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It’s been a month since you had that molecular chirality fiasco with Loka. As much as the laxatives proved that she can absorb the nutrition from our food, Walter's test proved it conclusively. The biologist was also telling you that her cells and genes can revolutionize gene editing. However, he kept his reasons for why a secret. He told you he wanted to surprise you. Now you are really curious as to how her genes can revolutionize genetic engineering. You’ll find out soon enough though.

You and your associates have been studying Loka since she came to your world. Walter, you would say has gotten the better research data from the fuzz ball. Don’t fret, you got plenty of research on her behaviors and her CAT and MRI scans and such. But, he got all of the genetic stuff that is harder to refute than the observational research. You had to scrap some of your research because you found out that some of the observations that you’ve made were just bad assumptions. Sometimes you wished you went into the hard sciences rather than the soft sciences like sleep research. Damn your sleep improvement obsession. You’d wish you never had all of these sleeping disorders.

And as much as you are studying and researching Loka, she is honesty more like a big child roommate more than a research subject. Well at least her IQ score isn’t low. She’s a 110. AKA a midwit. She’s intelligent enough to parrot a lot of narratives she has heard but doesn’t have the intellectual thinking skills to deconstruct these narratives in question. But women in general just tend to be average on the bell curve of intelligence. Men can be average to. But tend to be either really dumb or really smart as well.

You gave her a phone a while ago and she always wants to do something that has gone mainstream. She saw all of these live streamers playing Among Us a while ago and then she started to use your computer a lot more. You had to get her her own computer because of her Among Us obsession. She even drew out her own crewsona or whatever the hell it is called. The game looked like an old PC game you used to play in middle school called Space Station 13 but much more dubbed down. Loka made you play it a bunch of times, but you could never really get into it. You tried getting her to play the last big game you played which was Metal Gear Solid V but she got all freaked out from the first mission with the hospital attack. She also said the game was too hard. Just imagine if you had her complete Ground Zeros and then have her get all terrified with the Paz bomb removal scene. Just how was she playing Skyrim without any issues a while ago you wonder? God only knows.

And to add to that, the monster still wants to watch all of these horror movies with you despite how much they scare her. She tells you that the movies are teaching her to be a scarier monster. But ever since she watched Alien with you a month ago, she always wants you to stay with her by her bedside before she goes to sleep. Usually, you will lay next to her on her bed until she falls asleep. Loka gets so scared when you don’t make her feel safe before bed. She just really knows how to pull on your heart strings. A lot of times when you help her sleep, she tends to get you in a grapple and causes you to get stuck in a state of mental paralysis and you get trapped in her sleeping embrace. The reason you get lock up like this is because you don’t want to wake her up. You have managed to go back to your room without waking her, but other times, you just stumble her out of her sleep and end up staying with her by her bedside until she falls back to sleep again. The times you manage to not wake her, she usually just sneaks into your bed to sleep with you anyway. She’ll always huddles up to your chest or back to spoon you as she nuzzles you with her soft fuzzy snout. And the times you don’t leave her sleeping embrace, you’ll sleeping alongside her.

You feel incredibly unprofessional when you sleep with her, but at the same time, you have to help her sleep. You are a sleep doctor after all. However, what makes you the most uncomfortable about the whole ordeal is that sleeping with her has done wonders for your own sleep. Every time she sleeps with you, you don’t have all of the typical discomforts you usually deal with with your insomnia, like feeling too hot or cold or needing to shift your position on the bed, etc, etc… Once you feel her warm body wrap around you, you feel really nice. Thoughts of these annoyances you deal with on a sleepless night basis just disappear and all you can think about is how relaxed she makes you. Sometimes She’ll lull you to sleep with sweet little nothings or with her soft lovely humming. You try to stop her indulgences but she always just ignores your rejections and presses ever harder on her soothings.

Then you have those inappropriate encounters where she hugs you from the front and she starts to grind her crotch against yours. The first time she did this, you knew immediately that she was conscious and aware of what she was doing and you threw her out of your room for that. You locked your door the next day over that incident too. But, after having trouble sleeping for like an hour, you walk out to use the bathroom to find Loka sleeping right in front of the bedroom door with only a pillow to make her head feel comfortable. This of course made you feel bad and so out of guilt, you pick up the sleeping monster, tucked her under the sheets of your bed and let her sleep with you once more. You even brought her in your own hug and kissed the sleeping monster on the forehead. As much as it pained you to kick her out of your room that day, you hate to admit it, but you can’t sleep without your cuddly teddy bear of a monster.

Anyhow, that wasn’t the only time she indulged herself in this lewd humping behavior. The other times she has humped you was when she was sleeping. Usually, it would happen in the middle of the night. You’ll wake up with a hard-on and you feel her body spooning up against yours as she goes to town with her pelvis grinding. You usually react to this by turning your body to the other side of her pelvis thrusting. Then she usually tires herself out by sleep humping your backside. And you can’t forget about how her tail would usually wrap around one of your legs when she’s doing this. That tail of hers has a python strangling grip when she gets sleep horny. You feel shameful about this, but one of those times she was grinding against your woody, you moved her on top of your groin and let her ride you out. As she was sleep humping you, you pressed your face against her neck fluff and hugged her back tightly as you let her make your dick get harder. Her movements against your hard member made you feel really good. Your dick could feel the crevice of her camel toe as she rubs her crotch against your concealed erection. Her sleep excited humping was making her panties so wet that you could feel her wetness soaking through your boxers. This caused your member to leak pre-cum in your own boxers in the process. After about a minute of her humping, your balls retracted and you came in your undergarments.

It felt really good and it made your eyes roll to the back of your skull. This kind of sensual touch by a girl you missed out on in your youth. When you were being a bookworm in college, you never got any of this or ever attempted to get it on with any lady. And still currently, you don’t get any because of the your workaholic professionalism. Until now that is.

But as much as she rubbed you off and pleasured you, she didn’t get her sleep orgasm out of her system yet. So, she continued to hump you out until you heard a loud gasp come out of her. Loka shivered right on top of you. She gets totally limped and relaxed after her excited wet dream was over. Warm drool was leaking out of her mouth and the monster had the most satisfied look on her sleepy face. You kissed her on her cheek, moved her back to her side of the bed and went back to sleep yourself.

Because of your work obsession, you never ever made the time to meet a nice girl and now you have a really nice girl living with you. However, the big problem was that she was not even the same species as you. If only she was a human girl. You would have already been seriously dating her if she was human and maybe even marry her too. No! NOOOO! Get it together man! Don’t let those moments of weakness compromise your doctor-patient relationship. You’re a professional damn it! Why haven’t you made her sleep on your own yet?

Mental tangent aside, besides all of that tension between you and Loka, she has been really hitting it off with Hans and his lab. You bring her to his lab every day to let her assist Hans in his recreation of the monster portal device. So far, the thing that they have completed from her own knowledge of the doors is the scream canister and a prototype scream extractor that hasn’t been tested yet. Loka in her university years learned how to build portal doors, scream canisters and scream extractors in her monster engineering classes.

She kept mentioning to you and Hans that she originally applied for scaring but dropped out of scaring because she wasn’t scary enough. Well, how could an adorable fluffball like herself be scary? No wonder she failed at scaring. She can’t even watch a horror movie without needing someone to sleep with her.

