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(Yuuta's view)

The only sound that was made was the crunching of paper in my hand. I just stood there, lifeless, breathless, and speechless at what Castiel told me. I was frozen, I couldn't move. I wanted to scream in horror but my throat felt like it was being choked...choked by the reality of the situation.

The paper was real, it was a real draft paper. All the words were written royal like any draft. The seal was my families, only the Michaels and our trusted servants are allowed to hold and use the seal stamp.

But it wasn't the paper that was damning...it was Castiel's face, his stance, all of them read despair like any common man would when being sent to war. All those people when I was walking before...they were panicked like Castiel.

Riften actually sending men off to war...father...what have you done?! Why wouldn't you send me?! I-I have to protect my mate! I am a Michael! I should be the one sent, not Castiel!

The paper was being crumbled in my hands as a few tears broke out of my eyes. I couldn't see the future of this. Before all this I had everything planned, act happy in front of my parents, find the perfect place to give to Castiel so he and I could be mates openly, then marry him someday but-but this-...

It ruins everything! H-He could die! This is warfare not some training trip! A few of my tears dropped onto the draft paper as I was looking at Castiel the whole time wishing somehow, someway Castiel would say something like "but don't worry Yuuta I found a way around it, I'm not going away." But Castiel stood there...silently...stiff like a soldier would.

My vision of him once being in my bed with turned into him and a bunch of other soldiers all lined up. All of them with cold, emotionless faces. I don't want that from Castiel...I want him to be happy! I want him to smile! I want him to laugh and blush! I love him for who he is! I-I can't stand the thought of losing him in a war!

I-I must stop this! I must find a way to keep Castiel here! I just need some time! A week or so! That's plenty of time. With my hoarse voice I opened my mouth that was still quivering from the horrible news.

"...The regiment leaves tomorrow..." He replied with no emotion in his voice...t-tomorrow?! NO! NO!!! THAT CAN'T BE!!! I MUST KEEP HIM!! I MUST HAVE HIM STAY HERE NO MATTER WHAT!!!

A part of me wanted to tackle Castiel, chain him up and keep him hidden somewhere. I would then confront my father and give him a piece of my mind!!! Joining in on a war with the Nebain Kingdom?! Is he mad?! My father is smarter than this!

The trembling in my hands that were once in shock and horror turn into suppressed rage. I bit my teeth together anger over this! H-How dare my father do this to Riften!!! Doesn't he care for it?! All the people, their honor, their families! Shouldn't a noble like him realize even from the greedy stand point that sending people off to war will make us have less workers! I bet no nobles are taking part in this war I beat I-...

Wait...YES! Of course! I'll buy Castiel's way out of the army! Nobles do it all the time! But it always varies from place to place and how long the war is expected to go on. Still in grieve but confident of my idea I threw the note to the bed and stepped forward facing Castiel.

"No...NO! I won't allow it! I won't let you be sent to some war that might kill you! I-I'll buy your way out! That's it! I'll pay off your draft notice so that you can stay with me!" I said before running over to my safe that held a good portion of my savings.

"Yuuta..." I heard Castiel say softly but I had no time to listen to his humbleness! His life is far more important than some coin!

"Its okay Castiel! Just let me open this safe and take out some gold! I don't know how much we'll need, do you have any idea?" I asked him putting in the combination.

"Yuuta" Castiel said a bit louder taking a step closer to me.

"2,000? No maybe 4,000? I suppose I could sell some stuff or offer them some useless decorations that are worth some gold!" I said louder trying to suppress Castiel's words.

"Yuuta!" He said loudly as the safe opened and inside there was a massive bag of gold. I forgot the last time I counted it but I remember having over 10,000!

"Castiel I have over 10,000 gold pieces in this bag! I am willing to spend every last coin to keep you here with me!" I cried out before Castiel slammed his fist against the wall making me jump and turn around to look at him.

"YUUTA!" He practically screamed making sure he had my attention like he always will. I froze at what he was doing-why would he be upset at me trying to save him?! What's wrong? Shouldn't he be clinging to me begging me to save him from the draft?!

