FSE

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Yayy chapter 4. This one is slightly longer than most of the others, but i was happy i got it done in a week without rushing at the last second. I really hope you guys like this one cause i've been trying really hard to use all your advice while im writing and it's been helping so thanks to all of your support.

Hope you enjoy it ^.^

I sat on my bed and thought about the previous night. The way Steve held me in his arms, and the way he told me he loved me, could all of it have just been a drunken mistake? Or did Steve really feel that way about me? I went over Roy's that morning and he could tell something was wrong.

"Josh you look awful" he observed. I didn't want to tell Roy about what happened, but I felt tremendously anxious, like my heart was being torn from me.

"Yeah, last night wasn't so good" I told him

"What happened?" he asked

"Well, If I tell you, you can't breathe a word of it to anyone" I directed.

"I promise, I won't tell anyone" He swore as we both sat on his bed. He wrapped an arm around me and held me tight to him, helping me to relax enough to tell him. I proceeded to explain everything that happened that night, up to when I woke up that morning. "Jeeze man, I'm really sorry" He comforted as he turned and hugged me to him. A few tears escaped from me, and I held Roy even closer.

"I don't know if I should feel used, or guilty, or scared." I whimpered.

"Don't worry, it'll be ok I promise" He comforted. We sat there for a few minutes as he held me, the tight feeling in my chest slowly dissipating. I wiped the remaining tears from my eyes and looked up at Roy. He kissed me on the forehead and smiled as we separated from our embrace. He urged me to go with him to the mall, and I accepted his offer, willing to do anything to take my mind off what happened. We went outside and got into his car and drove through town until we arrived at a 3 story shopping complex.

"Wow this place his huge" I told him

"Yeah they have everything here" He told me. We went around the mall, mostly window shopping, until we passed by a dress and suit shop and saw a large line of furs at the counter.

"That reminds me, isn't the homecoming dance soon?" I asked.

"Yeah...it is" Roy murmured, looking as if he were in pain.

"Whats wrong? You sound disappointed." I asked.

"Well... I wanted to ask you... if maybe you'd wanna go to the dance with me... but I can't go. It'll be a full moon so..." He trailed off.

"Roy... I'm sorry, I would definitely have went with you" I comforted, taking his hand in mine. His ears perked up a bit and he gave me a warm smile.

"I would've liked that" he grinned, seeming like he was holding something back. I thought about how his condition must've prevented him from doing a lot of things, and I felt bad for him. But I found solace in the fact that even though he had to go through so much, he was still such a kind and caring person.

We explored the mall even further, stopping at the food court to eat, and went inside a video game store. While inside we ran into Mr. Jones, our anatomy teacher. He was wearing blue jeans and a taught white T-shirt and quickly recognized us and came over to say hello.

"Hey guys, enjoying your saturday?" He asked, a smile on his face. We both muttered a "yeah" feeling a bit awkward about seeing a teacher in public. "Oh by the way, Josh I didn't get your permission slip yesterday, can you get it in to me on monday?" he asked. I had completely forgot about the permission slip for the sex ed course.

"Uh yeah" I replied. He went off into the mall as Roy scanned the store for the latest games he wanted. He picked a few off the shelf and rang them up before we exited the store. As we left I saw bradley, the wolf that tried to beat me up in the lunchroom. Before I could try and hide, he saw me and strutted over, followed by 2 other furs, with a smug look on his face.

"Well, I'm surprised to see you're still around, I thought I made it clear no one wants you around" He sneered, cracking his knuckles as he approached. Roy stepped in front of me and lowered his ears in a scowl.

"Leave him alone brad" he ordered.

"Aww, what're you? The pussies little boyfriend?" he snickered.

"So what if I am? Just get out of here, unless you wanna be benched for the rest of the season"

"Oh is that a threat you little fuck?" He growled.

"No, but I know you have a scholarship offer on the line right now, and I'd hate to see you lose it for fighting" Roy grinned. Brad stepped back a bit, growling in irritation.

"Just like I thought, you're too pussy to settle shit like a man. Go suck each others cocks you fags I'm outta here" he fussed as he walked away.

"Roy that was amazing, thank you" I told him.

"It's alright, lets go" he smiled. As we walked out of the mall, I thought about how Roy responded to he boyfriend comment. Did he really want to be my boyfriend? And even if he didn't, what if brad or his friends told someone? That would be even more trouble for Roy and I.

