Nyn
Nyn
By: Jizzal
For: My Wolf
Nyn is (c) his player
It took me only one week to conclude that college at times is better than high school, but still a form of educational Hell. After spending a few semesters at home while attending a community college, I knew that actually going out and living in the dorms would be different. No more bull-crap from home, no more sudden emergencies that I had to do all because others were lazy. I would get freedom, at last. Though it was better than being at home, it was still a prison to me.
"Alright...ok Mom...yes Mom...of course Mom....no Mom...that's...a personal question Mom...err....that's even worse, been taking your pills? Heh...only kidding...I love you too Mom..."
I sighed and closed my cell phone shut before flopping onto my back only to land on my bed. My head turned, and I noticed my clock a few feet away, 10:17a.m. Wow, Mom sure did love to talk, though my parents called almost everyday, at different times. Mom would call, Dad on occasion, sometimes both at the same time. They were rather reluctant to let me out of the house. Not only was I their third and youngest child, I wasn't like the rest of them, I am very different...very, very, very different. Though that isn't important now, only major difference is that I'm a skunk, and they aren't.
Dark black fur covered most of my body, save for my muzzle throat, both my chest and stomach that was a nice contrasting white. Two white stripes that began at the back of my head traveled down my back and all the way along my large and fluffy tail, the bottom of said tail was also white. Pink paw pads instead of palms on my hands, and my feet were the same, also plantigrade at that. Top my head off with round ears, and give me some brown eyes on my face, and well, that's me pretty much. Yes, I'm a skunk, one of the anthropomorphic nature if you didn't guess that.
Despite appearances, I was the biological son of both my mother and father, both of them human however, but that is another story all together. Now where was I?...That's right, I was sulking alone in my dorm, just one of those days where nothing seems to be happening, and it gives me time to think about the past. Something I try to steer away from.
I gave my tail a weak flick, and looked over at the clock again, 10:18a.m. Time always seemed to slow down when I wanted it to speed up. I was getting bored of sulking. And I was starting to wonder where my roommate was, since he hadn't come back the night before. I knew this because he would have no doubt have had a hard time getting onto the top bunk where he slept, without waking me in his inebriated state. He probably spent the night partying with some of our 'friends' or well, his friends and my 'acquaintances.' Though we had known each other since the 4th grade, and have been best friends since the 7th, I knew I was falling apart with the only real friend I had in this entire school. I wasn't at home anymore where I had all of my other high school friends, but they were never in the "hanging-out" mood after high school. It really sucked.
Luckily, every party I knew of was remotely safe. There wasn't too much booze, or at least I hoped not. I didn't think my best friend was an alcoholic, he just like to social and drink...which I guess is different. He hadn't really changed too much since high school, though when I spent my semesters at home, he was here getting new friends and I guess that's what got him into partying. But hey, as long as he's happy, and relatively safe, I was okay with that. As far as I concerned he was still a great guy.
10:19a.m....why was this taking so long? So to set a change in pace, I got over my sulking and opened my laptop and set it out on the bed in front of me as I lied down on my stomach. I got online and logged into my messenger systems, curious to see if any of my friends I made online where currently...well online. I guess I was sort of lucky that my high school companions and I didn't spend so much time together as we used to, because I discovered the Internet after that, and found it rather hospitable at times. Though I let out a sigh of defeat when I saw that either everyone that I had on my lists was either set to 'Away' or were offline, at least I wasn't blocked...or I hoped I wasn't at least. Well this was a great way to start off the day, sulking before 11, and on a school day none the less, speaking of which, I looked to the clock...10:15a.m...what the? Whatever, I needed to calm down.
After taking a deep breath, I rested my head in my paws before I started to search the net in hopes of another change of pace. Checked some message boards, looked at some new artwork and stories that had been posted rather briefly, it wasn't much, but it was better than staring at the clock. I was browsing through the usual stuff I was interested in, mostly involved two males having sex or someone being eaten, yes I know, what an odd skunk, though I was more worried about the two males thing than the other, because I knew I had an attraction to other males, something I was scared by. I had constant fears of being found out and all of my friends and family abandoning me because that would make me a "Queer" or a "Fag" or "Whatever, a homo," I was already different enough, I didn't need more ammo to be used against me. After several failed attempts to try and quell myself of these homosexual feelings, I decided to just give up and embrace them, but that didn't mean I was looking for a boyfriend or anything, I knew I couldn't get one if I tried. I couldn't even get a girlfriend when I thought I was straight! Though a moment aside from the gay males thing, I found myself enjoying artworks and stories about such things, so I began to write myself, and of course added in the occasional person being eaten here and there. I even managed to get my own little section on a couple websites under my nickname and writer's identity, 'Jizzal.'
I continued to search through some of the websites I frequented, and when I checked one I had submitted my stories too I found that someone had found interest in my writing, and decided to comment. To my surprise, it wasn't someone I already knew, just a friend who would leave a comment to help boost my morale, this was someone I hadn't heard of before...hmm...though the name did ring a slight bell, as if I remembered it somewhere before, or at least I thought I did. I was just about to comment the kind soul in return...but oh crap! I caught the time out of the corner of my eye, and it was 10:56! Class was starting in four minuets, well looked like I was going to be late. I quickly logged off my computer, not wanting my roommate, should he come by to open it up and see just what it was I was looking at. I threw off my shorts that I slept in, kept on the Pac Man t-shirt (the one with the ghosts on it), threw on some jeans, socks, then shoes, grabbed my backpack and ran was out the door. Despite my amazing ability to get dressed in the blink of an eye, I knew I was going to be late.
I had managed to get into the room before the lecture started it seemed, luckily I didn't miss anything, it was the only class I somewhat didn't find to be a horrible pain in the ass to attend. I found a seat, and pulled out my English notebook, since it was English after all, and began to take notes...how exciting.
Thankfully, class didn't seem to drag on as much as usual, maybe my luck was changing. I sighed happily and got out of my seat and gave a long stretch, followed by a yawn, still tired. I must not have been thinking at that moment, because I zipped up my backpack and slipped it on and left the room, leaving my notebook on the desk, and in it everything I needed to study for since I had a test the day after next, and it looked like I wouldn't be able to study. But unknown to me, someone had taken the liberty of plucking up my notebook before they headed out the class room as well, and began to browse through it.