"You can't spend any gold..." He said dropping his fist looking down at the ground...I could sense his sadness...

"W-Why? Why not?!" I cried out.

"Because this draft came from your father personally!!!" He screamed back as I froze like ice...m-my father? Sent him the draft personally? T-That-...that means.

When a king personally sends a draft it means he was always interested in that certain someone. Like he's heard of their skill and wants to have him test out their abilities in combat, other times its said that they use it to get rid of unwanted people. Send them away and let them die far away...but-but why would my father do that!? That means I can't buy Castiel's draft away!!!

"Your father.... personally wants me to go to Nebian. I-It said in the draft letter....that you apparently talked about my skill and he was interested...Do you remember the captain tests? The one I never got my results back from? I thought that maybe they lost it Yuuta but they didn't...your father took it. He wanted to see my results and-...and I guess they pleased him. Originally he was considering sending you to Nebian but according to the draft letter he decided it was too dangerous so...like always I was the clear secondary choice...that whatever happens to me would likely happen to you." Castiel said as I was left paralyzed by this...I looked at the bed to see a small stack of papers...i-it really is Castiel's captain results...

T-The letter...the captain tests...my words from before....the party when I told him Castiel was a good warrior. I-It was my fault that Castiel is being sent away?...I'm the one responsibly for possibly sending him to his death?...a sudden strike hit my heart as I began to cry. Sobbing loudly as Castiel came closer to me.

"N-No...I-I just...I didn't mean to send you-" I pleaded almost thinking Castiel was going to hit me, possible scream that he hated me and run away...and worse...possibly die.

"I know...I know you wouldn't do this intentionally Yuuta. We were rivals back then you had to be honest in front of your father. I do not blame you...I will always love you Prince Yuuta Michaels." He said going on his knees to embrace me tight.

Like a new born kitten I embraced him, I held him tight hoping that maybe if by some miracle if I held him tight enough he would stay with me. I wanted to still find someway to keep him here but it was pointless.

"Did my parents find out about us?! Is this punishment for our relationship?! Please Castiel if this is just tell and I'll tell my father it was I that seduced you. That I tackled you down and forced you to be my mate! Whatever you have to say just make me seem the one who made the first move!" I screamed into his chest.

"No...I don't think your parents know about the relationship...if they did they would have enlisted me then exiled me...so even if I did come home I wouldn't be allowed to stay." He said and even though it did offer some comfort but the words...if I did come home slashed my heart.

"B-But what if I took you place instead? I-I know this seems drastic b-but say if you got injured like a broken leg or arm they couldn't possibly see any use in you a-and they would have to send me! I would leave you a handful of servants to work your fields while I'm gone." I pleaded offering anything I could think of at the moment.

I felt Castiel shook his head no. I cursed his good nature-why doesn't he become more greedy dammit!!! His good nature was why I feel in love with him but-but this is different! No one-not even the gods could blame him if he let others take the fall this time!

"I love you so much. Everything will be alright Yuuta" He softly said trying to reassure me but I continued to whimper and sob in his embrace.

"No it won't! You don't need to go! Its wrong! Not after I finally have my dream mate! You have to stay! This is the worst!" I cried like a child.

I remembered long ago, I wanted this to happen. I despise my old self for wanting Castiel away. If it weren't for Castiel I would still be the snot I was...I owe him everything but I can't repay him if he gets sent to war!

"Come on Yuuta its going to be okay. Look at it on the bright side...I mean I might finally make a name for myself. I might become a hero out of this. I'm sure they would let us take some possessions that could worth money so you might not even have to buy a place for me....a-and think about possible battle scars you can adore when I come back." He said with hesitation at the last one as I flinched at the words.

B-Battle scars? When I was little I thought battle scars were the way to tell a warriors worth. That scars were their proof of deeds. As a child I was told to admire those things but now...imagining Castiel with-with horrible wounds on his perfect body.