The following Monday at school, I was nerve wracked about seeing Steve in gym. My stomach was twisting all day, and I almost even forgot to bring Mr. Jones my permission slip. While Roy and I were talking in the hall before second period, we noticed we were getting odd looks. A girl walked up to us with an expectant look on her face while another group in the corner was watching.

"So, um, I heard you guys are like, going out. Is that true?" she asked. Roy and I shot I look of confusion at each other before we realized that brad must've been behind it. Roy smiled as he turned back to the girl, who was awkwardly fidgeting as she waited for a reply.

"While we may not be going out" he said as he stretched an arm over my shoulder "we are a bit closer than 2 men usually are" he swooned as he turned and nuzzled my neck. I couldn't help but giggle as he did so, and went along with his antics, wrapping both my arms around him.

"Yeah, we're just friends, just closer than most friends are" I chuckled as I brought one of my hands over his chest. I didn't care that people knew that I was gay, I thought most of them would assume it anyway. But after seeing that Roy didn't have a problem with it either, it gave me a warmth of confidence I've never felt before. The girl rushed over to her friends as they all squabbled and chattered to each other. Most of the guys around us gave looks of disgust and discomfort. Mr Jones walked up before entering the room and chuckled a bit, telling us to get inside as he shook his head in disbelief. We walked into class and sat down as Mr. Jones was still smirking joyfully. He began to explain in detail about the sex ed course and everything we would be covering. About half way through the class, a diagram of the male canine anatomy was put up on the projector. As we were labeling the different parts, a wolf and a cheetah were whispering to eachother.

"yeah I bet those fags enjoy this" one of them muttered. I didn't let it bother me as I tried to keep focus on my worksheet. We got through a few other species as Mr Jones asked us questions about certain details of each one. I raised my hand to answer a question and one of them loudly whispered.

"Of course he knows the answer, he's a cock expert." the wolf snickered. Mr. Jones shot them a look and they both went dead silent, but still had smiles on their faces. At this point I was getting irritated but kept calm as Mr. Jones began asking what the different components of semen were. I raised my hand again and Mr. Jones called on me to answer. I went down the list and heard them ranting again.

"I'm sure he's tasted it enough times to know" the cheetah joked. Mr. Jones turned to them before I let my irritation get the best of me.

"Don't be jealous that I'm actually getting action." I told them. A burst of laughter came from the room and the two of them gave me a dirty look. Mr. Jones tried to cover up his laugh before manging a serious tone and telling us to stop. Roy gave me a smile as the rest of the class went on smoothly. The ringing of the bell was a shell shock reminder of having to confront Steve in gym. My gut felt like it was being crushed as Roy and I walked to the gym room. I crept into the locker room to see that Steve had not yet arrived. I got dressed and sat as I waited to see him come in. Soon I saw him push the door open, an anxious and irritated look on his face. He looked at no one, and talked to no one as he put on his uniform. He sat down and stared at the floor, completely avoiding eye contact with anyone. However as I looked around the room, whispers and chuckles were abundant, and Steve seemed to wince at every one of them.

"So everyones saying that you and Roy are a fag couple." a bull across the room pointed out. Many of the guys in the room laughed, but Steve just drew into himself even further.

"We may be Fags but were not anything official" Roy announced nonchalantly. A lot of the guys scooted away from both Roy and I, a few of them even standing up and sitting as far away as possible. I looked across the room at Roy and he gave me a confident smile. My heart felt slightly eased by it and I glanced over at Steve again. He looked extremely tense, like he could run up and out of the room at any second. Coach called us out to the gym. I waited for Steve to come stand next to me in line, but saw he was on the opposite end of the line. And there was a seemingly growing gap between me and the others in line. And the case was the same for Roy as well. Coach went down the line taking role until he saw that Steve wasn't in the correct spot in line.

"Valentine, go get with your partner" he instructed.

"He's partnering with me" a wolf beside him said.

"Taft's here today isn't he?" he asked as he scanned over to me. "Yeah see he's right over there." Steve sat firm, looking down at the floor in frustration.

"And I'm partnering with Ramirez" a cheetah said gesturing to the doberman next to him.

"Your partner is Hope" He dictated, pointing at Roy.

"I'm not partnering with him, he's a fag" the wolf scowled, stepping even further away from Roy.