The way she describes the monsters in her world, only a child could truly be scared of them. The monsters sound exactly like a child’s worsts fear and if you know anything about children, they don’t have the best ideas of what true horror really is. Their fear is more primal, simplistic and immature. A real monster would be something like the xenomorph from alien or the cenobites from Hellraiser. Or if you want to be more realistic, the most horrifying thing realistically imaginable would a tyrannical government. The horrors a dystopian government could inflict could be immeasurable. It could even go into levels of abstract horror that are unimaginable. These are the kind of things that can keep real adults awake at night. But you yourself stay mostly apolitical because politics to you are stupid. Your research is more important to you than the political hacks at Washington. Having your research destroyed or being fired are your biggest nightmares. Nothing else matters besides that or so you thought before meeting Loka.

As much as you want to keep things professional with her, you still want her as your friend. You hope she can be the doorway for humanity and her species. So you can go to her world freely when you want to hang out with her or the other way around. She has become such a big part of your life now and you don’t want to lose her in some casual fashion. That’s probably your biggest fear now more than ever now.

But speaking of professionalism, she and Hans want to start testing out the scream extractor tonight when you conduct Stevie’s sleeping observation. Loka said that the monsters have a device that extracts scream to the monster world when a monster enters our world to scare children. Hans' plan is to use the extractor on our side to extract the scream energy to our side instead of the monster side. Once we have a successful version, we will be able to extract it ourselves. Besides making the prototype, which looks like a shotgun mic on steroids, Walter has also made a sensor that can observe and collect data on the whole scream extraction process. He wants to observe how the negative energy transfer occurs in real-time since scream is basically negative energy in reality. Hans' hypothesis is that the negative energy is being created from the psionic mental energy that is being emitted from the kid's fear. You’re still feel very skeptical about that theory and Walter has made his skepticism loud and clear to the physicist’s theory. But now we can test it on the field and see if his hypothesis is bunk or not.

It’s six in the afternoon, the start of your day and Loka’s. You and her woke up around this time because the two of you are going to stay up late with the others to observe the scream extraction test. To start your day, you were planning on making the monster some dinner but she opted for a late breakfast instead. She wanted you to make three slices of french toast for her with three over-easy eggs. You yourself weren’t in the sweet tooth mode right now, so while you made Loka her french toast and eggs, you decided to make yourself a nice omelet with pepper jack cheese, cheddar cheese with chopped peppers for your late breakfast. Once you set all of the food on the table, the monster wasted no time in eating up her food. When she eats her french toast, she likes it when you precut her toast into four strips so she can dip them into a little cup full of maple syrup. She likes eating it like those Eggo french toast sticks. You even bought her a pack of those a while ago, she said they were yucky and your french toast tasted so much better. Her words exactly. As much as the store brand french toast sticks weren’t to her liking, she did like the whole idea of french toast sticks. The little monster lady prefers eating her french toast like this because she refuses to use any of your silverware and also because she also tends to get a lot of the syrup in her fur if she doesn’t eat it like that. After all, she did say I was wasting good metal on eating. She really sticks to her guns on these kinds of things. Loka lathers the french toast in syrup as she carefully eats it without getting her fur all sticky. She’ll usually refill the syrup cup you give her after she finishes one slice of her french toast and repeats this with the other slices. She will even fill up the cup one more time and drink the maple syrup by itself. Her tongue will then lick up the remaining sugary syrup that’s left on the inside of the cup. The sweet tooth likes maple syrup so much that you have caught her drinking right out of the syrup jug. You had to then hide the syrup from her so she wouldn’t drink it all behind your back. With her syrup drinking, you might as well call her a Canadian. After she greedily ate up her french toast, she shoved the three eggs you made into her mouth and chewed them loudly and with satisfaction. Once she gulped down her eggs, she chugged down the cup of orange juice you gave her in one go. She lets out one loud belch as she lays back in her chair in total bliss. “Mmmmm. Tasty as always, Doc.” She says as she licks her chops and rubs her belly.

“Thank you, Loka.” You tell her as you continue to eat your omelet. Her eating habits should kill your appetite, but they don’t. You find it kind of cute actually… Even kind of hot too. If only she ate out your dick like tha… NO! Bad reptilian part of the brain! No, keep that lewd shit out! You hit your own head with your fist in the thought of that.

The monster raises her left eyebrow in confusion when she sees you strike your own head with your fist. “Is something wrong, Joe?” She asks with concern.

“No! No! Nothing is wrong.” You say with a blush. “I just forgot to do something is all.” You lie.

“Oh… Okay. May I ask what you forgot about?”

“I… Uh… Forgot to pay my credit card bills this month. In fact, I should do that on my phone right now.” You pull out your phone to “pay your bills”. You’re pretending to do this obviously, but you don’t want Loka to know about the conflicting feelings you’ve been having about her lately. Again at ad nauseam, you want to keep your relationship with her as professional as possible. You want that gud doctor-patient relationship.

“Okay, just please don’t hit yourself over that. I don’t like to see your hurting yourself over such silly things.”

“Look, I just don’t want a bad credit score, alright!” You say defensively as you resume eating your omelet.

The conversation at the dinner table pretty much dies after that. The monster is now just looking at her social media on her phone as you finish eating your omelet. Sometimes you’re concerned with her using social media because you fear she may expose herself to others. But, you told her that she can only lurk on social media or the feds are going to abduct her. So she is pretty careful on social media for that fear alone. You even check her social media to see if she posts any revealing stuff about herself or not. But when you do, you only find that she writes a few comments on the videos that she likes. However, she never posts pictures of herself or says anything about herself. Thank god she isn’t one of those food selfie people or any of those other internet narcissists.

After dinner (or you should say late breakfast), the little monster lady wants to watch another horror movie with you as a time-waster before the two of you leave to Stevie’s house. She found some obscure horror film that one of the movie guys she watches recommend her called Nightbreed. It was a really weird film, but you enjoyed what you were watching so far regardless. You and her didn’t have time to finish the movie because the two of you had to get ready to leave. As you’re about to get up, Loka scooches over to you on the couch to hug you as she rubs her face against your neck.

“You’re a lot like Aaron Boone, Doc.” She compliments.

“How So?” You reply as you wrap your arm around her waist. Giving her a firm squeeze.

“Well, Aaron decided to become the defender of the people of Midian… Even though they are a bunch of-”

“-Monsters?” You interrupt.

“Yeah… Monsters. Even though the monsters are viewed as lessers by other humans. Aaron went out of his way to protect them.” The monster looks kind of nervous now. She holds you tighter as she thinks about what to say next. “Joe? Do you think less of me because I’m a monster? Am I a walking horror show to you? Does… Does my appearance make you feel uncomfortable?”

You bring Loka to your lap and hug her with both arms. “You’re nothing like those monsters in the horror movies we watch. You may be jarring at first because of how alien you look, but once your appearance registers in the minds of the people you interact with, they won’t recognize you as a monster. You’ll be recognized as an alien for sure. But, people will view you as a rational sapient being like any other human on this planet. In fact, a lot of people would probably love the chance to talk to an alien like yourself. And Loka, don’t beat yourself up about your appearance. Your species may be monsters by name, but you are the cutest, most adorable monster they would’ve come across. No one is going to feel threatened by you. They may even like you. Hell, I’d know they would like you.” You hold her extra tight after you say those things to her and she holds you tighter in response.

She starts to cry tears of relief into your shirt. You let her cry herself out for a little bit. “Thanks… Sniff… Joe. I was always worried you thought of me like that. When I saw those horror movies I was terrified. I was thinking that you viewed me like those killer monsters in those movies. Whenever I watched those movies, I always was comparing myself to them. I’m… Sniff… I’m always thinking, is this what I’m supposed to be? A fear-inducing walking kill creature? At first, I wanted to watch these to be a better scarer, but if it’s at the cost of my cuteness and innocence. Then why would I want to be scary? Why would anyone want to be scary? I just want to be liked by people. To be loved by people. Why would cuteness be demonized by the other monsters like that? I like being cute and adorable. I don’t think of these things are bad anymore. I don’t want to be scary. I want you to loov…. No, I’m sorry… Sniff. I’m asking too much of you.” She gets out of your grasp and distances herself from you and the couch.