My dreams went into a nightmare as I pictured Castiel with a horrible slash on his back...a-a deep gash on his chest. I shivered at the thought. N-No...no I love Castiel the way he is! There is no need to litter his body with wounds! It would almost be like each wound was an insult at my mateship. Even the littlest scar would cut my soul so deep that I couldn't protect my mate. I dug my claws into Castiel's shirt determined to let him go.

"N-No! I don't like that! I want you to be okay! I want to love you the way you are!" I pleaded for him to stay but he patted my back and shook his head again softly.

I think I cried on his shoulder for a few minutes before he took a deep breath in.

"I'm sorry Yuuta but I have to go now." He said sadly trying to stand up but I held him down with my weight still not letting him go. It was determination of wills right now. If I let go of him my love for him was weaker than his loyalty to Riften. My love for him can only be matched by his love for me and I don't care if my parents see me like this! CASTIEL IS MY LOVER AND I WILL NEVER LET HIM GO!!!

"N-NO! P-Please...bed me. Lets have one last night before you leave." I said before Castiel sighed.

"I'm sorry, as much as I want to we must prepare for the march tomorrow. We are going to Bornir to meet up with the rest of the troops and join the armada. I love you so much Yuuta Michaels...remember that..." He said before pressing his lips against mine and-and...

D-Damn him! Damn him! He knows I can't resist a passionate kiss at this moment. He knows I would have to let him go and enjoy every second of what could be our last kiss! He knew that this kiss would drain my will to keep him!

I savored the kiss. I pulled his face so close trying to get my tongue as deep as it could in his mouth. Heat was mixing with my tears as for a moment I prayed that Castiel's plan backfired and that he was going to let me bed him again before he left but suddenly he pushed me away standing up regaining his composure.

"I will return Yuuta...pray for return my love." He said before going to the door. A swarm of emotions mixed around in my mind. Part of me wanted to cry for this horrible day. Another wanted to curse myself and my father.

I was left stunned, I couldn't moved I just sat there as my beautiful mate went to the door looked back one time...and smiled softly before saying "I love you" again and shutting the door.

The second I heard the door slam a rush of tears flooded to my eyes. I broke down on the floor holding myself tight and whimpering. T-Today was suppose to be happy-I-I was going to mate him again and-and touch him. W-We were going to go on more dates! I-I was planning to-...b-but hes gone!! My dream mate is gone and its all my fault!!

I don't know how long I laid there on the floor. A small puddle of my tears formed on the wooden floor as my tail curled up to my chest trying to make up for pleasant feeling of having Castiel in my arms...but it was a hopeless effort.

It was nighttime when I found myself on the bed still crying. I don't know when I got up from the floor but it must have been hours. I looked out at the city from the open balcony door...part of me finding some peace in its beautiful view but another part of me hated it.

Are you happy?! Is war what you really want?! Such a beautiful place and your willing to die for stupid glory?! H-How dare you look beautiful and break my heart...h-how dare you just go away thinking that glory is what I really want...dammit haven't I said that I loved you for what you are?! Not for the glory or-or...

I realized at the time I wasn't just thinking about Riften...but of Castiel. Why did he just give up? Why didn't he protest to my father?! I would have stood by him!! Why?! Why is this happening now?! Why when I finally was happy for once in my life?! Why?!

I don't know when I feel asleep but when I did...it was bad, awful. I twisted and turned all over. Desperately using the blankets and pillows as a poor substitute for Castiel's back. I tossed them aside as my body burned with desire, it wanted to get up, walk to the barracks holding the troops, grabbed Castiel by the arm and drag him and have passionate sex with him.

I remember on a side note in the Tiger Mating Habits book that tigers who are used to scheduled mating can handle it...but if its put off the desire is like torture to them...and I was going to have to bare it for weeks...months....years maybe!

Still whimpering I looked over to my side, it was use to seeing Castiel's healthy brown hair, my nose use to his scent of arousal. My tail wanting to wrapped around his legs and tease his length but he wasn't here.

I moaned in despair. A frown on my face the whole night. I found myself up the whole night, not catching a wink of sleep. It was the worst night I had ever slept. It was still the early morning though.

