I love you and I'm sorry
#4 of I'm Real (scales & wings)
well here is chapter 4, i know i know there's a warning but it adds to the story
this story contains m/m so if your not into that stuff you don't have to read this story but if you want to go ahead, otherwise Enjoy
Chapter 4
I love you and I'm sorry
The morning light makes my eyes flutter open; the air is dense since ash has risen with the wind
I look at Tye who is snuggled up next to me, I smiled at him, I really feel now that at least to me we are more than friends
He's the only one that I can really talk to, the only one I can trust... the only one that cares about me
How do I know... if it's really love?
He's been my best friend for the longest time; he created me as a child and wanted to bring me to life
I feel as though this is only a fantasy... there's no way he will ever accept me as his love
He doesn't need me for that, he has other people who need him more... it's all my fault I took him away from them
Then I have to say this now, I'll do what ever it takes to bring Tye home, if he accepts me or not, I want him to know that I'd do anything for him
I'll protect him, even if that means leaving... forever
A gust of wind blow ash in from the outside, this wasn't the best place to be staying if we didn't get out of here we could probably suffocate
I lifted Tye in my arms and stood up; I carried him out of the cave and climbed up the rocks to protect us from the polluted winds
I sat on top of the rock surveying the damage I had done, the world around me seemed gray, everything out there seemed to have completely vanished, even the horizon wasn't seen the distant forest had burnt as well and blocked the light from that direction
The only light was from the sun high above our heads, we must have slept longer from less oxygen
I needed to know if my wing was able to fly us out of this gray wasteland
I stretched it out as far as I could and yet again the pain stopped me from fully expanding it, I hated this weakness, I couldn't help him but he's stuck with me
My wish was granted to me ... but with what pain
I find the one I've been looking for... and it turns out I'm doing more harm than good
Tye deserves so much better, I know those two back home treated him well, I'm sure they're the one who kept him busy while I was gone
They must really be meant for him... but where does that leave me?
I wish I knew
Tye stirred in my arms
"Good morning" he said tiredly
"Good morning Tye" I nuzzled his cheek, he giggled before pushing me away
"How's the wing feeling?" he asked me, I showed him how far I could go before I frowned
"I'm sorry Tye" I put my head down but all he did was pet my head
"It's alright Dachii maybe we can try again tomorrow" he said sliding out of my arms "maybe we could start walking, the forest is clearly gone so there isn't much to get in the way"
He did have a point; if we started heading there now maybe we could find some help to bring us back
I got us both down off of the rock and tried to remember which way it was to the city
"The city is in the same direction as the cave is opens, so we go... that way" I pointed to where I thought the city was
Tye nodded and started walking I followed, but I soon couldn't stand it any more, I put him through so much in such a short time he shouldn't be forced to walk his way home
I stopped him and picked him up before placing him on my shoulders
I told him that there was no way I was going to let him walk the whole way
Of course he argued to a point but he soon stopped when he knew I had won, we went on for what felt like hours, and by the look of the sun it had been a while, we stumbled upon a river, this was perfect if we follow the river we would find a town or a city
The best part was the other side of the river hadn't been scorched by flames and was beautiful to look at considering the grey disaster we were standing on
As we traveled along the river we had been blocked by a huge wall of rock and a small waterfall, which created the perfect size pond
Big enough to swim in but small enough to sit by the edges and soak
And it was very calm to so we decided to stop here for the day it was starting to get late
I pulled together a few berries that I could find and gave them to Tye, I strangely didn't feel hungry
I made a large pile of leaves and grass from the stuff I could find and made a mat for us to sleep on
Tye was sitting down by the edge of the pond when I decided to go for a little swim and drink, it wouldn't matter the water would flow down the river anyway so I could say it was safe enough
I tested the water with my toes first it wasn't to bad a little chilly but nothing a bit of moving around couldn't fix
I dove in almost splashing Tye, when I resurfaced I saw Tye laughing and he asked me how it was
It was actually pretty good this is the first time if really swam even though my feet could feel the bottom
"Come in the water is great" I beckoned to Tye
Tye laughed again "I don't have anything to swim in" he pointed to his clothing
I sighed "Tye look at me you don't need to wear clothing to swim" I smiled at him "don't worry Tye I'm the only one here"
Tye grinned shyly "hmm I don't know Dachii it seems a bit cold"
"I can keep you warm, just stay close and relax by the waterfall"
"Alright... if you say so Dachii" he said as he started removing his clothing
Tye completely undressed himself and set his clothing next to the mat, I sat by the edge near the falls waiting for Tye
He slipped in beside me shivering after just getting in
His naked form hitting the water seemed to thrill me I felt my groin tingle but it soon subsided as he fully entered the water
"You're cold already?" I asked playfully
He shivered a little more before getting closer
I grabbed onto him and pulled him close to my body; even in the cool water the heat between us was very comfortable
How ever that feeling again struck me, I could feel my appendage growing slowly and escaping the fold of skin shielding it
"Tye..." I said quietly
"Yea?" he asked
"I need to tell you something... but I don't know how to say it"
"Dachii, you know you can trust me... what do you have to say that's so difficult?"