"I don't care what he is, your his partner, if you don't like it you can leave" he shouted, pointing at the door. The wolf growled as he shuffled to his proper place in line. "Valentine that means you too" he noted as he continued taking role. Steve stood there for a moment, before painfully walking over and standing silently next to me. I nervously looked up at him, but he still had the same cold expression on his face. As coach sent us out across the gym to do drills, I felt a tightness in my chest, but it wasn't grief, it was like an ember was slowly growing inside of me. As we were instructed to do partner stretched, Steve stood there and just did solo stretching, completely ignoring my existence. This irritated me even more, and the embers within me grew into wildfire.

"What's your problem?" I whispered.

"Don't talk to me, don't even look at me" he scowled in a low voice.

"Hey, you're the one who said you wouldn't get drunk, remember?" I shot back.

"I don't wanna talk about that, just forget we ever hung out that night." he whispered, a bit so desperation escaping in his tone. I didn't know what made me angrier, the fact that he was mad when he was the one who came onto me and he was oblivious to it, or the fact that he got drunk when he said he wouldn't, which was the cause of the problem in the first place.

"Hey, I'm the one who drove your drunk ass to my house to sober up, and you're the one who came onto me." I whispered angrily.

"Dude just calm down" he whispered, his face rapidly changing from anger, to desperation. "Look last night...was a mistake, I don't exactly know what happened, I wasn't myself and I'm sorry" he apologized. Mistake, the one word thats haunted me my entire life. It always seeped into my soul and stole every bit of happiness I ever gained. The rest of class that day I ignored him, even when he did try to talk to me. We went into the showers and Roy and I seemed to be the only ones on that wall, everyone else crowding into the showers that were as far away from us as possible. Roy looked over at me with a reassuring smile, and I smiled back, letting the warm water hide the tears streaming down my face.

As I walked to the lunchroom I noticed the taught feeling in my stomach had been replaced with a void. It left me so empty that it even took away my appetite. I sat alone at the table and thought about Steve, and that maybe it really had been a mistake to go with him that night. Suddenly I saw Damien sit down across from me, giving me a hesitant smile.

"Hey, I'm really sorry about the other day, I didn't mean to come off as some sort of sexual deviant or something" he explained. I scoffed a bit at his statement, given that he really had come off as a sexual deviant. "I really do legitimately care about you, I thought that maybe you would be into someone who was really confident, so I guess I was just trying to impress you." he chuckled as he put a warm paw over my hand. I was shocked that he was being so honest with me. "But I want to prove to you how much I want to be with you, so I was hoping maybe we could hang out together tonight?" he told me. I was amazed by the sincerity in the expression on his face, and the way he gently caressed my hand. I thought about it for moment, and looked up at him.

"I'd like that, but promise me something first" I told him.

"Of course" he smiled.

"Promise me, no matter what happens with this, that you'll never do anything to hurt me" I told him.

"I promise" he grinned, with an honest look in his eyes. I sighed in relief after he said that, and noticed his hand was holding mine tightly now. "Are you ok? When I walked up it looked awful, like someone had stabbed you In the heart" he asked. I was amazed that he could read me so easily, I never thought that someone who acted so deviantly at first would turn out to be so caring.

"Someone who I thought was my friend, ended up hurting me. I feel like he used me, and threw me away like nothing ever happened." I explained.

"Don't worry" he smiled as he wrapped his paws around my hand. "I'll never let anyone hurt you again." I felt a familiar warmth come over me, and the pain from void inside me became just a minor annoyance. I talked to Damien during lunch and got to know him better. He told me about his sister Claire, and how he wanted to take her to see the ocean one day. He also talked a bit about the wrestling team wanting him to quit basketball to join their team. Soon after the bell rang and we walked to class together. During class we were assigned a group project so Damien and I decided to Before class was over Damien asked is he could take me home.

"I would say yes, but Roy wanted to hang out after school today. But I could hang out after that" I told him.

"Alright" he smiled pulling his cell from his pocket "whats your cell number?"

"Oh, I don't have one" I admitted, a bit embarrassed. He reached into his bookbag and pulled out a small light blue flip phone and charger and handed them to me.

"Here take this one. It's just an extra in case I lose mine, but it still works and everything" he offered.

"Are you sure? I kinda feel weird about taking this" I noted.

"It's fine really, Ill put my number in there for you" he said as he grabbed the phone and entered some information. He put the phone in my hand and clasped both his paws around it, the warmth from them radiating into me. "If you ever need me for anything just call ok?" he said. I nodded as I took my hands from his, realizing that we were getting some looks from others around us. I put the phone in my pocket as we continued working. After the bell we walked outside and separated to go to our respective vehicles. As I waved goodbye I saw Roy approaching with an inquisitive look on his face.

