. “Safeword's 'spiders' if that's okay. Safe tune is the same as it always is, the theme to the X Files." Aileen says, leaning in and breaking character for a moment.

“That's fine." I tell her and she nods, looking more serious now that I've said the safeword is okay.

“I know it sounds exciting," Aileen says, looking at my growing erection. “But I'm going to make sure you're _completely _empty even if you beg me to stop." She holds my face in her hands and speaks softly into my ear. “And because you're so much of a doe, you can't do anything to stop me. Not that you'd dare to stop me, right?"

“N-no, Sir." I respond meekly.

“Good boy, now how about we get this hat off so the world can see just how much of a fawn you are." Aileen raises her hand towards my hat and I try to lower my arms but can't.

“Spiders." Aileen stops mid-motion and waits for me to continue. “I'd like it to stay on, please."

“Of course." She says while moving her hand away and smiling understandingly.

“We can start again whenever you're ready." I tell Aileen and she nods, putting on her serious face again.

“What would you like to start with first? Shall I just use my hand or do you want something under that cute little tail of yours?" I know full well I don't have a choice and that my girlfriend doesn't expect an answer so I just keep quiet and try to look as appeasing to her as possible. “You're right, let's not get ahead of ourselves, we're going to be going at this for a long time so let's start slow." Aileen gives me a worrying smile and dives her hand straight towards my stiffening member, gripping it in her brown-furred hand and starting to stroke it. I tense up and try to move as best as I can but my bindings keep me exactly where my girlfriend wants me. “You like that?" She asks as she gives me a handjob, my long, tapered member growing to full attention in her hand.

“Yes, Sir." As soon as I've answered, Aileen removes her hand and leaves me bucking my hips in search of the pleasure that was just cruelly taken from me.

“Too bad." She says, deadpan. “You should know that as soon as you cum I'm going to make sure there are no breaks, so I think I'm going to tease you and make your balls churn before I let you do that." My penis is gripped again and I gasp in rekindled pleasure as Aileen starts stroking again. I get to the very edge before she denies my climax and leaves me panting. “Do you want to cum now?"

“Y-yes, Sir." I answer, need in my eyes. Evidently there's not enough need because Aileen just smiles cruelly as she denies my request.

“Does don't get to cum." She waits until my length is returning to its sheath before starting to pleasure me again.

What feels like forever passes but I can tell she's only been edging me for an hour since there's a clock on the wall, and I'm no closer to blowing my first load of the night.

“P- please let me cum…." I whine to Aileen.

“That's it, beg like the doe you are. Maybe then I'll let you cum."

“Please!" She slaps my side again and I let out a small yelp of pain.

“Don't make me remind you again, you are to call me 'Sir'. Don't think I didn't notice when you begged me to let you cum either, you call me 'Sir' or you get punished." To make sure she knows I've listened she slaps my side again, drawing another yelp from me. “Now beg for me to let you cum, properly this time."

“Please- Sir- please let me cum!" I beg, the need for release after all of her teasing making me desperate. Aileen seems to ignore my plea for a moment before smiling.

“Fine, here's your reward for being such a doe." Aileen keeps rubbing my penis as I buck into her hand as well as my binds will allow me. With a bleat of absolute pleasure I start shooting my cum while my balls bounce as I pump jet after jet out of my tip. I pull hard against the ropes on my limbs but they hold me where I am so all I can do is shiver in delight as my climax hits me like a freight train. After so long being denied this feeling I groan with joy at finally being able to release. Eventually it ends and my afterglow covers me while I pant after my exertion. “Oh, we're not done." I flinch as I feel Aileen's hand grab my penis again and start stroking it. It feels like too much, I'm too sensitive and I try to move away but I can't, instead all I can do is close my eyes and try to weather the storm of oversensitivity. A small whine of discomfort slips from my muzzle as Aileen keeps stroking my length, making it stiffen up again despite my wishes. “I told you there'd be no breaks, we're not finished until those useless balls of yours are empty." A painful sort of pleasure begins building up inside me because of Aileen's stroking and with a pained whimper I shoot my second load of the night. This time Aileen doesn't even let me have a moment to enjoy my climax, instead she just keeps stoking my penis while it pulses in her hand.