"Tye... I think ... I love you"
Tye slightly flinched from hearing me say that "Dachii, what do you mean?"
"I don't really know, but I have these feelings for you... and I can't let them go" I pulled him closer
"Dachii... I ... I don't know about this, I have people waiting for me back home, and what will happen to our friendship... I'm afraid things will change"
I was saddened by his words, he was afraid... I was afraid, what if he was right I didn't know what would happen to our friendship ... I didn't want things to end
But I knew this was my chance, this was my chance to see if I really loved Tye and if he loved me back... if things were truly meant to be then I have to do this, it may be the only chance I ever have
"shh Tye let me handle this, I love you, I just want to know, if anything will happen"
I pulled him in, his backside was on my lap and my growing dragon member was fully out and hardened pressing against his leg
"Dachii... alright, I'll let you do this, but please promise me that when it's all over... you'll still be my friend, and not just someone who leaves" he said to me with a little worry in his voice
"I promise you Tye, anything that happens, can only make us closer" I nuzzled his neck before putting my lips to his, I've never done that before but it felt like the right thing to do
I positioned Tye so that my tip was at his hole; the cool waters did nothing to make me smaller, the feeling of his soft skin only made want to push further
"Are you ready?" I asked him quietly
"Yes" he whispered back, I then pushed my tip into him as I heard him yelp
"Are you alright?" I asked, I was concerned I didn't want to hurt him
"I'm alright, you're just really big" I squeezed him slightly before continuing
The warm moist insides of Tye were just amazing, his tight butt squeezed my length; pleasure was running through me, it was much better than doing things alone
I had pushed almost all of my length in before I felt I shouldn't go any further, I then started pulling back almost to the point of pulling out
I sped up a little bit now adding a little more force, it felt so good all my other senses didn't matter but touch, it was amazing that so much pleasure could come from one place
I started ramming in harder Tye almost screaming but he seemed to be enjoying it
I felt that force from before like all of this pent up energy was flowing right out of me and it was flowing through to the tip of my meat
I came hard into Tye, I pulled Tye up and put our lips together, even now this touch was more pleasurable
I felt tired and I was slightly panting so was Tye, I gently pulled us both out of the water
Our dripping body's still connected felt cool in the night winds but there was warmth from being so close to each other
I lay down on my back on the mat and brought Tye with me, he was lying on my chest and belly, I pulled him off of my slowly shrinking meat and nuzzled Tye's head
"Tye... I love you" I said quietly but lovingly, I wished to hear him say it back, but I knew that something was wrong, it looked like Tye had fallen asleep, his body exhausted from what I had done to him, I felt strange I really did love Tye but I felt something hurt on the inside as if it were slowly eating away at me
I realized it must have been guilt, I had taken advantage of him, I used his body but I used or closeness to get what I felt that I wanted
Was I truly deserving of any love from this caring boy? He has done so much and yet... I really haven't been able to do anything for him
Even if I brought him back home it wouldn't matter I had taken him out here in the first place... it was my fault
I felt sad but I tried to shake it off, I grabbed Tye's clothing and did my best at fitting it on his now dry body
I held onto him and let him lay on my belly, I wish I deserved him... but then again I ask for to much...