You get up from the couch to hug her again. “Don’t cry, Loka. Even if you can’t have that kind of relationship with me, we can always be good friends.”

She hugs you back. “You’re my best friend, Joe.” She cries into your shirt and tightens her grip on you.

You rub the back of her head to calm her down. “You’re mine too.” You hear footsteps outside your front door. It’s dark outside so you can’t really see the figure that is by the window right now. All you see is the silhouette of their body and a fedora hat. Jesus, is that Walter wearing a fedora or something? You told him and the others that you and Loka were going to meet them at Stevie’s house. “Loka get ready, I’m going to see what Walter wants.” You get out of her embrace and walk over to the door. “Walter, I told you to meet us at Steve’s house.” You say as you open the door. But, no one was at the door once you opened it. You even step out to see if anyone was walking away to find your front lawn to be completely barren of any visitors. Strange, were you’re eyes and ears playing tricks on you, or was some stranger at your door? Or was it something else? You don’t have time to dwell on this, you got a test to observe. After you’re done with your pondering, you close the door to get your keys, wallet and computer. Loka is ready and is standing by the front door waiting for you. She takes your hand and you walk her to your truck.

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You told Loka to stay in the truck until Steve and his mom are asleep. You’ll get her when everything is ready you told her. Right now though, you are just helping out the Dane and the others with his equipment. It’s nothing too difficult to set up. It just looks like too much for just sleep observation.

“Um, Dr. Shomoe, what is the need for all of this? I thought you already had all of the stuff you needed for Stevie’s sleep observation?” Mrs. O’Brian asks with confusion.

“It’s the new state of the are equipment Mrs. O’Brian. We can get even better data on your son’s sleeping patterns with this equipment.” You lie. You and your associates have honestly been really pushing it with Mrs. O’Brian. In fact, she was about to get rid of you a while ago until you offered your services for free, pay for sleeping medications for Stevie and pay her off every time you come in to perform your observations. You even had to up the amount of money you were giving her a while ago because she was getting so annoyed with you. Thankfully since she is a single mother, she is willing to take your money. “Here.” You pull your wallet out and give her three hundred dollars. “That’s for this session Mrs. O’Brian.” She takes your money, gives you an angry stare and walks off to her room. Once that exchange was over with, you head back to Stevie’s room to help the others set up the physicist’s stuff. As you are helping him set up the negative matter sensor, Stevie is just staring at you and your associates setting up the new equipment around his bed. He looks bothered by everything you are setting up. You notice that Stevie looks unsettled by all of this so you decide to go over to him to make him feel better about the awkwardness. “Hey, what’s the matter, little man?”

“Why do you have all of these gizmos, Doctor Shomoe?” He asks.

“It’s better tools to observe your sleep with. That’s all it’s for.”

“Doc, is all of this stuff here to observe the monster?”

Damn, this kid can really connect the dots. Time to tell him his imagination is playing tricks on him. “How many times do we have to go through this? Monsters aren’t real. This is all just a phase. You’ll grow out of this one day and you won’t have to deal with these imaginary monsters anymore. How about this, do you want me to buy you another toy from Amazon for this session?” Oh, I forgot to mention I’ve been bribing the kid too with stuff so I can get him to cooperate. Nevertheless, you can’t have him complaining to his mom too or that will give his mom more reason to get rid of you.

“I want that Pokemon game that came out on the Switch! Can you get me that, Doc?” He moves in his bed in excitement when hearing about your bribe.

As much as he can connect the dots, he has a light switch brain just like any other kid his age. You can quickly make them forget about something if you distract them with candy or presents. You open up the Amazon app on your phone and look for the game he wanted and buy it for him. Once you get that bribe out of the way, you get him tucked under the bed and apply the electrodes to his face as usual. He has gotten pretty used to this whole thing since you started all of this a month ago. He doesn’t fidget and move like the first few times he went under this. After you’re done applying the electrodes on his face, you and your associates say goodnight to the boy and walkout.

The kid has been falling asleep with those electrodes on his face for the last few visits. You’d think a boy like him would always have issues sleeping with them. But now you think he’ll have a hard time sleeping without them. You and Jane have made an observational time sheet on his monster. AKA Jennette, Loka’s dragon monster roommate. She usually comes and scares the kid Monday through Friday at five AM in the morning every week. You even asked Loka what her roommate was doing the Friday you found her and she told you that Jennette called out the day you whacked her on the back of her head. You waited thirty more minutes after Stevie has fallen asleep before you went back to your car to get Loka. Once you reach your truck, you open the passenger's door of your vehicle and see the monster has her seat leaning all the way back and is giggling to a video of the Youtubers she’s subscribed to.

“HAHAHAHA! Markiplier, you’re so funny!” It takes her a few seconds to notice you. Once she does, she turns towards you and smiles. “Oh, hey, Joe. Took you long enough, huh?” She says gleefully.

“I’m sorry if I locked you up here for too long. It’s just that… You know. We can’t let the kid in there see a real monster you know.”

“I know, I know. The twerp scares easily. He’s probably scared of his own shadow.” She giggles.

You offer your hand to her and lead her out of your truck and to the house. “Loka, let's set some guidelines for your visit here today. I don’t want you to go upstairs for any reason what so ever. You got that?”

“Yes, Doc.”

“Secondly, If you need to use the bathroom, you can use the downstairs bathroom. And if we know Stevie or his mom is coming down for any reason, you have to hide somewhere so they won’t find you?”

“Okay, Okay. Anything else?”

“Oh, Also don’t be too loud. I don’t want to attract their attention in any way. Keep it quiet. And I mean really quiet. Are we crystal?”

“Umm, sure I guess.” She doesn’t seem to understand what you mean by crystal, but whatever. She knows she needs to be silent.

She takes a seat next to you when you and her come back into the house. An hour later during the sleep observation, the monster wanted you to play Among Us with her on mobile. She even got Walter to play with you guys while you had your assistant and the Dane on observation duty. You had to put your hand over Loka’s big mouth a few times when you were playing so her excitement wouldn’t wake up Mrs. O’Brian or her kid.

During the last three hours, you switched with Jane to take her observation post while she played Among Us with Loka and Walter. But she only played for a few rounds before she got annoyed with their teasing. It’s funny how Loka still butts heads with your assistant while Walter is pretty buddy buddy with her. Jane never starts anything with her though. You think the monster antagonizes her because she views her as competition. For instance, one of the things Loka insults Jane about is her smell. She says the your assistant smells like a stinky reptile. And she even says this to your assistant’s face too. You even overheard her saying that to her when they were playing that mobile game. After all, Jane does have a thing for you. But as much as you rejected her advances, you let Loka get away with her advances on you way too much. Loka never mentioned this information to your assistant, but she’ll say things to your assistant to keep her away from you. The brunette generally has bad interactions with her because of these factors alone and as much as you scold Loka on her behavior towards your assistant, she still goes out of her way to provoke her.