"Were you just talking to Damien?" He asked in disbelief.

"Yeah, he apologized to me at lunch for being so forward with me, and we started talking and he's actually a pretty nice guy." I told him as we got in the car.

"Well just be careful, just because he's behaving now doesn't mean his intentions are parallel to his actions" He told me, a slight look of irritation on his face.

"What was that about?" I asked him, wondering why he was being so harsh.

"Nothing, I just don't him pushing you to do things you're not comfortable with, if you've seen the way he acts during a practice or game you'd know what I'm talking about" He smiled reassuringly. I thought about what he said while we drove home. Was Damien really as domineering as Roy made him out to be? After we arrived at Roys we started doing some homework together and I told him about Damien asking me out to dinner. About an hour later I felt a buzzing in my pocket. I pulled out the phone to see a message from Damien.

[Hey I'm coming to get you] He said.

"Thats Damien, I gotta go but I'll see you tomorrow" I told him as I started packing my things.

"Alright, just be careful ok?" He insisted.

"I will" I said as a walked out and started to text Damien back.

[Ok, where are we going?] I asked.

[You'll see ;)] He responded. I got home to find mom vacuuming the living room.

"Hey mom, I'm going to dinner with a friend tonight" I told her.

"Oh thats nice, is it that boy who was coming over last week? Steve wasn't it?" She asked. A bolt of pain struck my heart when she said that, having me force a smile to hide it.

"No not him, another friend, his name's Damien" I explained.

"Wow honey you're making friends left and right, I guess this neighborhood isn't as bad as I thought it would be." She smiled. I remembered when I first learned we were going to move here, and how nervous I was to be going to a high school with no humans whatsoever. But now I felt as if the people at school were to preoccupied with their own lives to worry about a human being in their school. I went upstairs to change and get ready, brushing my hair and teeth, getting more and more anxious as time went by. This was my first official date, and I didn't want to make a fool of myself. I went downstairs and heard a vehicle pull into the driveway. I looked out the window to see Damien stepping out of his SUV and walking up to the door. I opened the door and said bye to mom as I stepped outside to greet Damien.

"Hey are you ready to go?" Damien smiled.

"Yeah, but I have to admit I'm kinda nervous" I told him.

"Don't worry, I promise you'll have a great time" He grinned as we got into the car. I desperately tried not to fidget as we drove to our destination. After about 25 minutes we pulled up to Duetto, a romantic restaurant in town that mom and dad went to for their anniversary. I got out of the car and walked inside with him, slightly calmed by the cool breeze of the AC as we went in. Damien walked up to the waiter standing at the front and told him we had a reservation. The waiter scanned the list and saw the name and proceeded to take us to our table. The restaurant was covered in italian french and spanish decor, and in the corner of the dining area a quartet of violinists were playing. The waiter seated us and I was amazed by the atmosphere. They even had real roses sitting in a small glass vase on the table.

"Do you like it?" Damien asked.

"Its incredible, everything so nice" I replied as I observed the room further. A different waiter, a sleek and well trimmed raccoon, came and poured us some water and handed us our menus. I looked over it and decided what to order as the waiter brought us bread. We gave him our orders and Damien began to ask me a lot of questions about my childhood.

"So where you born?" He asked.

"I grew up in long island until I was about 2 or 3, then my parents adopted me and I moved to massachusetts. When I was 10 we moved again to pennsylvania, and just before this summer we moved down here." I explained.

"Oh I didn't know you were adopted, what're your parent like?" He asked, intently listening as I spoke.

"Well they're both really nice, mom can baby me sometimes though, and dad like to get on my back about working out or joining sports. He doesn't know that I'm gay, but mom does, so he still expects me to do all the things that most straight guys do" I told him.

"Yeah I remember when I told dad I was gay, he was actually pretty cool about it, my mom was kinda heated though. She was going on about how she wanted "real" grandkids, and that my sister might not be able to have them when she's older. But I'm not going to let her put that responsibility on me." He replied. We continued talking about our families until our food arrived. After that the conversation shifted to a more serious subject.

"Josh, I have to know, do I have a chance of being... your boyfriend?" He asked with a concerned look on his face.

"Well at first I though you were just trying to get into my pants, but now I see why you acted the way you did" I chuckled.