Father wouldn't be up until 8 or so. I was frustrated not only at myself but at him! Father I trusted you!! Aren't you suppose to tell me about such things?! I was going to make him sorry for all this!

I had to kill some time, anything to make that lazy bastard wake up faster!!! I went over to my books and opened up one of them. It didn't matter which I just had to concentrate until...

"Read it to me Yuuta..." I heard a voice say I thought maybe all this had been a daydream as I saw for a moment Castiel in my lap...looking sleepy as I held the book in front of us...him resting his head against my chest as we had done on some nights...but when I blink...he was gone.

I tried to read the book bu-but it just! I threw the book to the floor gripping my head in frustration at my past self! Dammit! You idiot! Why didn't you lie?! Why didn't you say Castiel is not fit to be a soldier?! He is only suited to be my mate. To kiss and hold him! Not to put armor on and fight!

I tried everything to kill some time but it was just torture. Finally when 8 arrived I got out of my room looking around desperately for my father. An evil glare and fire in my eyes told the servants to keep away unless I addressed them directly...which I did for one maid girl.

"My father where is he?!" I demanded as she stuttered

"H-He's in the war room or his study Prince Yuuta" She answered as I moved to his study first being closer.

I opened the door to see him reading a book on his desk with a smokers pipe in his mouth. He looked up to acknowledge me then nodded.

"Ah Yuuta what is it my son?" He asked as stood there...I-I thought I was ready to yell at him but-but the memories of what he did to me in the past...the horrible training...I-I was frozen for a moment and no words found there way to my mouth. The rage in my heart disappeared as I looked at my father from a distance.

He was still in shape. He was bigger, faster, and smarter than me. He made that clear to me when I began training and-and if I confronted him with heated words and if we fought I-...I would most likely lose and dishonor him.

"I-...I heard we are at war...i-is that true?" I asked as he paused for a moment and nodded his head.

"Yes...we have decided to send some troops over to Nebain to help." He answered blunty.

"B-...But father I thought we would never get involved in conflict unless it involved Riften directly...Nebain is over a hundred miles away. We have hardly any history with them!" I protested as my father looked puzzled.

"Yuuta we aren't really at war with anyone. You see at a council meeting it was decided that none of the other nations wanted to be directly involved with the war in Nebain. It was then offered that instead of offering troops that send either unwanted criminals, famous heroes, or hopeful citizens. If we do end up losing the war Nebain cannot claim we were directly involved. Besides it might eliminate the criminals and make others into heroes." My father said putting down a book and looking at me curiously.

"W-Why order a draft of hopeful citizens? Why send people by force?!" I protested as I paused for moment...n-no I can't be suspected of-

But it was too late my father tilted his head in confusion of what I meant. I-If he suspected that Castiel and I were mates then Castiel will still be sent to war and I would practically forced to marry some high town demon! N-Never! I would choose exile or going to war with Castiel instead!

"How did you know I sent a draft Yuuta? There was only one person I sent a draft for and I thought you and him were bitter rivals at school. Castiel right? I thought you told me that you would be glad to see Castiel sent away?" He asked as I hesitated.

My heart wanted to scream in rage "No he is my mate and my eternal love! I would never allow my mate to be sent away!" Another part wanted to go back to my hateful attitude if only to lie to my father "Yeah totally send Cas-..."...no-no I can't even think about saying something so awful! I can't admit my feelings if I wanted to honor Castiel's wish b-but-!

"I-...Its just...I've become fond of him father-as a friend! You see its just that when one day...the day the captain recruitment results were in his results never showed up. He was devastated and even though he could have fought me when I mocked him he told me-...he told me that he admire me father. My arch rival saying he envied my strength. A-And father...." I added as he sat upright expecting some news...s-should I tell him the truth? Should I lie? I-I don't know I-

"I admired him back...h-...he was such an amazing lo-....warrior. We eventually became friends and we started to train with the other in the gym. Father...you've sent me the greatest fighters and trainers from across the continent. All of them have either fallen or taught me all they could know but when it came to Castiel...I was at a stalemate. This low town resident managed to push me to the limit where others who trained their whole lives failed. I fought him once father, never had I experienced such an intense fight as that one. I was bruised and exhausted but despite 'his' humbleness I had to use a forbidden move to win. Father I-...I beg you! Do not send Castiel away! He is my closest-no...my only friend! I owe him much father! Please let me repay him by not sending him to his death!" I pleaded as he stood out of his chair.