The biologist on the other hand will usually play games with her or watch movies with her and so on whenever he is watching her. Usually, when he comes over, he’ll bring his gaming PC and start up one of his gaming emulators to play Nintendo and PlayStation games with her and you. You don’t usually play games because you’re a workaholic. And as much as Walter can be a workaholic like yourself, he knows when to lay back and relax. His R and R usually consists of his PC gaming and console emulation. He even rips his own game files from the games he owns too. When Loka plays these games with him, she usually plays Mario party with him or super smash bros. They’ll tend to gloat in each other's faces whenever they win a game and tease you when something bad happens to you in the game. Those moments with them are pretty fun.

Then the moment of truth came. At around four-thirty, Jennette poked her red scaley head out of Stevie’s closet and crouched walked with stealth towards the sleeping kid. Once you were all alerted to her presence, you, Loka and your associates stopped what they were doing and glued their eyes to the monitor that showed Stevie’s room. Usually, when the dragon monster is about to scare the kid, she’ll observe her surroundings and approach him from a particular side of his bed. Then, she’ll take a stalking pose towards the child with her hands in front of her, to make it look like she’s going to snatch up Stevie from his bed. The monster has even been observed pulling the blanket from the sleeping kid and then hissing loudly to scare the piss out of him and I mean that literally of course. Loka has commented that she really shouldn’t be doing that because she can possibly get human contamination on herself and then have to go through CDA decontamination. Which the little monster has described as unpleasant. This time, however, Jennette isn’t pulling a dicey maneuver like that. She’s taking the safe route this time with her scaring routine. She tippy-toes over to him and then moves her maw in front of his face. Making sure to bare her sharp teeth with slaver dripping from them to give her the appearance of a very hungry monster. Her breath breathes on the boy which causes him to wake up from his sleep and to have the drooling maw of the monster invading his field of view. The boy’s fight or flight response kicks in which causes him to freeze up and shake in place. Once the dragon monster catches whiff that he has noticed her, she opens her maw and hisses loud enough to deafen him in place but quietly enough that you or his mom couldn’t hear it from where you were in the house. Right on queue, the boy scream screams his lungs out and scaled monster scurries in retreat to the closet door.

Once his scream alerts his mom in her bedroom, you and your associates all tell Loka to hide somewhere in the living room you were all conducting the observation from. The monster hides in the closet of the living room. Right on the clock, Mrs. O’Brian runs over to her son’s room in a panic. You get off your ass to follow her. You already got the data that you needed. But, you’re also supposed to go up there to make sure none of the electrodes fell off of Stevie’s face or not. Once you open up the door to his room, you see his mom consoling him as he cries himself out of his fright on his mom’s shoulder. The mother notices you and gives you a stern look. You just stare at the scene awkwardly. “I’ll come back in a few minutes.” You say as you walk back downstairs. A few minutes later he tires himself out and you go back up to his room to correct any misplaced electrodes. Stevie’s sleep goes uninterrupted for the rest of the morning as you, Loka and your associates are mulling over the data that you got from the observation.

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A day later, you’re examining the sleep data you have gathered from your patient’s sleep. You have brought him in a few times to the university to run an MRI and CAT scan to find that his brain is looking more like an insomniac's brain. His brain waves are even showing the same patterns as one too. This could be because the monster is messing with sleep. This in turn could also be messing with his circadian rhythm too. But, the question is whether the scream extraction process is making this worse or not? You take another look at Jennette’s drawing as you are examining your notes and data. Then a long lost memory came back to you. A scribble of a different monster festers in your head. You grab your Ipad to doodle out what you are thinking of with your Ipencil. After a few minutes of doodling, it is completed. It’s better than Loka’s crewsona drawing but it’s no Mona Lisa either. It looks like a taller, skinner Loka, but gray with yellow strips, curved black horns shaped like goat horns but smooth in texture, red eyes with slits, ginger red hair with a ginger red mane going all the way down to its tail, Loka like ears and bigger tits with the nipples being covered by fur. You’ve seen this before? Why is this monster escaping your mental grasp? Your phone starts to ring as you are trying to recall this lost memory. It’s your mother. You pick up the call. “Hi, mom. How are you doing today?”

“I’m doing fine, Joey. How are things with you? Have you been sleeping any better?” She asks.

“Things are going fine for me. I’m just going through some notes on my patient and yeah, my sleep has been doing a lot better lately. But I will say, as much as I have been sleeping better, my daily routine is still wonky. I work at night mostly and sleep during the day, but sleep is fine though.”

“Really?” She asks with awe. “You’ve always had the worst sleep ever since you were little. What have you been doing to get better sleep for yourself?”

Oh god! You really don’t want to explain to your own mom about your sleep therapeutic cuddle monster that you sleep every night with. Plus, you don’t want her to get any hints on your feels for her as of recent. Time to lie. “I got myself a better mattress and pillow. It has that nice memory foam in it to help me sleep better. One of the biggest problems I have when I sleep is getting comfortable. I feel immediately more relaxed once I sleep on it. and with the aid of my medications, my sleep becomes effortless after that.”

“Oh, that’s really good to hear. I know we got you those special sleeping mattresses too when your sleep was getting really bad.”

“I know. I know. I just hate how I had you guys spend so much on me and my sleeping problems.”

“It’s nothing to worry about, Joey. We want what’s best for you after all. And I remember when your sleeping problems really started to get bad. It was when you were five, we heard you scream in your room from some night terrors you were having. I had to soothe you in your bed when you were having those terror attacks. You always had this nightmare with this monster every night. It made me so sad seeing you weep every night. I’m glad those bad memories have been put behind us.” She said with sadness.

Wait! Monster! I don’t remember that. I know when I was little I also had sleep anxiety but I never remembered any monster haunting me. I remember having nightmares about other things. But not about monsters. “Mom, I don’t remember being afraid of any monster?”

“Well, I do, Joey. and so does your dad. You even drew pictures of it too.”

Drew pictures. Oh gawd, no! Could it be… “Uh, mom, do you have any of those pictures?”

“Of what? The monster you saw as a kid?”

“Yeah, Mom! The monster!” You say with impatience.

“Calm down, mister. Don’t give me that tone of voice. I think I do have a few of your drawings in my photo album. I just need to find it. Just give me a few minutes.”

You’re on the phone still, just listening to her shuffling through stuff and giggling. She’s probably taking her time looking through those photos. Then after ten minutes, she confirms to you that she has found one of your monster drawings. “Joey, I found it. Do you want me to take a picture of it?”

“YES! YES! Please send me the picture!”

She takes the picture and you hear your phone makes a ping to let you know you have received a new message. You look at the picture she has just sent you to find it looks like the monster you just drew up on your Ipad. You sit there in shock. It was always assumed that your sleeping disorder was because of genetics. After all, your family has some bad sleeping problems too. However, you have the worst sleep compared to the rest of them. But were they too being scared by monsters at one point in their lives? That’s the big question now. Are the reported sleeping disorders that people have a by-product of their environment, AKA the monster scaring them, or are these disorders a byproduct of their genes? Do remember, sleeping patterns have been radically altered by Tomas Edison when he his company single-handedly changed the sleeping schedule for everyone in the first world. To the fact that the industrial revolution has been removing evolutionary selective pressures in the first world and allowing people to live who would have died without the advances of the industrial revolution. Allowing for people who are dysgenic to spread their genes with the evolutionary fit of the gene pool. This overtime will cause heavy mutational load in the population that will lead to evolutionary unfit people in the population. The mouse utopia experiment is the best example of this. The last generation of the mice in that experiment were referred to as the beautiful ones. That generation of mice was the most mutated. They only cared about their own grooming and refused to breed with the other female mice. Over time, the mice became more and more dysgenic that they refused to breed with each other. This in turn leads to the entire mouse colony to die. This same phenomenon is also affecting people today as well. This is referred to as social epistasis. Hikikomoris would be a human comparative example of the beautiful ones. Is this nature or nurture? Environment or genes? Monsters or social epistasis? Or all of these?