I closed my eyes and fell asleep under the darkened sky
I woke from my slumber holding Tye lovingly in my arms; he seemed to be sleeping soundly
From what had happened last night, he said he was worried about our friendship... I could say I doubted him at the time but now maybe he was right
I don't think things would ever be the same, I love Tye, but he's been my friend for years and now that things have changed how can I say that nothing could happen
The way I feel for him now, I don't think things could go back to the way they once were
Tye shifted as he woke up, he sat up still being held by me
I nuzzled his neck "good morning Tye" I said softly
He lightly hugged my neck but he didn't speak "what's wrong?" I asked
He looked at me with his eyes full of sadness and shame, I didn't understand, Tye... I want to know, are you alright?
"Dachii... this isn't right, it's just... I'm sorry" a few tears streamed down his face as he stood up leaving my embrace
"Tye wait" I grabbed onto his arm "please don't go"
I felt like I was going to break down and cry
"please don't leave me... at least not yet, even if you don't want me here, I promised myself that I would get you home... once we get you there... you can tell me to go away and I'll never bother you again" I said sadly
Tye froze, despite the beautiful area around us the sadness and despair on his face drained it all
Nothing could bring a smile back to me if he stayed that way
The only one I cared for... he was beyond my help now... even I was beyond any help
Our world felt destroyed, we stood only upon the shattered fragments of or former relationship
Our friendship was lost and our bonds broken, what were we now?
"Please Tye... you don't even have to look at me, I will just carry you"
I picked him up and jumped across the river to the ashy remnants of what used to be a forest
The rock face was easier to climb from here but with Tye, I was afraid, what if something went wrong, I didn't want Tye hurt no matter how much he hates me
I climbed all the way to the top still holding onto Tye he stayed silent, I was still worried, was he going to be alright?
I peered over the edge and I saw the strangest thing
It was a bog so foggy from the thick swamp gas in the air; I knew that from here our travel would be more difficult
I saw something off in the distance; if you looked closely you could see a small sliver of light that must be somewhere I can get some help
I pulled us both up and I felt my toes squish between the soaked ground, it may have felt unstable but as long as I could walk along it, it didn't matter, I was determined to get Tye to safety, there's no way I was stopping now
Tye finally spoke up "Dachii I can walk on my own" as he squirmed out of my hold
"Tye?" I looked at him, the way I heard his words I thought he was angry but when he looked at me our eyes locked and I saw his eyes were filled with worry
"I can walk from here, is that the city over there?" he pointed towards the dim light in the distance
"I would say so" I said quietly, before I could say me he started walking towards it, what was he doing? I can't let him go alone, something might happen to him
I followed along behind him but he stopped and turned around to stare at me
"Why are you following me?" he asked coldly
"I want to...protect you; I won't leave until I know you are safe"
He didn't say anything further he just turned back towards the distant light and continued to walk
What is wrong with Tye? Is he mad at me... or is he afraid of me?