"Hey man, how was class?" Were the first words I head when I opened the door, finally back at my dorm. I gave a weak smile to my human friend and gave a shrug while he continued to type on his own computer.
"It was class I guess, went by fairly quick though...how was the party?" I asked and sat down on my bed, getting comfortable again.
"It was alright I guess, hung out, played some cards, and had some booze."
"Guess it's not college without the stuff." I chuckled weakly and shook my head before taking off my shoes; I was done for the day. "Just glad you're back Stephen..."
"Eh, I'm only here for a minuet actually. Just gotta finish this paper, then I'm going to go see Danny. He said that he and Gerald had something to show me." The human responded and continued to type, he was almost done with his work it seemed. "Then class you know, probably hang out again with them tonight..."
I sighed a little bit and gave a shrug, "Ah well...that's cool then, have a good time then," I said with a weak smile, another evening alone for me.
"Why not come along? You're know you're more than welcomed to, they wonder why you hardly come by anymore you know?" He asked me, I just shook my head.
"Nah, not really my thing...'sides, I have some studying to do...or something..." I said, at least it was the truth.
"Well I understand then." Stephen noted and clicked out of his computer, getting out of his chair with his backpack in hand. "Though if you change your mind, you know were ta find me." He said trying to sound funny, it never worked...but he always tried so I gave him a pity laugh. Stephen chuckled a little and went out the door, "Later Skunky." Then it was silent again.
For some reason, I felt mad when he left, though not at him, at myself. Why was I doing this? I'd get invited every so often to one of these things, but I rarely went, I just didn't feel like I belonged. Species wasn't the thing, the college was mostly mixed, but it was just that I didn't belong with my so-called friends. Every party I'd end up trying to get along and make friendly with others, but I usually ended up sitting on a couch watching some people make out only a few inches next to me. Talk about a party. I tried to mingle with some new people, and the farthest I ever got was some girl who told me that she would do -anything- to me because having sex with an animal was one of her fantasies. Sure, she was a tad bit drunk, but even if she was sober, and if I was straight, I still would have told her the same thing. "Then please, keep your clothes on, Miss."
I was already back to sulking, today seemed like things couldn't get any better, I just didn't know why I felt so down for some reason, and then of course I let my mind wander again...and I dwelled on the past. I couldn't stop thinking about how much my life really wasn't how I planned it to go, and how much I seemed to screw up on an hourly bases, yes, even in my sleep I could probably screw something up. All the friends, family, those I thought that cared for me and I cared for them that I happened to lose, though not by death, it was as if I didn't exist to them anymore. With the overwhelming nostalgia making me want to wish I could cry, I decided to get back online, but there was a knock at the door, a visitor.
I quickly got to my feet and opened the door, surprised to see whom it was, it was the RA. I looked up to the larger male wolf as he looked to me with a smile, I hoped I wasn't in trouble or something; I couldn't think if I did something wrong.
"Hey there, is this yours?" He asked and held out my English notebook, I was surprised, when did I lose it?
"Y-Yeah it is...thanks..." I smiled and he handed it to me. "Thanks a lot, I would have been hard to study without this..." I said again, I would have said his name...but I forgot it, I never really spoke with the RA, this was probably the first time he and I had been alone.
The gray wolf just chuckled and nodded, "No problem, just be sure to hang onto it this time." He said that and headed down the hall. I took a moment to pause, nice guy, should have gotten his name though, now I felt guilty.
I tossed by notebook onto the ground next to my backpack, and got back on my bed, deciding to get back online. This time there were friends of mine online, I gave it my best shot at trying to talk to them, though being the shy person that I was I didn't usually start conversations because I never had anything good to say. It was the same as if they weren't online at all. As I continued to feel sorry for myself, I decided to stay online anyway, I could do something, and maybe someone actually wanted to talk to me.
After sitting there for hours, I got a few hits from people who wanted to role play with me, but I really wasn't in the mood, and I offered to talk, all I got was silence or them suddenly logging off. Ouch. That hurt, and it kept on hurting, and it happened to more than a few times, I honestly didn't see why people couldn't have things in common like a fetish of, lets say eating people, and not have anything to talk about. I felt like the little community I found wasn't much of a community at all. Though since I didn't feel like studying, and I was taking an extended hiatus from writing, I decided to continue and try, so I went to one of the chat rooms I used to go to everyday, I had been straying away from it for some time now.
The day couldn't have been going any worse as far as I saw it. The high part of my day was the RA giving me back my notebook, everything else was putting a great strain on my mind, I even felt a little sick...but that was because I hadn't eaten since early that morning before my mom called. I set my status to away in the chat room and left, not at all caring that my comp was still on, I knew no one else would be coming to the room. I made my way down to the cafeteria; it was about only 6pm or so I guessed, didn't even bring my phone with me.
I got a tray, flashed my meal card that my parents got for me so I wouldn't starve, and loaded up with some grilled cheese and some chicken noodle soup to go with it, I was surprised that there was somewhat decent food for a change. I sat at a lone table, though I looked over and not too far away I saw Stephen, and of course the others he was hanging out with. He notice me too, and waved me over, so I got up with my tray and went to join them, hoping it would at least lift my spirits a little bit.
"Heya J, didn't think I'd see you tonight, you finally left the room?" Stephen chuckled at me, as I sat down next to him. I looked to the other humans, and there was even a ferret with them too and gave a somewhat sincere grin.
"Hey guys, what's up?"
"Nothin' much, what about you guys?" After I said that, I got the other's attention.
"Oh hey J! What's up skunk dude? Never see you too much anymore, what's up with that?" Danny chuckled, I had known him as long as Stephen just about, but we didn't go to the same high school, he was the one Stephen hung out with while I was still at home and he was here.
"Heh...I dunno, just been busy I guess...you guys alright?" I smiled again and started to eat, the food was pretty good, and it looked like I was actually talking to some people.