“Joey, are you still there?” Your mom asks with concern.

Oh, you zoned out there for a bit. Leaving your mom to only hear silence from your own end. “Sorry, I’m just pondering on something.” You just want to scream in rage right now. Your sleep disorder may have been caused or worsened by the monsters. And they may have done the same thing to other sleep-deprived people like yourself. Jane was right, they are physic vampires. “Mom, I have to go now.”

“Wait, Joey, did you still want us to visit you on the fourth of July?”

Hmm. You totally forgot about your family meet up. Your parents would always stay in your guest room during the week of the fourth of July to hang out with you. But, Loka is staying there as of right now. It was a yearly occasion since you moved out of your parent's house ten years ago to get an education and to live off the fruits of your research. “I don’t think we can do it this year, mom. My research as of late has been consuming more and more of my time. I’m not gonna be able to make time for our family gathering. I’m sorry.” You hang up soon after you tell her that. A bit of shame wells up in you for canceling out a family outing like that. But rage quickly takes its place as you tear up the picture of Jennette on your desk. Damn those monsters. Fucking up my sleep over their preventable energy crisis. Why use scream of all things? They live on a planet just like Earth. Why aren’t they using their planet's resources for their energy needs?

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Sometime later after you have gone through all of the data on your patients and other patients alike, you have concluded that the scream extraction process causes brain alterations in people who undergo the procedure. The process can even cause neurological changes that contribute to mental disorders. Through epigenetic triggers, the process can make mental disorders worse for people who are already predisposed to these disorders or create these disorders in people who have never had these disorders in their family history. Stevie’s family for instance has no records of insomnia or any other sleeping disorder. Now if we stop the process now, it may reverse the effects. Or enough damage has occurred in his brain to the point where he will need medication to sleep for the rest of his life. This can go so many ways. But for one thing, you want the monster to stop scaring your patient at once. You want to still make first contact with the monsters, but going all commando on them in a boy’s bedroom does not make for good diplomatic relations. Loka did say that the monsters are afraid of touching kids because of contamination. So you probably have to get Stevie to scare off Jennette on his own. That’s the only way you can help Stevie at this point.

Once you get home you are greeted by the little monster.

“Welcome back, Joe,” She says as she is walking towards you in a welcoming hug. However, you’re still really mad right now from the conclusions you have made and don’t want any monster to hug you right now. So you stop Loka in her place from hugging you with your right hand. “Hey, is something wrong?” She asks with concern.

“Did you know that the scream extraction causes sleeping and mental disorders?” You ask sternly.

“Wait, what?”

You push Loka with both hands this time. She doesn’t trip from the push but she’s thrown off balance for a second because of it. “Did you know of it’s side effects, monster!” You shout. Her eyes begin to water a little bit.

“wait, I… I… I told you the process is completely safe.” She says with fright.

You push her again, harder this time. She falls on her bottom as you look down on her with contempt while she stares back at you with tears in her eyes. “Stop lying! I have enough data from patients to know that they had monsters scaring them before their sleeping disorders started to get really bad!” You yell out to her. “And Stevie for instance, has no family history of sleeping disorders. And the data we collected from him the other day shows extreme changes occurring in the brain when the scream extraction process was occurring. So, I’m gonna ask again, monster! Did you know about it’s side effects or not!”

The monster starts breaking down in tears right there and then. “No… Sniff… No, I didn’t know that. Joe, I was… Sniff… I was always told it didn’t cause any issues to the kids.” She cries out.

“Liar!!! You yell out at her as you’re about to slap her across the face. She covers her face to prepare herself for your blow, but guilt fills up in your gut. Causing you to withdraw from your slap. You smack your face with both of your hands and yell into them in frustration. Tears well out of your own eyes when you begin to cry into your own hands. How could you do that to Loka? After many years of dealing with your sleeping disorder, with very little success in curing it, you have finally reached your boiling point. But unfortunately, you let out your frustrations on the one person that mattered the most to you. “I’m so sorry.” You speed walk to your bedroom to separate yourself from the hurt monster. Right, when you are about to close the door, she chases right after you with tears running down her face.

“Wait!” She yells out to you.

However, you shut her out of your room and lock her out. You’re afraid that you’re going to hurt her again. You were so close to slapping her across her face even though she didn’t know anything about the side effects of the scream extraction. But even after your outburst there, she’s banging on the door, begging you to let her in to make you feel better. You don’t deserve that after that outburst of yours.

“Joe, please let me in. Please. I want to help you… Did you find out a monster scared you as a… Sniff... As a kid, le… Let me talk to you.” She says to you from behind the door.

You toss your belonging on the floor so you can lay on top of your bed in a fetal position to weep into your hands quietly for the next hour or so while Loka continues to bang, moan and cry out to you to let her in. “Joe, please… Sniff… Let me help you. I don’t hate you for what you did… It was a moment of weakness… You’re the kindest person that I know… Sniff… I know you care for others… I know you’re a patient man… I know you really care for me… So please. Let me help you… Let me make you feel better… I love you, Joe… I really love you… I want what's best for you. I want to make you feel better… I want you to know I’ll forgive you and I hope you can also forgive me for any problems I may have caused you today… Sniff.” She passionately whimpers out to you despite having so much congestion when she cries.

Her words make you rise off of your mattress to open the door. You lower yourself to her so you can scoop her up into your arms, she hugs you in return. “You haven’t caused me any problems, Loka. You never have.” You say to her. She rests her face under your chin to cry herself out onto your neck. With her in your arms, you walk yourself and her to your bed to lick each others wounds. As much as you were quietly sulking on your bed before you let the sniffling monster in, you are now trying to keep your composure around her. You rub your face against her ginger hair to wipe out any remaining tears off of your face. After some time, you’ve calmed down much better than she has. You rub her back as she cries on you. “Did I really hurt you that badly, little lady?” You ask with concern. She pulls herself away from your neck to look you straight in your eyes. Tears have soaked her face fur and are still pouring out of her eyes. “Joe… Is what you said about scream true?” She sobs out.

“Yes. I’m positive that it’s true. It hurts kids when it is extracted from them.”

“Oh my god!… What have I done!… I work for people who hurt children on a daily basis…Sniff...” She starts to hyperventilate. “Ahhhh!… I really am a monster.” She yells out as she cries uncontrollably when given that information. The sad monster cries on your shoulder next. You hold her tighter and rub the back of her neck as she sobs herself out. “You… Sniff... must really hate me now… Do you hate me, Joe?”

You get a hold of her face with both hands to make her have direct eye contact with you again. Her eyes look away from you with shame as they continue to water because of her guilt. “Loka!” You say with reassurance. “Loka, don’t feel ashamed. Look into my eyes.” She gives you the eye contact you’ve asked for. “I don’t hate you. You didn’t know what the scream extraction was doing to those kids. I don’t want you to feel guilty about this. You didn’t know.” You kiss her on the forehead and then rest your forehead against hers. She closes her eyes to your embrace as you and her lay on the bed. The two of you stay like this for quite some time.

Loka calms herself after a few minutes and takes deep breathes in and out. “Can I ask you a question?” She asks quietly.

“Hmmm… Sure.”

“Did a monster scare you as a child?”

You roll on your back, look up in the ceiling and moan. “Yeah, one did scare me. I just remembered it when I was looking over my notes. I even drew out the monster on my Ipad too.”

She wraps an arm around your chest and nuzzles her face into your neck. “Can I see it? I may be able to recognize who it is.” She asks.