He paced for a moment rubbing his chin in a hard decision. I prayed to the gods that my father would listen to my pleads. Then what felt like ages he ended his pacing with a hmph! I held my breath praying for the best.

"So you really are friends? I've heard rumors from the servants that you let low town people in...still I never expected them to be true. Castiel is a fine man...despite having no formal training he did manage to far exceed his peers beside you while still managing his crops! Hmm...No...Castiel is going to Nebain." He ended as my face once hopeful for a positive answer dropped in terror. I stood up from my kneeling position with my fur upright.

"What?! Why?!" I demanded.

"Castiel is a low town resident. I was considering sending you Yuuta but this war is dangerous. Nebain is a tribal jungle kingdom with fighting techniques we've never seen. I can't risk my only child to warfare I have never seen! Castiel was the obvious choice! A capable fighter and built body but with no family or relatives and no care given if he dies!" He proclaimed as-as...my mind shattered.

An old part of me had died right there. I-I thought my father was a kind and noble man...The one person who gives all thought to his subjects! Willing to give everyone a chance to explain! B-But hes just a monster! Sending people off to war like it was nothing! Using them as tests so he didn't have to risk his own blood! I-I bet all those stories of him fighting off armies of men, killing monstrous beasts are all lies!!! I bet he's just this fat bastard who sits in his castle all day working out to keep up the looks of a hero but is a coward underneath it all! He pushed me to my limits! He made me cry and breakdown in front of others to "toughen me up" yet never actually allowed me to test my abilities in combat!....T-That son of a bitch!

That's it! IT MUST BE! THE MICHAEL LINE IS NOTHING BUT A LINE OF LIARS, COWARDS, AND STORYTELLERS!! All the stories before are stories of common people like Castiel, taking the fall and pushing themselves to serve till death are the stories the Michaels steal for their own!

I wanted to go on a rampage and start breaking stuff! Everything! What did I ever see in my father?! Why couldn't I see past his greed?! Why-...a sudden angering memory came to mind...when Castiel and I were still fighting he always tried to mock my father claiming that he was nothing and he was right! My past pride self was wrong on every level!

"F-Father.... how could you?!" I demanded, as he looked taken aback by my outburst.

"Why would you care my son? This isn't worth the trouble...think about Castiel is a low town resident...and think about all the fame and money he could gain!" He said as I paused...

"What?"

"Its not like I want him to die or anything. I have no personal grudge against him though knowing low town feet were walking in my halls are...troubling. Anyway if Castiel comes back I will give him money and credit. I have confidence in his abilities I just-...I just didn't want to risk you my son..." He said suddenly saddened.

"I-I thought sending him away was going to be a plus for you but I can see I was wrong but Yuuta...despite sending your friend away I did this to protect you son. Yuuta...you've made me so proud. You've exceeded my expectations and made me a proud father. The only thing I'm saddened by is the choice of suitors I find. I understand some of them are...poor in taste but I was hoping that one day you would find your lover. So that she would give you a great house until the day you took up the throne after me. Yuuta...I love you my son. You're the continuation of the Michael bloodline. Make us proud." He said as now I was-...I was conflicted.

I still had anger at him for sending my secret mate to an unnecessary war but did he really do it to just protect me? Did he really think that highly of me? Is the Michael bloodline that important to him?

"F-Father...are all the stories of the Michaels true?...or were some of them lies?" I asked as he sighed.