Much to my surprise, everyone seemed happy to see me. I did go to school with some of them before, but they seemed just generally happy, it made me feel welcomed for a change. Though that feeling slowly changed. What I thought was a normal get together was merely a large discussion for what sounded like the party of the year, or at least the semester. And on that same topic, I was asked what kind of girls I liked, so I lied of course. It always made me feel bad to lie...especially about something that was a considerably big deal.
From girls, to booze, to entertainment, and like that my good time slowly died. I guess I was a sourpuss, but the idea of drinking till I passed out wasn't my idea of a good time at all. I don't remember what part of the convo it was, but my name was brought up, and I was sitting there at the table. Some things were said, and I was shocked, I was sitting RIGHT THERE. That didn't stop them; at least it wasn't behind my back. Sure I could take a joke, but this wasn't funny. They brought up some things in the past that at the time weren't something to laugh about, and they weren't something to laugh about now. Then when someone asked, "Haven't seen him in years, just where is he now? Other than probably being queer by himself that is." I was glad that I had already finished my soup; otherwise I would have spat it on someone. Since I was invisible to them, I simply got up and left, only to then look back and notice that they had been drinking something that wasn't served in the cafeteria.
"Now I remember why I don't hang out with assholes." I scoffed and went back to my dorm, now things were horrible. Did they really just invite me over because they were drunk? I didn't know, and I really didn't care, no matter how drunk you get I assume it must be pretty hard to forget who was sitting only a few feet away. Though after the ferret 'fell asleep' I figured they were pretty thrashed, be surprised if they remembered what happened at all.
I slammed my door, fairly hard too, not caring who heard it. I was upset, so upset I forgot what day it was even. I almost punched the door, but instead I decided to just try and cool off, so I sat back down on my bed. I looked to my laptop and slid it closer, still had the chat room up and running, so I posted that I wasn't 'away' anymore, and just sat there...for well...hours.
It was getting kind of late, but I really didn't care, didn't have class till around lunch time, and it was only about 1am. All I had really accomplished was sitting there and making the occasional comment in hopes of causing some laughter, which usually cheered me up, making others laugh. But I wasn't doing so well it seemed, didn't even get a pit laugh from my friends who were there already. This was one hell of a day, or well, one day and the start of the next, but since I hadn't gone to sleep I was ready to call this a 'bad day.'
The way I was feeling, I was ready to say some things I knew I'd regret, but someone happened to respond to something I said and since he was in such a great mood, he decided to ruin mine a bit more. Rather than responding, to my surprise I was going just go to bed, what was the point of staying up? Or even what was the point of living? My life really had no purpose. I was 19, I was in school (barely), I didn't feel like I had many friends, and I knew I didn't feel happy at all. Even the Internet was turning into an extension of all of my real-life issues. I was going to just leave, leave everything...what was the point in staying?
If this was the first time I felt like this, I would have shrugged it off...but this was probably the 1000th time I had these thoughts. I really didn't seem to matter, even with my parents, I just felt like they were wasting money by sending me here to this school, I didn't know what my grades were...they weren't perfect, but I wasn't failing, I hoped. Just when I had hit rock bottom, or at least felt more depressed than usual, I gave a little whimper. It was pathetic how I always felt sorry for myself; I wanted this stupid feeling to just go away. But before how I could do anything, I heard a noise, and it came from the computer. As if someone was knocking at my door, someone had sent me a private message; it said a very simple, "Hello."
-Hey there- I responded.
-How're you?-
-I'm fine thanks, yourself?- I lied.
-I'm doing alright thank you, I was saying hi because I like your writing.-
I was speechless, though I responded.
-Really? Thanks, that means a lot to me- I told the truth.
-Well it's the truth, you're very talented and I'm a large fan of your work-
-Wow...I'm really...thanks ^^ that means a lot to me, surprised I have a fan!- I was, and meeting one in this chat room seemed out of place.
Though after a few back and forth messages, I decided to click on the guy's information icon next to his name, Nyn, why did that sound familiar? Then it hit me right after he mentioned how he had left only a few comments on my stories, the ones that actually did start me off on a good day surprisingly. We continued to talk a little, but then he asked if he could add me to his messenger list. He seemed like a nice guy, and his profile had me interested in getting to know him, still wondered what he saw in me, but hey, he seemed like a new friend so I said of course, and we began to instant message with one another.
He added me to Yahoo Instant Messenger, I added him back, and then continued to talk there. Right off the bat, we had a lot in common it seemed. He was a vore, I was a vore, he was gay, I was pretty sure I was too, he was a wolf predator when he role-played, and I was my skunk self, which was a prey person. And he was such a nice wolf too, and he was making my rather crappy night a little bit better just by talking to me. I smiled a bit and then noticed the time, 3:56am....crap, I had to get to bed, and I figured it was late for my new friend too. I told him I was tired, he said he was too, I said goodnight, he said see you later...and I logged off, and went to bed.
Morning came the next day, and as usual I got up after 9am, then went back to bed only to wake up an hour later when I figured my parents would call. They did, we talked, and that was it. Though I was surprised to see Stephen was in the room, and asleep, or rather passed out. He got up when I started to get dressed.
"Hey...urrgh...morning..." the human yawned tiredly and sat up, rubbing his head.
"Hey...have a good night?" I asked a little coldly.
"Yeah great...wish you came by, though I need a break, going to have to finish up a few papers in the next few days."
"Oh yeah, don't want to ruin that perfect GPA of yours," I chuckled, even though Stephen was pretty much a straight A student...all his life and still was despite his habits.
"Hey, I'll keep it cool...oh yeah, did Logan come by? I was hoping to talk to her..."
"Logan...Nah, I was here by myself..." though I didn't feel alone last night to be honest, "Didn't see her, but I'm going off to get some breakfast for a change, catch you later Stephen." I said and was out the door, though I got a muffled "Ok!" in response.
I walked down the stairs and to the cafeteria, only to spot the RA again, he yawned widely, which caused me to yawn, looked like we both missed out on sleep, though I was feeling friendly so I approached him.
"Long night?"
"I guess you could say that."
"I didn't think you RA's were the party types," I chuckled, obviously joking.
He chuckled a bit as well, and gave a shrug, "Was up helping someone out with their problems." The wolf replied.
"Wow...is everyone alright?" I asked in all seriousness.