You get off of the bed to grab your Ipad out of your bag. Once you got it, you lay back down on the bed next to her again. She leans up against you to watch your Ipad screen. “Found it. Here look.” Her eyes widen when seeing your sketch. The monster gasps out loud and moves away from you. “What wrong?” She’s suspiciously silent about the monster sketch you’ve shown her. Her hands cover her mouth as you continue to stare her down for an answer. “Do you know who this monster is?”

A loud gulp can be heard from her throat. She takes a deep breath out as she is about to speak. “Well…” She says as she fiddles with her fingers nervously. “The monster in the… I meant, the monster you sketch out is...” She takes another deep breath. “She’s my mom...” Loka looks very anxious now. Her hands are now just scratching itches under her clothes that are probably all in her head.

You look at the photo again and you really do see the resemblance. “Loka, did you want to be a scarer because your mom was one?”

“Well… Yeah… She was such an inspiration to me. But I’m just dreading the possibility of you meeting her now though. I was hoping that you’d one day meet my parents and be good friends with them. Now… I don’t know if that would work out very well...”

Honestly, If you ever met her mom, you would feel very tempted to punch her in the face or something. But the more you think about the monster mom, you remembered how you got rid of her. How you got her to stop scaring you. “You want to know how I stopped your mom from scaring me?”

“Sure. How did you do it?” She asks with nervous curiosity.

“Well, I’d remembered that I always referred to her as the yellow jacket. Because of her yellow and dark gray color. So one day, I saw my dad killing a hornet's nest on our porch with a can of bug spray. I watched him as he killed the entire nest with the spray. And I thought, why not use hornet begone to get rid of my yellow jacket monster. So, I grabbed the can from the garage and kept it by my bed. When my parents put me to sleep, I pretended that I fell asleep and waited the entire night for your mom to come scare me. Once I heard her open my closet door, I grabbed the hornet spray and played possum. I had an eye slightly opened as I waited for her to get closer to me. Once she was right above me, I pulled up my sheets and sprayed her in the face with the hornet spray. I emptied the entire can on her too and the room got all stunk up because of it. She yelled as the spray burned her eyes and she retreated clumsily back into the closet to get away from me. My parents rushed into my room when they heard her yell. I told them I got rid of the monster. And you know, they didn’t believe me and had me sleeping in their room until the smell was all vented out.”

Loka was left in silence after hearing your story. She looked a little angry with your story. But at the same time, she looks just guilty about it too. “I remember when that happened. You remember how I told you that the CDA’s decontamination procedure is pretty gnarly, right?”

“Yeah.”

“Well, she went through a bunch of decontamination procedures when that happened. They had to shave off all of her fur, they poured some sanitation chemical all over her and she had to get her eyes washed out really good too. She had to be moved off-site after that whole incident with the bug spray you sprayed her with. The CDA quarantined her for about a week. and she couldn’t see out of her right eye after you sprayed her too. I’m kind of angry you did that to her, but at the same time. She was giving you long term sleeping issues and she basically had it coming. She never scared after that again. My mom ended up just working with the fire department with my dad. He wasn’t a natural scarer like my mom, but he had a natural knack for fire fighting because he was fireproof.”

“And that’s how you’re fireproof, right?” You say to her as you wrap your arm around her waist and bring her closer to you.

She laughs in your embrace. “Yep, yep! You may have done a number to my mom, but she and my dad are still wonderful people.”

“What are your parent’s names may I ask?”

“Well, my mom is named Nancy and my dad is named Roy. What are your parent’s names, Joe?”

“My mom’s name is Linda and my dad’s name is Albert.”

“What did your parents do? Are they also doctors?”

“No, No, they’re smart but they’re not academically smart like me. My mom and my dad both work in advertising. They made a lot of money off of it. They even had their own studio in their house for all of their work. I will say though, I wouldn’t be a doctor if I didn’t have their money to support me.”

“You’re parents sound like they have a lot of money. I’m shocked they also didn’t buy you a mansion as well. Are you poorer than them?”

“I make a lot of money. I just don’t go out of my way to spend it all the time. I get a lot from the patients I work with and I especially get a lot from the pharmaceutical companies I work with. In fact, the medications I take are medications I help develop.”

“Wait! So you can buy me more stuff then?” She asks with excitement.

“No, no, don’t get ahead of yourself. I don’t want you to get all greedy on me. You don’t just like me for my money right?” You tease accusingly.

The monster jumps on top of you with her crotch pressing against yours, with her legs wrapped around your butt, her body presses against your belly and chest as she hugs you tightly. All the while her tail is constricting around your left leg. She presses her snout against the right side of your face to breathe in your aroma. “Mmmmm… Joe, you have it all wrong. I don’t love you for your money.” She takes another whiff of you. “One of my favorite things about you is your smell. I find it quite relaxing.” You start to get a hard-on in your pants from all of this. Loka notices and starts grinding her crotch against your erection. You moan in response to her crotch rubbing your member. “I also find your smell to be… Very hot...” She says sensually to you. Her tongue comes out of her mouth to lick right underneath your right eye. “Those tears, they made your cute face all dirty.” She takes another drawn out lick in the same area. “They even messed up your smell. They need to be licked up by me! Cutesy cutie Loka moca wuv you!” That doesn’t really rhyme. But it got the point across. You really shouldn’t allow her to do this, but it feels so nice. It feels really good. The tightness she is enveloping you in feels comfy and warm. Her tongue lathering feels strangely pleasant. You really like the texture of her tongue as it laps at your face. It tickles a little bit, but it has a soft moist feeling to it. Her breath smells nice too surprisingly. Oh boy, you can’t also forget about her hip grinding. Your dick feels so good right now. And all of her squeezing and rubbing and licking and warmth make it all the more arousing. You hug her tighter in response to her hospitality. “I also… Mmmm. I also like how you look. I think you look like a hottie. And I love you for who you are.” She takes another lick off of your face. “You’re my favorite human, doctor Joe.” Her tongue then sneaks its way into your mouth and the horny monster entraps you into a deep kiss. Your eyes light up in response to this. But instead of fighting back, you embrace it and get your tongue past her lips too. As the two of you are tongue wrestling, Loka with the help of her tail’s constriction and her hip grinding is pulling down your pants to free your rock-hard erection. You don’t notice it at first, but through the prehensility of her tail, she freed your erection from your underwear too. She was really careful as to not press too hard on your dick for you to notice your dick is free from its fabric confinement. But in her horniness, she tries to pull down her shorts all the way to hilt you as she’s sucking off your face. But you buck up from the pleasure and prod your member into her vaginal folds. She immediately breaks from her kiss and gasps out loud while you’re in absolute shock. The reasonable part of your brain wakes you up from your inappropriate pleasure time and making you push Loka off of you in the process. You get off of the bed and stair down at a pants-less Loka who is laying on her back with her legs splayed. Her sex is gaping open with her legs as well. Signaling an invitation for you to fuck her brains out. Looking down, you finally notice that your erect member is sticking out of your pants. You hide your dick from sight and blush.

“I uhhhhh… I got to make dinner for us.” You sprint out of your bedroom to make dinner and you swear you heard Loka say “so close” as you made your exit.