"Some are true...Some of us really gave life and limb for this land. I know this doesn't seem something like a Michael would do Yuuta but I thought it would help people for the better. The Michaels are not perfect but people look up to us. If we were cowards they would loose faith. Our ancestors who gave their lives for this land before would be for nothing. I will keep the Michael bloodline alive, for the good of all Riften." He said looking out the window.

I-...I didn't even know what to even think anymore. W-Was this really for the better of Riften? But still why Castiel?! Why make him have no choice but to go?! Father was probably led into a trap in the council, if he didn't agree to send some aid against Nebain he would look weak and cowardly making our people lose faith in him. I don't know if I cherish the Michael name as much as I do now but I still see how much it means to my father.

"T-Thank you father...I'll leave you alone now." I said before closing the door. I stood there facing his door again...he talked me down again. I-I practically let him dominate the conversation again...

I went back to my room and dropped on my bed. Wondering what I should feel? Anger towards my father still? Sadness for my mate being gone?...I laid there for a moment. My heart, my mind, my pride all in a deadlock debate. If Castiel survived he would be rich according to my father...then maybe I could marry him. But I promised never to let him suffer again. Never to know what it was like to feel unloved, something the army never does.

I clenched the blankets tight as tears flooded my eyes. Castiel could become that famous knight he always wanted to be, he could have swarms of fans worshipping his every move! B-But I already do! I love him for who he is not for what he's done!

No...This is wrong. Castiel must be my mate. He doesn't have to go to war I love him for him. He's always been there for me and-...and I can't save him. A sudden swarm of pity and regret flooded my thoughts again. Even if this is wrong, I can't go after him! So am I basically like a maiden now? Just wait for my soldier mate to return and pray he's still alive thinking about me?

A sudden trumpet sound broke my thoughts. I jumped out of bed and went to the balcony seeing a large group of people in the center. Even from a great distance you can see the soldiers all neatly ordered and marching towards low town and towards Bornir to join the armada. People at their side throwing them flowers as is common for prayers, prayers of strength and safety.

I-I once again felt a flood of sadness...no...No this isn't right! There were no cheers coming from the crowd the soldiers even from a distance all looked sluggish as if knowing they will die! This isn't the way Riften should be led! People don't need personal glory to live happy lives!

"Castiel!!! Castiel!!! Come back my love! Don't go!!!" I screamed from the balcony but I knew he could never hear my words.

"Don't leave me Castiel! You're the only one I want to love! You're the only one I need! Don't die for Riften! Live for me! Don't think that you are going to die!!! Come back!!!" I continued screaming but the soldiers marched onwards-numbering maybe 200 to 300 men. One of those men is my man...my lover...my mate.

I gave up as I saw the soldiers leave the city limits and going past the hills. He-He's gone...I felt my whole body go numb. I collapsed on the balcony barely able to feel my legs. I was whimpering softly to myself before it turned to sobbing...then crying.

"C-Castiel!" I said to myself praying this was all some horrible dream. I wanted to wake up with him in my arms. I wanted to hold him so tight and never let go.

I somehow managed to get to my bed. Once again tossing and turning irritably. My body cold and itchy. It needed Castiels warmth on me again, it needed to feel his smooth skin rub against my fur.

Was is this happening? Why does this happen to me after I get mate of my dreams? Stupid father.... Stupid RIFTEN!! STUPID MICHAELS!!! STUPID NEBAIN!!! Why?! Why does that bitch of a queen think just because her dumbass son got rightfully killed in a duel he likely started means that she has the right to send other peoples mates, sons, and friend off to their deaths!!! IF I WAS KING RIGHT NOW I WOULD HAVE GLADLY GONE AGAINST HER!!! Is this the glorious war I pictured when I was little?! The great battle of good and evil?! NO! Its just some stupid revenge!!!

"Yuuta calm down..." I heard a faint voice say. The room was suddenly black...every direction as black as midnight but that voice it-it sounded like-!