"I'm sure he'll be just fine, just needs someone to talk to," he said with a smile and it looked like he was heading to the same destination that I was.
"That's good...a little talk can go a long way, but I'm sure you know that," I said as if I knew what I was talking about. He nodded in return and turn turned to me before he put his paw on a door and pushed inside, he had class.
"Indeed, though I know everything will be just fine." He smiled and then walked in the classroom, he was almost late because of me.
"Hrrmm...I really should get his name..." I mumbled and went off to get breakfast, sitting alone though with a smile. I couldn't sulk over waffles!
The rest of the day went by quickly. Class was somewhat enjoyable; I studied for my English test, and I kicked back and relaxed, wow, what a great day. I got online, did some chatting, did a role-play or two as well and got to talk to my friends; I was in a good mood. Even Stephen was around and I got to play him in several rounds of Super Smash Brother's Melee, which was always a pleasure. Things couldn't have been going any better, so I decided to IM my newest friend, Nyn the wolf of course, and we got to talk more, he was so easy to talk to. I went to bed late, though not as late as last night, even got to say goodnight to Stephen, then I was out like a light.
The rest of the week went great much to my surprise. As if my life did a 180. I was smiling a bit more, I was opening up to some people, and I even managed to hang out with Stephen and our friends a bit, though they weren't drunk luckily. I got to talk with Nyn again of course, and as before he was easy to talk too, these convos with him were helping, he was such a nice wolf. Even though school was getting me down every so often, the scholastic portion that is, he was always willing to listen and he helped motivate me. He really was just a joy to talk to, and he was somehow easy for me to open up, slowly, but surely, but I was telling him things I hadn't told anyone else before, but I knew my secrets were safe with this wolf.
Months went by, and Nyn felt like more than a friend to me, and more than someone I could just go to when I needed to vent or just a friendly chat. When he told me he was an RA, I just chuckled, though after thinking about it the job was perfect for a guy like him. He knew how to talk to people, and how to listen. He even started to open up with me, and he shared a few things but one thing that caught me by surprise was that his role-playing character was mostly based off himself, so he was a wolf in person too. I made a little comment about how I'd keep my eyes open for him, and we both shared a laugh, though when he told me just what school he went to, I felt my heart freeze. I told him what school I went with, and I think his heart dropped a few degrees as well...we went to the same school? And as if things couldn't get any more uncomfortable, I deduced a test to see just how close we were.
-Ok...I'm going to peek out my door, you do the same- I typed to him during one of our chats, I was hoping that it was just a little misunderstanding on both of our parts.
-I'll to the same-
I took a deep breath, closed my laptop, and peeked out the door.
I looked to the left down the hall...just a bunch of closed doors. I looked to the right, and a door was opening, only four rooms down the hall a wolf peeked out, he was looking right at me. Our eyes met, and our hearts probably stopped at the same time before they started back up again, fully in sync with one another.
'No way...no no no no way...this couldn't be happening. Wait? Am I complaining? This is too weird, he's been this close...and I've spoken to him before, but he's MY freakin' RA?! This has to be a joke, only one way to find out.' I thought to myself, and took a deep breath, but before I could say anything the wolf spoke.
"Jizzal?"
My paw gripped the doorknob harder and I almost had an asthma attack. Thinking quickly I closed to the door with a slam and fell back onto the floor, getting Stephen's attention, and he turned the television down since he was watching "Space Balls," again.
"You alright Jer-"
"I'm fine!" I managed to yelp out, my mouth still open while I was panting hard. And after giving myself a few moments rest, I opened up my laptop again; Nyn had sent a message since I closed the door. Stephen gave a little shrug and figured I was having some sort of 'difficulty' and that I wanted to handle it myself.
-You alright?-
Though my paws were shaking, I managed to reply without any typos.
-Yeah-
Then there was silence, and I was waiting for him to say something. Did he want me to come over? Or was he on his way now? He should have been here already it was just four fu-*ping* I got a reply from him.
-So...want to come over?- Nyn had asked.
I logged off my computer, put on my shoes, walked down the hall and knocked on the door. Then I noticed I miss-counted, so I went next door and knocked again, and the wolf answered. I looked up slightly, and all I saw was a pair of emerald green eyes looking down at me, while a smile was slowly formed.
"So...want to come in?" Nyn asked to break my unintentionally rude stare, my brown eyes began to moisten slightly, because I had forgotten to blink.
"Oh...oh! Sure," I said and rubbed my eyes slightly before I stepped in, and Nyn closed the door.
I was nervous, he could tell, he could probably smell it too. Damn I hated being a skunk, but the lupine didn't seem to be gagging at the stench I accidentally leaked out, he was nervous too.
His room was fairly clean, single bed since RA's couldn't have roommates I guessed, a computer on a table, and a couch. I sat down on the couch and looked up to him, he came by and sat down as well, though I saw his tail give a little wag before he sat down. I waited for him to say something, and he waited for me to say something, so there was silence for a good three minuets, the longest three minuets of my life.
"You know...I always did figure you were an alright RA I guess. Though I didn't know your name." I finally said, but I got a chuckle from Nyn.
"Yeah well I knew your name, though I didn't know you went by 'Jizzal DaSkunk' online." He smirked, and I blushed a bit, but then gave a slight snicker.
"You can call me by whatever name...What should I call you?"
"Call me Nyn, and I'll call you Jizzal. Deal?" The wolf smiled and held out his paw, I looked at it and gave a nod before I took it and gave a shake.
"Deal." I smiled a bit more. "So Nyn...what are the chances of this happening? Two friends that met online first met in person, and none the less had a lot in common."
Nyn nodded and replied. "I dunno, sounds like fate if you ask me. Fate that we were supposed to meet online that night, do you really think you'd be here if that hadn't happened?"
I paused and thought about it, the chances of it being just a coincidence. Finding Nyn, who said he was mostly a lurker, in a chat room that he went to only once before, and finding out that he lived three, erm, four doors down from where I was living, in the same state, same city, same college, same wing of the college, same floor, AND the same hallway. And on top of that, he was my RA. Talk about a hell of a coincidence, or fate played the two of us for suckers. I was in a bad mood the night we met, and Nyn was a master of helping people through their grief. Meeting him sounded like a one in a million thing. I was one lucky skunk to have such a great friend like him; it was as if we were both set up to be here together.