"What do you mean?" he asked

"Well you said you acted the way you did because you wanted to seem like a confident person, but... I feel like thats not the case. You have stresses in your life that cause uncertainty, and the image you give off shows it. I've heard people say you act withdrawn and don't like to talk to other people, but you seemed so eager to talk to me. I don't mean anything negative by it, but it's like you put on that facade for me because you didn't want me to see your weak points or your imperfections. It's like you wanted me to see you as a flawless person, but getting to know someone means taking the good and the bad." I explained. Damien sat silent for a moment, looking shocked at first before chuckling a bit.

"You're right, I can be selfish, obsessive, domineering, controlling, and I hate being around other people, besides you I mean. I can't stand how dumb the girls at school are, and how the boys bend to their every whim just for the slightest chance they'll get into their pants. I know that sounds judgmental, but the company of narrow minded people like them doesn't interest me in the slightest. When I first saw you in class, I was amazed by the expression you had. You always seem to be thinking so deeply, and the way you look so far into a person when you're talking to them is incredible. I admit that I was foolish to try and hide my flaws, but I truly want to get to know you better. You understand me so well even though I haven't known you for very long, so it's almost a bit frightening. I'm practically an open book to you, but no matter how hard I try I can't figure out what you're thinking or feeling. I want to prove to you that I can be a loving and caring person, and that I really do car about you." He replied. I felt like my heart was melting as he spoke. The fact he was being so honest with me made me feel like I really was special to him. We kept talking as we finished dinner and Damien paid before we walked out to the car. He drove us to the mall where he had already planned for us to see a movie. We walked into the building and Damien went up to the ticket counter. We then proceeded to the concession stand and got soda and popcorn and went to find seats. We walked into a darkened theatre and took our seats in an empty row near the back. As the previews went on I started to get chilly from the powerful AC. I hesitantly put my hand on top of Damien's, feeling him turn his palm upward and interlocking our fingers. Slowly the warmth from his hand soaked into mine, and soon enough I was unable to keep my attention on the screen. I kept looking at Damien, the way his ears perked up, his long smooth muzzle, his strong taut neck, they all seemed to be pulling me in. Damien looked over and saw I was staring at him and smiled. I slowly leaned into him as he leaned in as well, feeling his warm breath against my neck. I tilted my head and closed my eyes as I felt our lips connect. I brought my right hand up to the back of his head, and the left to his shoulder. I felt his paw come against the back of me head and bring me deeper into the kiss. Our tongues glided across each other, and I quietly moaned in pleasure of the feeling of his thin, warm, and smooth tongue exploring my mouth. He released from the kiss and began to lick and nibble on my neck, causing me to writhe in enjoyment. He came back up and kissed me on the lips before wrapping an arm around me and pulling me in. I let my head lay against his body as the movie came on. Soon enough the movie was over, and neither of us had moved an inch the entire time. We walked out into the lobby, my legs feeling wobbly from the intense experience. We walked out to the car and it had gotten dark outside. Damien drove back to my house and slowly pulled parallel to the curb. We sat there in silence for a moment as we looked at each other with matching smiles.

"I had a lot of fun tonight" I told him

"I'm glad; do you want me to walk you to your door?" He asked

"Thats ok, but I'll see you tomorrow" I told him as we kissed once more before I stepped out of the car. I walked up and opened my door and turned to wave goodbye as I went inside. My mom and dad were sitting on the couch watching TV before they asked me how dinner went.

"Did you have fun?" mom asked.

"Yeah" I said plainly, trying to force back a smile. I briskly walked upstairs before they could ask anymore questions. I brushed my teeth and changed into my night clothes before crawled contently into bed. I heard a buzzing noise coming from my desk and picked up my cell phone. I opened it to find a message from Damien.

[A nights too long to be without you <3] he said. My heart sprang up and I giggled to myself before sending him a message back.

[Dream about me and you wont have to wait <3] I replied.

[Only if you dream about me too <3] He wrote back.