Then as if the gods had given me my wish I saw Castiel in all his beauty standing front of me maybe about 40 feet away! I shot up and started sprinting towards him, he stood still but it didn't matter! I knew I was going to tackle him down and kiss him with fiery passion. But as I dove at him-

H-He turned to dust...his built frame, his very presence gust disappeared and all that was left was a pile of ash on the ground. I froze...my blood was ice. My eyes felt like they were going to drop out of their sockets by how wide and open they were in shock. Another voice then filled my ears...my fathers voice.

"I'm sorry Yuuta. I guess not even Castiel could fight off the tribes of Nebain. May he find happiness in the next life as he found none here." He said as the dust in my hands and ground completely vanished and in front of me maybe ten feet away this time were 3 graves...

The furthest to the left read "Traven Amiel...dutiful husband and loving father until his untimely end. Killed in the plague."

The middle read" Dalora Amiel...loyal wife and caring mother until her passing. Kill in the plague."

Then the right...and my heart sank as each letter formed the most horrible message ever. "Castiel Amiel...hardworking son and hopeful youth cut down too soon. Killed in the Nebain War." It read as-as...the image of it stained my mind. A scar that I could never remove! I-I

"Casstttiiieeeelllll!!!!I screamed before suddenly-!

A woke up with a gasp! I was pouring sweat from the nightmare and the sun started to beat its rays down on my fur. I was panting as if I had just ran away from my biggest fear...probably because I experienced it in my dreams...wait! Maybe-!

I turned to my side hoping to see Castiel's hair or his face but...nothing. The bed was bare...literally. Everything, the blankets, the pillows all on the floor. I knew the reason why everything was a mess of course...instinctively I would always grab hold of Castiel when we mated in case if I had a bad dream. It's only happened twice but I held him every night just as a precaution...and for other sensual reasons.

But Castiel wasn't here...he's...wait...maybe! Maybe it still was a dream but we're really not at war! That Castiel is home right now working his fields! My door then opened knocking my thoughts away made me jump in surprise. It was Flynn my fox butler.

"Lord Yuuta. Its very late in the morning. If you do not hurry you will be late for school." He warned in his professional tone as my new butler before I asked.

"Wait! Flynn...has there been any word from the soldiers who left for Nebain?!" I asked as he tilted his head.

"Any word from soldiers to Nebain?" He asked, as I was hopeful that I was telling him my dream out loud.

"My lord they've only been gone for a day. It will take them maybe 2 weeks for the armada to be prepared to go to battle." He said as...as I knew....t-this was real...

Castiel really was gone. He really is off to war. Oh how badly I wish I had gone with him. A thought filled my head as I pictured Castiel and myself at camp me guarding him like he was the general or war plans. Then at night having him every second I wanted and touching every last part of him.

Ohhh my fur tingled at the thought of bedding him again like I hadn't in years...but its only been 8 days. We never did have sex on the promised day...the day when he told me he was leaving. If I had known 2 weeks ago that would have been my last night I would have made it more special! I would have done all the kinky, passionate, and romantic stuff all those books said before he left.

But he's gone...I can't touch him again until he comes back...which might be months, years maybe! All I can do now is try to pass time by whatever means necessary...and I guess that means school.

I excused Flynn from my room as I got changed into my outfit...a sudden rush of warmth hit me as I remember Castiel...would always button my uniforms while he was still naked...how tempting it was to just forget the clothes and go straight back to making love to him on the bed all day.

Still for the coming months now I had to do everything by myself now...alone...with no chance of being touched in such a way Castiel has touched me.

My tail that was once happy, content so much that I forgot about it practically once again slumped down like on the days before I knew Castiel was such an amazing lover. It was dragged across the floor and sidewalks as I went to the mid town school and into the class room.

I-I had to focus! I had to concentrate on the tiniest details of every assignment if I must! Anything to make time fly past so I can hold Castiel again! Lets see even though I'm a bit early lets look at all the things in the classroom. The chalkboard still had the white stains from last weeks pop quiz. The books on the shelves were ordered from Math, History, Science, and Combat except for a one Math book being over on the History shelf and leaving an open space in the Math shelf. The desks were organized from 6 in width to 5 in length.