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Your mind is going a mile a minute right now as you cook dinner. Why didn’t you scold her over her sexual deviancy earlier? You’re a professional, you shouldn’t be allowing yourself to be seduced by her like this. Why are you even attracted to her in the first place? She’s not even the same species as you and you’re getting a throbbing hard on for her. But why!? What makes her so attractive to you? You season the two steaks you are preparing with olive oil and salt and pepper. Once the oil is lathered on and the seasonings are sprinkled on the two mouth watering ribeyes, you toss the steaks on your preheated iron skillet and watch them sizzle on the hot pan. As you toss in the thyme and garlic into the pan, you’re in very deep thought. Deep thoughts about a particular green fuzzy monster that is living with you currently. In particular, her body and her character. What about these characteristics that makes her attractive to you? Then, you put the pan in the oven and set the timer for seven minutes.

Now that that’s out of the way, your minds wonders to the questions at hand, how does that fuzzy body of hers turn you on? And what makes her personality so appealing to you?

Well, since she’s covered in fur and all, her hugs and cuddles feel really comfy and pleasant. She’s like one big soft warm blanket that wraps around you and tucks you to bed. That in particular is what makes her great for your sleep. You also like the patterns to her fur and the lovely red hair that adorns her head. The colors are very pleasing to your eyes. Those breast of hers aren’t the biggest, but when she spoons you in your bed, you just love the feeling of those soft mounds pressing against you. Especially when you are sleeping on your side, it feels heavenly. You like the feeling that someone is there by your bedside. Also, you can’t forget about that big thick tail of hers either. That red little feather duster at the end of her tail can be hypnotic when she swishes that thing back and forth. Just as hypnotic as a pendulum moving side to side. That tail of hers gets even better when it wraps around you like a third arm and usually it’ll coil around your waist or your legs lovingly.

Those are things you like about her physically, but what about her personality? What do you like about that though? Why is her character so charming to you?

For starters, that sweet innocence to her is always heartwarming to your own soul. In fact, you’ve never even heard her say a swear to you. Not even once. Not even when you yelled at her and you pushed her. Not even then did she curse at you. That’s how innocent she is. And despite the fact that she’s into horror movies, she’s still as decent and pure of heart as you would expect. The monster is also very loving to you too. She’ll soothe you to sleep with her sweet nothings when she’s in bed with you. It’s nice white noise to your ears and makes your eyes heavy with sleep every time you hear her sweet, sweet soothings. You also can’t forget how affectionate she can get with you too. The fuzzy girl will always wrap herself around you, making you feel loved and wanted. You’ve never had anyone make you feel that way before and when she gave you that, you just didn’t have the will to tell her to stop, even though you should have.

The monster lady can also scare easily too. Some would probably say this is a red flag. Especially since she won’t sleep without you by her bed side, revealing to you how needy she can get. You’re like a father who wants to go back to his own bed, but can’t because his daughter is too scared to sleep alone at night due to the supposed monster the lives under her bed. It’s kind of ironic that you would be the one to help a scared monster with her own bedtime monsters. You’d expect the human to be the one afraid of the monsters, not the other way around. You even had to get her a night light for her room when she slept there by herself. However though, taking care of her at her moment of weakness when she gets like that brings out a certain nurturing side to you. One that a parent might have for their own child. Or one that a lover may have for the ones that they hold dearest to them. Her happiness and comfort mean that much to you. You don’t understand why, but to neglect her for any reason, even over little things, can make you feel guilt ridden.

Loka does have her dark side though. The only time you’ve ever seen her act not so innocent is when it comes to interacting with your assistant. But that’s just her thinking Jane is her romantic competitor. Women in generally can get very vicious with each other when they are competing for a man’s attention. Loka however, could be meaner about it. If anything, her remarks towards your assistant are very tame compared to a lot of other modern mean girls that you’ve encountered in your youth. Still though, it’s just not appropriate, even from her.

Besides her mean side, you hate to see her when she gets negative with herself. Earlier today and tonight for instance really showed that to you. She hates being a monster and she hates herself for it too. Tonight’s revelation about the scream extractor’s side effects probably beaten down more of her self confidence as well. You just want her to feel good about herself. She gives such a positive aura when she’s not down in the dumps about herself. You always try to comfort her when she’s at her most saddest.

All and all, that’s the only few weaknesses that you can think of at the moment. However, her positives outweigh her negatives. Even when she’s at her worst, your uplifting words always brings back her bright side. And bringing back that hope into her heart always warms your own heart.

All of this however, are reasons to also question yourself and your professionalism. You shouldn’t be overly attaching yourself so personally to your research subject. Especially someone who is an alien of a race of beings that you have just encountered. You like the time you spend with Loka, but maybe it’s time to make it more professional. You’re stirring up emotions into her that can’t realistically be held up. Having a romantic relationship with her is a pipe dream, a fantasy. It could never work out and it’ll probably end in heart break. That heart break would probably be more devastating for her than it would be for you. You’ve haven’t gone that far into all of this relationship teasing with her and it would probably be better for her if you just ended it now. Once she gets back to her home, she can find a nice monster that she can marry. You can’t give her what she wants, a family. You can never give her that, ever. She might as well have that with someone who can give her what she wants.

The timer on the oven interrupts your thoughts. Seven minutes can go by fast when you’re thinking real hard. You walk back to the over, take out the two ribeye steaks and put both steaks on their own plates. One for you and one for Loka. You set the food on the table and then walk over to Loka’s room to get her for dinner.

While you’re walking to her room, you hear a lot of moans coming from behind her door. A lot of lewd moans to be exact. When you were pulling out your food and ingredients for dinner earlier, you did heard her toe claws tapping against the floor when she went into her room and a slam to her door soon followed afterward. You’d figured she went back to her room to sulk bitterly at the miss opportunity of coitus that she wanted from you. But, now you’re beginning to think that she wanted to rub herself off from the sexual urges that riled up inside of her earlier. She probably really liked your hardened head prodding her sexual folds earlier. She probably also wanted to hold that feeling of your erection about to take that forbidden plunge into her nether regions. She’s probably reveling in these feelings and desires right now. The sweet innocence that you were thinking about earlier evolved into naughtiness.

You’re about to knock on her door and you notice that the door is open just very slightly. A part of you is fighting to open the door and then the decency part of you is fighting over your motor controls to knock on her door, to let her know that dinner is ready. Yet, your second head stood up loud and clear and made a very noticeable tent in your pants. It commanded you to open the door a little bit more, just to see her lewd form pleasuring herself in all her glory.

So, you creak open the door quietly and peek very carefully through the opening of the door. You see the monster is on her back and has her legs splayed open on her bed as she fingers herself. She lays on her back as she moans her pleasure into the air. Her tongue is even lolled out of her mouth while she’s drooling from the ecstasy of all of the sensations that she is experiencing right now. “Joe!” She moans out. Unaware of the fact that you are peeping at her right now. “Go deep, Joe… Pleassssse… Cum inside of me… Please… Do it, please...” She then shoves her own tail into her leaking folds, using both of her hands to shove in her long appendage. Her thick green tail goes very deep inside of her and I mean really deep. It’s so deep inside of her, her belly is getting a little bit swollen from her prehensile tail coiling and wiggling about inside of her womb. She’s almost got her whole tail inside of her too. Her hands start to rub and caress her tail filled belly. “I want his child in me so badly.” The monster then does the impossible, she then bends herself down towards her leaking, tail penetrated hole and starts to eat herself out. She looks like a big tangled pretzel in that position. Her sexual groans get louder and then she unravels herself in a quick squish motion. Her tail coils out of her hole like a wet noodle and slaps wetly against the sheets, she lays there in her bed in total exhaustion. Loud pants can be heard from her as she tries to regain her composure. Her hands grab for her pillow and she hugs it and nuzzles it. “I love you so much, Joe. I’d just wished you love me in return.” She whispers to her pillow. The monster sits there quietly, hugging her pillow and imagining that’s you in her arms. Probably imagining you embracing her back with care and compassion.