Finally, I answered him, "Either fate, or I just won some sort of freaky lottery." We both shared a laugh, and I felt all the tension relax around us.
"Though you lied a bit about your appearance Nyn." I said with a slight merf.
"What?" Nyn blinked, his ears gave a flick at the noise I made.
I looked the wolf over a bit as he waited for me to speak again. He looked so much like how he had said his character online did. Grey fur, check, white fur on the front and muzzle area, check, green eyes...I couldn't help looking at those, double check. Though after a brief pause, I gave a little giggle and blushed slightly, glad my fur would hide it, I thought at least.
"You didn't say you were even more handsome in person," I snickered.
"You're one to talk, skunk," The wolf laughed too and even gave me a slight poke, and my body tensed up a little bit, but that was about it. "And what's this? I poke you and nothing happens?" He playfully stuck his tongue out. "Well that's a relief."
"Yeah well, just try it again after I've eaten," I giggled again.
The wolf smirked and gave me a rather toothy grin. "You should see the way I eat..."
At that moment I felt a little bit nervous, but I managed a little laugh and shrugged. "Well you'll have to show me one of these days..."
"I can do that," Nyn grinned still and licked along his sharp teeth, he really had me a little worried.
The wolf and I had role-played a few times too, and they would end up with me curled up in his stomach, though I was willing to do it online, I had a feeling that if Nyn was going to eat me in his room, he'd have to use those sharp teeth.
"Heh...well...just promise not to chew," I retorted and smirked, I had him there I thought.
"You know I don't chew, better to feel them wiggle down," the wolf grinned and leaned in a bit closer, he even gave a little growl. He was intimidating the crap out of me, I thought at least, though the tent in my pants said otherwise. The growl slowly intensified and I could feel the warm breath seeping through those clinched teeth. I gave a soft squeak and I just blushed a bit more, I actually started to wonder what would happen if the teeth parted and Nyn opened wide. And I was only making that bulge in my jeans throb by this point.
Luckily for me, Nyn burst out into laughter and backed off, he was reeeaalllly good at the whole predator thing. He had my heart pounding, but not in fear so much, just excitement.
"Awwww, did I scare the little skunky?" The wolf smirked stuck out his tongue again as he noticed that my fur and mostly stood up on its own, and my tail was nearly twice as fluffy as ever before. Then he saw that my white furred muzzle turn a nice shade of red, and his eyes glanced down at my crotch, and his ears perked. At that time I wanted to turn invisible, I had never felt more embarrassed in my life. I quickly sprang off the couch and went to leave so I go to my room and sulk about how I ruined the first meeting with one of the closest friends I had. But Nyn wasn't going to let me, and I felt his paw grasp around my own, and he gave a gentle squeeze.
I gave my paw a little tug, but couldn't budge it much, I just wanted to disappear right then and there, how could my body betray me like THAT?
"Please...don't leave over something as trivial as that..." The wolf almost whispered to me, his ears lowered slightly, he was feeling bad. But _I_ was the one who should have been feeling bad!
"I...I don't know...what to say..." I wanted to cry, but no tears came to me, my body started to shake.
Nyn gently rubbed his thumb along my wrist and stood up while I continued to eye the door, I wanted out. I closed my eyes tightly and gave a soft whimper but then I felt a warm body against my own, and a pair of arms wrap around me. Time slowed down yet again.
Along my back I felt the steady heart beat of the male that was holding me, and he gently nuzzled against my cheek as he let out a low murr.
"Please?..." he whispered into my ear. I gave a sniffle, and lowered my head, though I felt like crap, and my erection was still there, probably because of the gentle embrace I was being held in.
"Ok..." I whispered back and I felt the wolf give out a sigh of content and he slowly let go of me. We both sat back down.
Nyn apologized, I tried to out apologize him, I was sorry it happened, he was sorry it happened. Though he was still surprised that he managed to get me that worked up just by breathing on me, though I think only Nyn himself could have caused me to do that. After all we had spoken and shared, I couldn't help but feel a little attraction to him...all right a lot. But I kept those thoughts a secret from him; I almost blew it with my wardrobe malfunction however.
That night we talked again, we both settled down and we even hugged, and that was when Nyn said that I had the same effect on him, then I noticed he did hug me in a funny way. He shared a laugh and both let out a sigh of relief. It was late, so he asked if I wanted to stay over. I slept on the couch, and he on his bed. I was out like a light, and I was surprised that I was so open to just sleep in the wolf's room, but I figured four rooms away wasn't a big deal. The last words I heard were, "Good night Skunky..." The last words Nyn heard were, "Good night Nyn..."
Morning came, I slept great, but Nyn was already gone, though he left a note.
-Got a call from work, after that is class, see ya later bud!
~Nyn-
I sighed a little bit and left his room, I wanted to eat breakfast with him, but as an RA the wolf had a job to do other than just attend classes. Feeling a little down, I decided to go back to my dorm, though Stephen was gone, so I was left alone. After my stomach gave a grumble, I went down to the cafeteria and grabbed breakfast. I couldn't sulk over waffles!
Later then of course I had class, though I did happen to catch Nyn, or rather he caught me when he saw me heading back to my room. He came over this time, which made Stephen nervous since he knew the wolf was an RA, but it wasn't an official inspection or anything. But regardless, the wolf and I went back to his room just in case someone needed his assistance. The evening went by slow, and we played some N64, nothing better than old school gaming with a good friend.
A week had gone by since I started hanging out with Nyn in person, and we only got to be better and better friends. It was...nice. Though one night I was online for a change one evening, and Nyn asked if I wanted to come over, and he asked if I wanted to hang out the entire weekend. No classes really, but Nyn would still have to work some, but it sounded like fun so I got some clothes and headed over.
As always, I knocked on the door, and Nyn quickly answered it of course, and we both kicked back and relaxed on the couch, and gaming ensued. Though it seemed to go by quickly, and Nyn had a knock at the door and reluctantly got up. Something came up and he would be right back he said. I nodded and just lied down on my back with my feet up on the couch with a long sigh. I was missing him the moment the door closed.