We walked and seemed to be getting closer to the light, but then I heard a clink sound as I heard something fall from not to far away, I stopped Tye
"Wait" I said pointing to the area in front of us, I blew a small flare to show what was there
The way in front of us was... gone, a massive fissure lay ahead of us, it must have been hundreds of feet deep and at least 50 feet wide, there was no way we could walk across this, but there was no way I could let Tye down
I won't allow it, no matter the pain; you really need my help Tye
I fully expanded my wings, pain surged through it, I didn't care
I grabbed Tye and charged forward, I caught just enough lift to get into the air as I glided to the other side
It hurt really badly, I knew I couldn't keep this up for long, we were almost there, I could do this
I felt something buckle in my wing we were dropping, I want Tye to be safe no matter what
I threw Tye across what was left of the way, as I saw him reach the other side I folded back the one hurt wing and tried to flap the one I had left as quickly as possible
I turned myself so that what force I could push myself would go in the direction I needed, but my energy wasn't going to last
As my wing became to tired to support me I looked down, I was only a few feet from the edge I can pull myself up
I did one more powerful flap and then folded my wing I fell forward just barely gripping the edge with my claws
We had made it, I pulled myself up and I saw Tye still lying on the ground
Oh no is he hurt? He must have landed and was hurt to badly to stand, I have to help him
I rushed to Tye's side
"Tye" I said as I sat by him and tried to pull him up "Tye are you alright?" I asked shaking him hoping for an answer
"I'm ... ok... but there is something I have to say..." he said weakly
I hugged him as I waited for him to talk again
"Dachii... I've been acting terribly towards you... but it's not your fault"
What was he saying? I could understand why he could be mad at me, but he isn't blaming me, I tried to talk but he put his finger on my lips
"I'm sorry Dachii, I've been stupid... the reason I've been treating you this way is because ... I don't know how sure of myself I am anymore"
Now I was confused, he was someone who always knew what to do, and understood why but now he's saying that what been going on between me and him has made him unsure
Where is he going with this?
He continued to speak "when you told me you loved me Dachii, I admit I was scared and hesitant, but I think I know what I have to do now"
Tye grabbed my head and pulled it towards him he had pulled me into a kiss and had allowed our tongues to meet and mine to twist around his
Lip locked I had felt him hand feeling along my chest
He pulled me in deeper just before he had squeezed somewhere on my neck, I then felt something coming up my throat and I couldn't stop it, I tried to pull away but Tye was holding me
Suddenly Tye stopped pulling; I looked at him as I heard these words come out of his mouth
"I love you Dachii, and I'm sorry"
He then dropped to the floor, what had I done? What did he do? What happened?
Tye...?
I grabbed onto his body and pulled him up I soon smelled thick smoke from his now halted esophagus
"No!" I yelled as I put my head to his chest, I heard nothing; his body was limp as I held him in my hand
Why Tye? Why would you do this? You've made my world come crashing down
Even with another wish granted he told me he loved me... but I didn't mean for things to end up like this
Tye was gone, my heart burned at the sorrow, tears flowing out of my eyes as I sobbed over the one I loved
Tye you bastard, how could you leave me like this? You even used me to end your life, just so I could see you die; what ever you were trying to do... you've hurt me... I-I'm so sorry
I started this... I should have never told you my feelings
I cried as I thought what cruel beings were the ones who managed my fate, was this what I was truly doomed to? A life of sadness, pain, and broken hearts
It's only because... I was never meant to exist, wasn't it?
Now no matter what happened my life had no meaning now... I had no one else... my dreams died along with Tye
Tye you were the one who told me to never give up on myself, and you were the one who told me it wouldn't be the last time for a long time
Where are those words now...? Why didn't you hold to them...?
I held him close one more time, I didn't want him to be left here... all alone... dead or alive
My tears reached the ground below soaking us into the mud; I then heard what sounded like footsteps
Someone was coming, if they saw me holding onto Tye like this they would know it was me who killed him, they would kill me right here on the spot, like some sort of monster
Did it really matter anymore? I was alone, dangerous, and in pain
If it were to end right now, it wouldn't matter; at least I would be with Tye
I stayed holding Tye there on the floor, waiting for what I knew was coming
The figure stopped in front of me, I was unsure what was going to happen but I knew one thing
Tye... I won't be long, I coming for you ... I won't ever let you be alone...
End of Chapter 4
well that's that chapter, sorry i kind of twisted it, i don't normally go near sad topics but it seemed apropriate, and hey who knows it might help with the plot of the story
what will happen to Dachii?
is his existence to be over soon?
who is this figure?
should i really be asking these questions?
you'll have to read the next chapter to find out, so please comment and tell me what you think i'd like to know