You give her some time to herself as you’re watching outside. Many different things are scrambling around in your head right now. Little Joe downstairs wants to run in there and make her sexual and romantic fantasies come true. But big and logical Joe upstairs thinks it would be better to end this before her and your feelings get more intense for each other. In the end, your brain wins the internal debate inside of yourself and thinks it would be better to keep her relationship on a professional level.

Your carefully close the door all the way, then your hand goes into a fist and you knock on her door, loud enough to get her attention. The monster gasps from the other side in panic.

“Joe, what is it?!” You remain silent behind the door. “Joe, is something wrong?”

You still remain silent for a few long seconds. “Dinner is ready.” You say in a robotic monotone.

Sniffs from the monster can be heard from the other side of the door. “Mmmmm… That smells really good, doc. Give me a few minutes to freshen up.” She says cheerfully.

You walk back to the kitchen in a haze, with your still hard and proud erection making a very noticeable tent in your pants still. Jesus, it’s so erect, a NSA spy satellite can see how horny you are. Jesus Christ and all that is holy, you need to take your mind off of that monster. You begin to dig into your own steak. Maybe hunger will make you forget about her. For the time being that is.

A few minutes later, Loka nonchalant walks to the kitchen table, humming happily with a big grin on her face. She jumps back in her seat and gives a predatory stare to the steak that sits in front of her. Then in typical Loka fashion, she digs her claws into the seasoned meat and starts to bite and tear into it, ripping piece after piece of the steak until she scarfs it all down. The monster chugs down the whole glass of whine that you poured for her and let’s out a satisfied belch. “Thanks for the food, doc. Great as always.” She rubs her belly and is all smiles right now. Her table manners are atrocious, but never the less, she’s always cute about the whole thing somehow. She just looks so content in her seat right now. It puts a smile to your own face as well.

All of this cuteness though doesn’t stop your conscious from nagging at you in the back of your head. The smile disappears from your face, you fold your hands in front of you and lean your forehead against your folded hands, contemplating internally how you’re going to blow Loka off- No! You meant to say tell her off. How are you going to tell her this relationship teasing needs to stop? How are you going to tell her that you can’t like her? Just how? You already upset her earlier with your angry outburst. So, how are you going to soften the blow? You inhale and then exhale. Well, you can’t fret over every broken egg. Sometimes the hardest pills to swallow are mixed with honey. Sweet at first, but then asphyxiates the throat with sorrow when swallowed. She’s probably not gonna take it well, but you’re gonna have to live with the consequences of her response regardless of how your friendship will go.

You put on a very cold stern look on your face. “Loka, we need to talk.”

The monster looks a bit confused as to what you want to talk about. “Is something wrong, Joe?”

“I’m afraid so. I think we need to set some boundaries and I think we need to reevaluate our...” You pause for a moment, already regretting that you’re having this conversation with her. “We need to reevaluate our relationship. I think what we’re doing is inappropriate and I think we need to keep things more professional.” You turn your face away from her, shame, remorse, guilt all build up inside you at that very moment.

Loka sulks back into her seat, she’s blinking a lot and looks like she’s trying to hold back tears. “What did we do that was inappropriate? Was… Sniff… Was it the kissing?”

“It’s not just the kissing, Loka. It’s the cuddling that we do, the fact that we sleep together, and especially that pants pulling stunt you pulled back there in my room really crossed the line. It’s just not suitable for what we are trying to do here. I don’t feel comfortable fostering these romantic feelings in you and I should have kept a distance from you and friend zoned you since day one. I’m human and you’r-

“A monster!” She interrupts with a yell and the slamming of her fists. “You don’t love me because I’m a monster!” Loka starts getting hysterical in her crying fits. “You keep playing with my feelings, Joe. You… Sniff… You let me get into your comfort zone and when things get too intimate, you keep pushing me away because I’m a grotesque monster! Sniff… Just tell me that you don’t like me and that I’m the worst thing that’s ever happened to you!”

You cowardly don’t give her eye contact and look away from her. “I don’t hate yo-”

“-Just tell me I’m the worst thing to have happen to you already! Just say it!” She yells.

The room is silent with the exception of the monster’s crying. You just sit there thinking whether you should just lie to her and say she was the worst thing to have happened to you and get this over with or to tell her the truth. You value honestly and truth to all other virtues, so you tell her how you feel. “Loka.” You move your chair closer to her and give her the eye contact that she deserves. “I don’t hate you at all. You’r-”

She pushes you, you and your chair tip over and hit the ground with a hard thud. Luckily, you didn’t bang your head hard against your flooring. The monster then stands over you with hot anger and tears in her eyes. “Stop lying to me! You… Sniff… Never liked me at all. It was for your stupid career! That’s all it was for! And you probably like that stinky lizard of an assistant you have more than me too!”

You should be angry about her aggression right now, but you want to show her patience. You don’t want to have another outburst with her like earlier. So, you pick your self up and put the chair back towards the table and lean down to her eye level, making sure to give her sincere eye contact. “It was about my career at first, and it is still about that a little bit. But, I think I would be doing a disservice for you if we indulged in a relationship like that. I can’t give you a family, Loka. You can’t have that with me. And you won’t live a free life in this world with me either. I can’t give you those things. You would basically be some mail order bride that’s locked up in this house forever. I don’t want that for you. Once we get that doorway tech working for you, you’ll be able to hang out with your friends again and you’ll meet another monster guy that’s better than me in no time.” You say with a not so convincing smile of reassurance.

Loka wraps her arms around your neck in a hug and squeezes you tight. “Joe, I don’t want a monster boyfriend, I want you… Sniff…” She wipes the tears that are on her face onto yours.

You push her away gently and take her palm with both of your hands. “We’ll still be friends even when you’re back home. We can probably visit you at any time once we get the doorway working. We’ll still be in touch, always. But, you’ll be happy there with your own kind.”

She then has an angry grimace on her face. “Be happy with my own kind! What’s that suppose to mean! Is this that stupid evolutiony thingy you keep making as your excuse! If a scaly monster and a fuzzy monster can have a family, so can a monster and a human, Joe! Stop making up excuses!” Loka runs away from you in tears. She runs to her room and slams her bedroom door shut. You hear the click to her bedroom lock from the hallway too, telling you she doesn’t want you to come into her room for any reason.

You wanted to run after her and stop her, but you felt it would be best to give her some space. Your eyes stare back to your uneaten steak. You’re contemplating on whether you should eat it or just throw it in the fridge for another day. The sadness you are feeling right now is really killing your appetite. So, you just throw the cooked ribeye in a plastic baggy and toss it into your fridge. Hunger can wait til tomorrow. Honestly, you’re just to depressed to do anything else, just want to sleep right now.

Normally, you would brush your teeth and use the bathroom before sleeping, but you’re in the dumps right now and don’t feel like doing anything else. You take off your clothing and go into your bed with only your boxers, laying on your back, staring up at the dark ceiling, expecting her arms to wrap around you in surprise, but it never comes. And it’s for the better to be honest. A relationship with her would just hold her back and will make her disappointed in the end. It would never work out.

As you stare blankly up at your dark ceiling, you begin to hear whimpering, Loka’s whimpering to be exact. You can hear her faint sobs through the walls. This makes your body move to the exact opposite side to the wall that is echoing her sobs and wails. It haunts you through the night. And even when you think she’s not crying anymore, you can still hear the cries in your consciousness as you black out into the cold night. “I’m sorry, Loka.” You say to yourself.