Deep down, I wanted to tell Nyn everything, though he already knew almost everything about me. My dreams, my fears, though he didn't know my feelings, I wasn't even hinting at them. I wasn't good enough for him, and I would never get over that. Besides, he already helped me get out of my depression, so he was meant for someone else who really needed someone like him. I felt happy we were friends, and nothing would change that. And before I knew it, the wolf was back, and he gave a long sigh before he closed his door and slipped off his shoes.
"Hey it's late, want to get some rest a bit early?" I asked him, he looked tired, it was 'only' 11pm, but he wasn't smiling as much as usual so he nodded and flopped on his bed.
"Sounds good to me...I'm going to just lay down, you can stay up if you'd like though." Nyn muttered a bit and closed his eyes, still fully dressed. He seemed really tired, or something, I guessed.
I nodded back and turned off the television before hitting the lights, "Night Nyn," but I didn't hear anything else, the wolf was asleep. Overworked lupine was the diagnosis, and the skunk recommended a good night's rest. But now I had to use the restroom, so I carefully snuck out. The wolf was sleeping nicely. Though when I got back, the door was slightly opened, and I peeked in...Nyn was gone!
"Nyn?..." I was needless to say surprised; he was almost knocked out when I left! Now he was gone, and the lights were still off.
"Nyn?..." I whispered again, though as soon as I stepped in, I felt something land on me, sending me to the ground with a thud. It was a fairly big something that fell on me, and it was breathing in my ear, and I suddenly couldn't breathe, and I felt a friendly lick, but he kept me pinned.
"Heheh, caught me a skunk," a familiar voice chuckled, and I felt the wolf show me mercy and get off my back, though I still remained fairly tensed, and my eyes closed shut.
Nyn chuckled a little bit, I was wondering when he'd try and get me like that again, and he did love a good scare. But he gave the air a slight sniff, and coughed slightly, his sensitive canine nose wasn't helping him at all, but he gave a little murr much to my surprise.
I wanted to disappear again, "Heh...no fair...but...er...sorry...about the smell," I sighed and when the smell caught my nose, and I erfed a little bit and rolled onto my back, Nyn was smiling down at me. He extended a paw, I took it, and he pulled me back to my feet. Though now my pants were a little wet since I of course let out a little bit of my skunk spray. Getting surprised like that had me worried that something happened to Nyn, and I didn't think it was he who pounced me from above. He cleverly had himself propped over the door, and waited for me to come back.
"Though I thought you were going to sleep wolfy, so why the pounce?" I chuckled a little bit and rubbed my rump slightly, good thing the smell wasn't that strong.
"I couldn't sleep..." Nyn murmured and closed the door, leaving the lights off as he sat down on his bed and looked to me. Though my eyes were still adapting to the darkness, I sat down right next to him and left him some room.
"Need to talk about it?" I asked, hoping it wasn't anything serious.
"I had a long talk with a good friend of mine, I told him that my life was changing, everything felt different." Nyn said and looked to me, I stayed quiet, letting him talk as he had done to me so many times.
"Everyday, I feel more and more different. And I don't know quite how to say it, but I thought I would be alone my life. I know I'm gay, and I didn't expect to find anyone, because I honestly wasn't looking. I was just hoping to get some good friends, and I have those, but I didn't think I would find just what I found. I'll honestly say that I didn't expect us to become such great friends. That was a surprise to me." I smiled a little bit, but he continued. "And another surprise is that..." he paused, and he took a deep breath as he slipped his arm around my shoulder. I felt something was wrong, so I spoke up.
"That what?..."
Nyn shook his head, "It doesn't matter, it was just three little words." He answered, but I blinked and didn't get what he was saying.
"Th-Three words?" I looked over to Nyn; I could see him fairly well in the dark now, his eyes were locked on mine, and mine his.
"I think you know what I mean..."
"No...I really don't..." I sighed softly; feeling like an idiot if it was that obvious, but I still had no idea what he meant.
Nyn leaned in closer, and his lips pressed to mine, my ears perked. He softly kissed me, and I kissed him back, once again time froze. Nyn had a talent for doing that to me. His soft black lips almost made me melt against him, and his other arm wrapped around me, hugging me close as my eyes slowly closed. He slowly broke the kiss and looked me in the eyes, now I knew what he meant...or at least what I hoped I knew what he meant.
"I love you," And with that, I felt something down in my chest, it was pounding...louder and louder, harder and harder, faster and faster...my heart.
"I..." I wanted to cry, I could feel the moisture start to build up again, and once again I wasn't blinking, but only because I couldn't look away. Nyn continued to hold me so close to himself; I had never felt more comfortable in all my life.
"I love you too..." I said in a weak whisper, though the wolf just smiled and hugged my head to his chest, his heart was beating in my ears.
I didn't know what to say, I still couldn't move, I could barely breathe, and I couldn't believe my ears. But I could still feel Nyn's breathing against my form, and his arms around me, he was still holding me. As long as he was still holding me, I knew I'd be safe, I knew I'd be happy, I knew I'd be his.
My arms slowly slid around, and I hugged him back finally, it was a new feeling for me, and I was welcoming it with open arms. Though Nyn slowly let go of, and he brushed his muzzle along my own as he whispered softly. "Well now...my dear skunk, will you let me do something for you?"
I blinked, and that was all the time I needed to think, "A-Anything...so long as I can do something for you too..."
Nyn smiled and licked along my nose, causing a soft murr from me.
"Just relax...I've done this with you a few times...but never in person...I want it to be special."
My heart skipped again and I tilted my head back up and kissed him back on the lips. "Of course...as long as it's with you." I smiled softly and Nyn gently rubbed along my back, his claws pressed against my shirt and I blushed timidly.