[It's a date <3] I said before putting my phone back onto my desk. I slowly drifted into the darkness, the warmth I had felt slowly turning into a infinite void. I opened my eyes to see 3 figures standing in the blackness around me. I felt I cold emptiness overtaking me as they slowly approached. When they got close enough I finally recognized them. Roy Steve and Damien were all standing with fierce grins on their faces, their eyes glowing a deep crimson. Suddenly I felt 2 strong arms grab me from behind and looked to see Steve holding me tight, almost making it difficult to breath. I looked ahead of me and saw Damien and Roy approaching, having the same vicious smile as they chuckled menacingly. I felt something warm against my back and turned to see Steve's bulging cock rubbing and grinding into me. He pushed me onto the cold ground and grabbed my ass, teasing my hole with his slick pre coated member. Roy came up soon after and got on his knees and forced his cock into my mouth, the warm member pulsing heavily as he quickly slid it in and out. Damien knelt beside him, pumping his enormous cock and smearing the tip across my face. Steve began to press his cock firmly into my hole, painfully shoving it inside and beginning to thrust mercilessly. Roy began to thrust into my mouth against steves thrusts and began to buck his hips heavily, his cock forcing itself in and out of my throat. Steve leaned over me and grunted and heaved as he slammed my ass.

"Yeah, yeah, you like it don't you ya little bitch" he grunted.

"You wanna taste my cum you little whore?" Roy moaned as he continued to pound my throat.

"Yeah he's such a slut you know he wants it" Damien growled as he kept pumping his cock, shooting his precum on my face. Steve thrust began to quicken even further, his balls slapping loudly against me. His hips rammed harder and harder into me, forcing Roys cock all the way down, my nose buried in his crotch fur. Steve let out a roar as a flood of his seed came gushing into my hole, some of it gushing out of the sides. Roy soon began to follow suit and rammed me even harder until I felt his hot cum fill my throat and mouth, overflowing onto his beaming cock.

"Suck it clean bitch, and since you love cock so much, well let you clean steves cock too" he laughed. Steve came to to Roys side and they slid their dicks together, the cum dripping off of their members as they slid across one another.

"Mmm you want this shit don't you?" Steve smiled darkly, leering at me as he shoved his cum soaked cock in my mouth. He grabbed my head and shoved his length in my mouth, glazing my tounge with his warm seed. Roy fit his dick inside as well, the both of them moaning as they cleaned their cocks. I felt a set of paws firmly grab my hips behind me. Damien chuckled and rammed his cock into my sore hole, going all the way to the hilt. His thick canine member throbbed inside of me as he slowly worked up a pace as the other two were enjoying my mouth. Suddenly I was flipped over and Damien was holding my legs up in the air as he sneered down at me, snarling as he pumped my ass. Steve crawled over my body and shoved his cock into my mouth once more, taking advantage of the improved angle.

"Take another shot you little fuck" He grunted as he squeezed his girth into my throat. Roy then straddled my body inbetween the others, jacking his meat and showering me in his heavy flow of pre.

"You don't know what you want do you ya little bitch?" Steve breathed as he quickened his thrusts.

"He just wants cock, he doesn't care" Damien grinned as he pressed his forming knot against my hole.

"Yeah, he's a little slut and he knows it, heres some cream for ya" Roy grinned as he shot another load of cum onto me, heavy streams of it flying across my chest. Steve then let out another roar as his cock swelled and pumped warm bitter seed into me once more. I felt Damien start to shove his huge knot inside of me, stretching my hole, and Steve's cock preventing me from screaming. He got the entirety inside and fiercly bucked his hips, growling as he went into a frenzy. He forced one final thrust into me as he howled, the sound piercing the air around us. His large nuts unloaded inside of me, all of his cum kept inside by his knot. The warmth filled me further and further as his thrusts dissipated and he ripped his knot from my ass, a stream of his seed flowing from within me. Steve then pulled his cock from my throat and Roy stood up along with him. I sat on the cold ground as I looked over and saw them walking away, laughing maniacally as they went.

I bolted up, covered in sweat and hyperventilating as I looked around me. I observed my room and felt around me, assuring I wasn't still dreaming. I looked over at my alarm clock, seeing it was 2:37 in the morning. I held myself tightly as tears began to run down my cheeks. I know it had been a dream, but what they said had left a pain inside me. What if they were right? I messed around with Roy that one night, and then Steve. No, no I wasn't like that. Roy is my best friend, and that night with Steve was just a mistake. I sat there for a moment and thought about Damien, and how warm and safe I felt with him. I never really had friends when I was younger, so I wasn't sure how to interpret what happened with Roy. I had to make sure Roy didn't take that night the wrong way, and that it wouldn't get in the way of our friendship in the future. I laid down and tried to relax, soon falling back asleep. I just hoped that I would wake up to the morning sun, rather then in the tendrils of the darkness.