“P- ple- ah! Please! It's too-“ The stroking stops and I sigh heavily, maybe Aileen is being kind to me. Unfortunately I realise quickly that's not the case as I see her holding the harness bit gag.

“Open." Aileen orders after tapping my muzzle. I do as she says and she secures the bit gag in my mouth, wrapping the leather straps around the back of my head so everything is held tightly. “Do you remember the safe tune? Give it a go so I know." Aileen asks as she breaks character for a moment. I hum the opening notes of the X Files theme and she smiles. “Okay, I'll keep checking every now and then, okay." I give an affirming grunt and Aileen returns to her character. “There, now I don't have to put up with all your useless begging." Her hand returns to my length, now no more than a pink tip sticking out of my sheath, and starts her painful stroking again.

“Mmmph!" The bit in my mouth stops any possibility of speech and instead I bite down hard into it while I scrunch my eyes closed and pray I cum quickly. My eyes start tearing up and I try to look as pleadingly as I can to Aileen while my body shakes and moves involuntarily. “Rmmm….!" My legs and arms try to flail about or move to stop her as she tortures me but I'm powerless to stop her and instead all I can do is accept that fact. Several minutes pass but finally she pushes me over the edge again and I huff and gasp around my gag as I shoot my cum while I orgasm. Aileen mercifully takes her hand off my staghood and I whimper in thanks, grateful to her that she's granted me a moment of reprieve from the painful pleasure she was bringing me.

“Don't get hopeful yet, I've only stopped for a moment so I can get this." She goes back to my box in the corner and pulls out a large horse dildo. “I think this stallion wants a ride." She takes a bottle of lube from the box as well and then moves back over to me, my tears have stopped but my face is still wet with them. “Be a good doe and lift your tail for this nice horse." I lift my scut and gasp as Aileen lathers my white-furred rear in lube, firmly penetrating my tailhole every now and then to make me moan. “I'm getting bored of stroking your pathetic doehood so I thought we'd try something different for a while." After lubing up the dildo she starts forcefully pushing it against my tight tailhole, slowly my hole accepts it's not going to win this fight and begins stretching wider and wider to fit the head of the dildo inside me. With a groan, the head of the equine shaft fully enters me and makes me clench down around it while Aileen pushes it deeper and deeper into me. “I told you you were a doe, look how easily you took such a big thing up your ass." I blush in embarrassment at my girlfriend's taunt, it's only because I'm so used to having things under my tail and have stretched out my tailhole so much with Aileen that I'm able to take the large horse dildo. “A good doe that takes all this meat deserves another orgasm." Those words would have made me happy if I hadn't just orgasmed not even five minutes ago and then before that as well. Now those words make me wince in anticipation at the pain that Aileen is about to put me through. She pulls most of the dildo out of me before slowly pushing it all the way back in, increasing the pace as she repeats this over and over again. I try to kick and flail involuntarily as the large dildo rubs over my overly sensitive prostate and makes me whimper. I can't do anything as Aileen brutally milks me for the third time tonight, my tears roll down my face and I whimper and moan and shout with the bit gag stopping anything else from leaving my mouth. This time my tapered tip dribbles out my semen, it drools down to the floor below me as I convulse, Aileen still beating my prostate.

My next orgasm releases a pathetic amount of my seed and Aileen smiles at this. “You're becoming more of a doe by the second!" She states happily. “Give that safe tune a go, just so I know you remember it." She tells me, breaking character to make sure I can still remember how to get out of all of this if I want. Amidst my tears and shivering I hum the start of the X Files and Aileen grins. “Well, little doe, I think it's time I go back to your useless doehood. I want you to keep this up here until I tell you otherwise, if it falls out I'm going to make sure you regret it." Aileen lets go of the dildo and I clench my tailhole to keep it in me, she moves back to my front and starts rubbing my sheath to coax my penis out. “It's getting annoying how fast this pathetic thing returns to its sheath, you'd better say sorry, little doe."