I slowly scooted back to give myself some room; I knew he needed room too. Though I slowly took hold of the bottom of my shirt and slowly slid it up and over my head, revealing my white front as the wolf did the same. I peeked over at him and dropped my shirt on the floor next to us, Nyn followed and placed a paw on my pants button, and I said nothing. He slowly rubbed along the little brass button, and he slowly unbuttoned me. I looked to him, we shared a smile still and he took hold of my zipper and slowly pulled it down, along with the rest of my pants, and my boxers along with them. My eyes closed for a little bit, and Nyn gently tugged a little more, so I pulled my tail through the hole I had in them. My pants had a little smell to them still, but the wolf didn't mind at all and he let them down on the ground as well, leaving me nude on his bed.
There was a short pause as I saw Nyn look over my body, my slim barely muscled furry front was all his for the taking. He glanced down to my sheath, and I blushed again, though since my first meeting with the wolf, I had mastered the art of holding in my arousal around him, but my sheath was still swollen regardless of how hard I was trying. My pink cock tip slowly slipped free and Nyn grinned, leaning in close as he gave my tip a little lick, which sent a shiver down my spine and all the way up my large fluffy tail. I didn't stand a chance at holding in my arousal anymore, and the warm scent of my crotch started to fill the wolf's room as he continued to pleasure me, making me short of breath yet again but the tingle felt so good.
Nyn carefully placed one paw down on my stomach, and I leaned back for him on his soft bed while he opened his jaws and slipped them around my hardening shaft as more of it continued to squeeze free from my protective flesh. With his free paw, he started to take off his own pants, though all the while his warm, slimy tongue was slurping and dragging itself along my penis before he closed his mouth around it, the whole length snuggly in his maw. Using his claws, he gently scratched my stomach, and I gave a little moan, my body almost turned into putty right there as I felt the larger male working my member in his skillful jaws. My eyes closed, and my tail went down to the side, hanging off the bed, but brushing against the floor slowly as I inhaled, and exhaled, clenching the bed sheets as I heard the distinct noise of another pair of pants dropping on the floor. With my body at the wolf's mercy, Nyn gently murred, making my throbbing flesh in his mouth vibrate slightly, and my hips bucked forward as if they had a mind of their own.
I could hear a little suckling as his tongue coiled around my cock like a snake and he drooled copiously, getting my crotch fur rather wet in the process. The tip of his tongue sneaked out and poked along my scrotum, which made my toes curl and my eyes almost roll into the back of my head. I knew I wouldn't last much longer. As his tongue continued to probe my penis, each little motion he made only made me want to please him more and more. I leaked out a little bit of pre cum, and the wolf grinned around his skunk's cock. The tasty, clear ooze continued to pour into my lovers mouth as I reached down and took hold of the back of his head, gripping it softly as my hips once again gave a thrust forward. I got into the rhythm of things, and I timed each hump with each slurp Nyn was making, gently bucking forward while he gulped down my pre and felt my ball sac slap against his chin.
There was silence for a moment, and my head reared back, I couldn't hold it in any longer. I climaxed, for the very first time in my life (while awake for it) and into the maw of the first male to ever say he loved me, and meant it in the way he did. The thick cream filled his muzzle and he gulped down every drop, closing his eyes to enjoy my flavor while he gave a low murr as he drained my scrotum of the warm precious seed. My paws fell to my sides, and my member slowly softened as Nyn continued to suckle, taking every last drop. There was one last gulp, and he let my warm member flop onto my thigh as it glistened with his saliva.
I slowly opened my eyes and watched as Nyn rose up and licked his lips, he was still smiling, showing me his teeth, so I gave a soft giggle and my ears flicked softly. He didn't say anything, I could smell something new in the air though, and I looked down as he carefully positioned himself above me and I felt his cock rub against my thigh, still erect, though I felt a warm pearl of clear pre drop on my furry thigh. His tail was wagging, and he brought his muzzle close to mine again, and he kissed me, but not like before.
Nyn opened his muzzle and ran his broad tongue along my lips, so I opened my mouth, and we shared another kiss, but this was more intimate than before. Our lips mashed together, and his tongue filled my mouth as my own danced with his, once again my eyes closed and I gave a weak muffled moan into his mouth, and he returned it. I felt his arms hold around me in a warm and gentle hug, he was holding me close, and I felt something slip under my sac, and Nyn felt the heat from my tail hole tickling his cock just as he rubbed the tip against my puckering flesh. I held my breath, and didn't break off the kiss, just as the penis pressed against my hole, and gently parted my furry rump cheeks as Nyn began to penetrate, still leaking a bit of pre to act as a natural lubricant. I moaned again, and I did my best to hug the wolf back as he thrusted his hips forward, and buried his member deeper into my insides, rubbing along the pulsing walls of flesh as I felt him spread me up for the first time, at least the first time it wasn't said in text. This was real.
The feeling was odd, yet I welcomed it still, but Nyn's arms gave me a little squeeze as I felt his warm groin press right against my sac before he started to pull his hips back, taking his penis with him as the walls gently clenched around his thick length. I was in an almost constant state of moaning, but it was hard to get them loud with his tongue still in my mouth, but I was loving it. We inhaled through our noses, together, as we shared this intimate act with one another. And with another thrust, I managed a yelp, but as before those paws rubbed through my silken fur and I calmed down, and began to murr, I was getting the hang of it. Each time I felt the wolf thrust in, I closed the walls around him as my body quivered, and his body held mine.
As the thrusts continued, I could feel something at the base of Nyn's penis, it was growing slowly, but it was his knot, and the larger it grew, the more I moaned, and the more my tail hole stretched. The blood in my veins continued to boil, and the knot continued to grow until I felt it simply rubbing up against my tail hole. The amount of pre was steadily increasing, I could hear a swish each time I clenched and Nyn humped, but Nyn gave a little murmur into my wet mouth before he thrusted in deeply, and I felt my anus spread around the large knot. And we were tied together, and to celebrate, the wolf's scrotum dropped slightly before he shared another moan together and he let loose, letting his powerful torrent of hot lupine seed deep into my insides. My body went limp, his grip held me still, and my cock had become erect once again in the heat of the passion and love he and I shared for one another.
Nyn slowly broke off the kiss, and his eyes opened to meet mine, our muzzles were connected by a few strands of saliva, and he was panting more than I was, his warm breath gave me chills. There was silence for a moment, and we both laid there, me in his arms, his cock stuck in my tail hole, and our noses touching while he gazed into each other's eyes. I didn't want to leave the moment, I wanted to hold it forever, and I could tell Nyn did too...we shared a silent promise to one another, and we closed our eyes to get a few moment's rest.
Time slowly ebbed on, and the two of us stayed wide awake, the smell of our love still tickled our every pore. Though as we caught our breath, he spoke, and my eyes were opened once again.
"I love you..."
"I love you too..." I felt a little choked up before I could speak again. "My sweet wolf."
I could see his smile, and he nuzzled me in return along my cheek, "And you're my skunk, my Jizzal, my love..." he said and wiggled his cock slightly, he could have pulled out from my slightly leaking rump, but he kept himself in there.
"Remember about what I said?...A while back...ago," his voice was so soft for some reason, I didn't know what he was meaning however, so I shook my head.
"N...No...I'm sorry, what is it?" I replied, sounding a little concerned at this point, and ashamed that I didn't know what he was talking about.
"Never mind love...it'd be easier to show you..." he said and his tongue gently licked against my cheek, causing me to murr softly as I stayed relaxed in the loving embrace. He was tasting me, and I stayed still, I felt I knew what he was hinting at.
His tongue rubbed all along my furry muzzle, matting down my fur nicely, as I gave a little giggle; I was ticklish. It was then that I saw Nyn slowly open his jaws, and closed his mouth around the entire length of my muzzle and gently suckled on it, causing my body to shudder softy once again as I felt the warm mouth muscle rub me in every direction. Nyn grinned a little around me as he looked to me, as if asking me permission to continue. I knew once I answered, there would be no going back, and I understood the consequences, but I knew he wanted it, and I know I wanted it too. I managed a slight nod, and I did my best to say how much I loved Nyn with my eyes alone, and he did the same. His mouth parted a little bit, and I was encased in darkness.
All around me I could hear the wolf's body, and his saliva continued to dampen my fur while he closed his lips around my neck, I only managed a muffled moan as my nose was pressed against the passage of rippling flesh and the dark depths that awaited me. I stayed relaxed, and Nyn rubbed my back again as my shoulders slowly slipped into his mouth, and my head was pushed deeper into his gullet. The amount of drool only grew more and more as my fur continued to mat down and I slowly nuzzled the slimy walls before me as Nyn continued to devour me. The wolf's jaws stretched, and he carefully worked me in deeper into his body. Everything around me squeezed, and I was drawn in further. A slight smile filled my muzzle.
Nyn's tongue worked out and licked along my chest fur, absorbing the delicious flavor while his cheeks bulged out with my upper body just as he took another audible gulp. The saliva was making me slick, and was ensuring a nice and easy swallow as I inched in deeper, and I bulged out the wolf's chest. His heart beat filled my ears once again, keeping me at ease as my tail managed a weak flick, and I felt all of my tension start to slip away as I slipped further down the throat. I barely even noticed that I had been swallowed up to my waist, with Nyn's lips wrapped around me like a snug belt before his hips pulled back, and he pulled his cock free from the sticky hole. I let out a little moan from inside of him, as I felt his body hug all around me, and his stomach got closer and closer.
He slowly sat up, with his paws now on my rump and his rump on the bed as Nyn began to tilt his head back. The wolf couldn't help but grin as he noticed my arousal, and my cock rubbed under his chin, and my hips wiggled slowly before the hungry mouth. With a careful snap of his jaws, Nyn worked my warm skunk cock into his mouth and against his fleshy tongue once again as I gave another muffled moan. Though I was getting a slight feel of vertigo, I continued to stay still, though my body continued to vibrate as my murring got only louder while the wolf worked his tongue around my penis once again, and I couldn't hold in my climax. In a few mere seconds, I was oozing out pre down into the dark throat, getting my own fur sticky in the process. With gravity pulling me down deeper, and Nyn's teeth gliding through my fur like a comb, I pushed my nose against a ring of muscle, and I started to enter the stomach. At that moment I let out a loud whimpering moan of pleasure into Nyn's insides, and for the second time I orgasmed, just for him.
The wolf happily gulped down the tasty treat as it added to my natural flavor, and made his mouth water a bit more. With my body limp, I was exhausted, and hanging from the jaws of the male I loved. I could barely move, but I slowly breathed in the warm, yet stale air from Nyn's stomach. Nyn felt down at the bulge that was slowly growing in his normally well-tone middle, as I continued to empty down into it. And with a few gentle gulps, the throat muscles massaged and squeezed all around me as my hips and legs followed me down to my final destination. I began to curl up as I stretched the fleshy chamber, breathing heavily while all I could feel in the cool air was my feet, and a part of my tail. There was a long pause, as Nyn looked at what was left of me, though with one last gulp, his mouth closed again and he sealed me inside. He had swallowed me whole.
As he rubbed along his stretched stomach, I could feel the warmth grow slowly, and the walls around me gently churn as I breathed nice and slow, resting against the fleshy walls as my legs and tail joined me, and I curled up into a fetal position, softly nuzzling my lover from the inside. I had done it, I had given him everything I had to give...my heart, my virginity, my body, and of course my love. And I felt his paws gently caress all around me, and a soft belch escaped the wolf's lips, though I could still breathe. The gentle rocking of the belly walls held me snug as I fought to stay awake, wanting to say three last words to Nyn.
"I love you..."
And with that I dozed off, though it was in one of the most intimate ways possible. Nyn smiled a little, and gave his large stomach a hug before he lied down, and pulled the covers over him.
"I love you too...Sleep Tight...my skunk."
He then joined me in my slumber, as I was his, and his alone, and he was mine, we were together. And nothing would change that.
Slowly, my body broke down as I slept, leaving nothing but a tingling sensation all over my still form. The smile stayed on my muzzle the entire time, having no regrets, as I became one with Nyn.
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Morning came, and there was the wolf, still sleeping soundly, with his stomach much smaller than the night before, showing little evidence of the actions that happened. Though in his arms, held tightly to his body, was me, and I was still asleep as well. It all felt like a dream, but dreams were never this sweet. Nyn hugged me a little tighter as we slept, together. Our hearts in sync, and our bodies snuggled close to one another. I was were I belonged, and so was the wolf I loved.