“Orri!" I whine. Aileen gives my balls a sharp slap and I whine even louder.

“You didn't say 'Sir', you know you're meant to say 'Sir', aren't you?"

“Orri, ir! Orri, ir!" I quickly correct, looking to my girlfriend with an apologetic look, her sleek body moving with a grace only she has.

“That's better. Don't give me that pathetic look, you're a doe now and this is what does do. They please people with what's under their tails and they completely empty themselves of their useless cum." My length slowly emerges and I wish it hadn't because the next few long minutes have me writhing in suffering and pleading through my gag. My member pulses repeatedly as I'm forced to orgasm again, but only a dribble of my seed is produced after all my torture. “Look at that, barely even a drop." My girlfriend jeers. “I think it's time I hear your doe-y pleading and begging again so it's time for this to come off." Aileen reaches up to my head and undoes the buckle at the back of it, removing the straps from around my head and the bit from my mouth. “There we go, little doe." She says once my gag has been removed. “Do you still remember the safe word?" She asks, once again breaking character to make sure I remember my way out of this.

“S…… spiders….." I pant, tired from my ongoing ordeal.

“Was that you telling me to stop or answering my question?"

“Answer……" I tell her, recovering my breath in this short break she's afforded me.

“Okay." Aileen gets back in character and we continue our scene.

My suffering goes on for a long time after that; I writhe and contort myself in efforts to escape my pain while Aileen cruelly tortures my overstimulated senses, each touch from my girlfriend feeling like fire and electricity coursing through me and making me wriggle and beg her to stop. She doesn't listen and grins at my discomfort, she knows I can't escape her and she likes that. After I don't know how many orgasms, a feeling of lightheadedness starts creeping over me once again, I'd felt like this a few times tonight after Aileen had made me cum again and again. But this feeling feels different somehow. My head can't make thoughts properly amidst my torture and each of my breaths starts getting laboured and difficult. I start struggling to draw enough breath and my head feels empty, like it's not there.

“Sp……. Sp-“ I try to talk but my lungs can't give me the air to do so. “Sp……." Like a light switching off, blackness covers my vision.

I'm lying on my bed, Aileen is tapping my face hard enough that it should hurt but I can't feel it much more than an increase in pressure for a second.

“Come- Ross. You stay- much longer and I'm going to have to- paramedics!" I can't seem to hear properly, bits of what she's saying are cut off and it sounds like her voice is coming through a wall but there's obvious worry and fear in her voice. I see her look down at me and notice my eyes are open a little and looking up at her. “Oh! Are you waking up!" Relief and joy pour from Aileen's clearing voice as I start recovering and coming to fully, my head clearing up and coming back to me.

“Wa-“

“Shhhhhh! Lay there and focus on recovering." Aileen tells me commandingly and I stop trying to talk immediately and instead just lay where I am and focus on breathing deeply and coming out of my passed-out trance. Aileen lays by me and gives me reassuring touches as I slowly recover from passing out, leaving as I seem to be almost completely recovered and getting me a small glass of water. She walks back into my room moments later with the glass of water and hands it to me. “You passed out." She says to me. “I stopped what we were doing because it sounded like you were trying to say spiders and then you just fainted. I rushed to get the cuffs off you and I laid you down on your bed. You really had me worried." She tells me after taking a seat next to me.

“Sorry." I apologise after taking a sip of water, I feel really bad for worrying Aileen.

“Don't apologise!" She scolds. “I'm about to apologise for going too far!" She tells me before she looks at me and gets more serious. “I'm sorry, Ross. I went too far tonight and you could have got hurt. Sorry."

“I'm fine," I say reassuringly, putting down my glass of water on my bedside cabinet and leaning over to hug her. “You don't need to apologise, we just won't go that far again." We both hug each other and just bask in the warmth of the other, feeling content and secure in how much we both love each other.