One of them had marks that day when I class was over and Castiel and I made out passionately in here after school. My claws grind against the wooden table as I enjoy the sweet flavor of his lips and tasting his moist tongue. I had such a rush that I pushed him against the desk and took off his shirt. I had no intention of letting one part of him felt unloved and untouched that day. I remember thinking back that I was going to have classroom sex with him and-

Before I knew it I was thinking about Castiel again...the plan to just point out every detail was backfiring on me. I then decided to do only general stuff. Basic things we study.

O-Okay so in Math we learn about the Patheogeom theory and in Science we learn about mixing sulfur with floride. Then in Combat we learn about self defense with a mace and History we learn about the Tiyor Wars. Then finally we go to the art class and draw or paint something related to love. Love that must be so passionate...like say...a noble and peasant kissing in a field...or on a date in a fancy café. Maybe even paint the noble and the peasant right in the bed making fiery love with each other with their bodies...yes and it must be forbidden...that's what makes it a special love. Both boys who've known each other for years then come out as lovers...each eagerly exploring the others body. One of the lovers should be someone I can relate to like a tiger...and the other should be...a human-yes a human. A human with brown hair and eyes. A sweet smile and personality but with a beautiful body. The tiger falls completely mad in love first. Then after facing challenges of personal feelings and worth they have a magical kiss and a time in bed as-....

Dammit....Dammit. I thought to myself as I pounded my head against my desk. I can't get him out of my mind. I love him so much, I need him so bad. It was a struggle every minute of each class. When the students arrive I couldn't help but look over to Castiel's desk. Seeing it empty and not because he's working but because he's at war.

A few other students didn't arrive as they too were sent off and some came in with sad faces, they had loved ones and family that were sent away to. All of them are low town people. W-Why? Why couldn't Castiel stay and some other low town person be sent?

I can't help but feel blamed in class, no students dare confront me about my fathers actions as I am the strongest...but right now I am at my weakness. I think right now if someone wanted to beat me I would let them. I was doing it already to myself anyway.

I don't know how I survived the school day. It was sooo slow!! Every minute seem to be longer than the other! All I could do was think about fantasies about me and Castiel making love! Gods thank goodness school is over so I can go over to his house and-...

I stopped realizing my situation...no he's gone Yuuta. Dammit! I can't think straight. I was use to my routine of checking my mate and loving him up. In fact, that's how I passed the days. Each day I visited him, spoke to him, studied with him, worked with him when I could, then finally made love to him an split second chance I had.

I find it strange now that if father really cared about me then why would he be okay with me being gone most of the day? Whatever, being angry at him won't solve anything...I can only wait...wait and kill time.

I went back to my castle...and it felt empty even with all the servants and decorations still being there. It felt...unwelcoming. When I would enter with Castiel it was always fun to sneak him in, avoiding the servants and telling him about our day plans.

My tail was still slumped to the ground, I couldn't find anyway to make it slightly excited in anyway. I sighed to myself realizing every day for months...this was the feeling I was going to have to deal with. Gods I hope Nebain surrenders right away. I hope the king will realize this isn't worth other lives...what am I talking about? All the soldiers are low town people...lesser creatures compared to the eyes of nobles. If the peasants of one city had a problem with the other, say even if they took their children in for slavery the nobles wouldn't declare war its not important...but I'm sure that if one noble just said "he looks ugly" I'm sure all the nobles would be declaring hatred and war against the other!!! OH but make sure we don't risk any noble lives, just send in the low town people...I'm really starting to curse my noble blood.

I decided to go to the gym maybe working out will make these days go by. I opened the gym but not feeling the rush as I usually would when I would enter with Castiel...on those days it was always a mystery what would happen. Weight lifting contest, Last man running on the treadmill, sparring, a nice little wrestling match. It was always a good time but now that feeling is gone...like so many other things in my life.

I changed into my training shorts and thought for a moment...maybe punching something will make me better. I went over to the punching bag and got into a stance, trying to envision an opponent...what did I always use to imagine before? Oh yeah fighting Castiel. I gave a punch with a left hook...then a light right jab...then a soft below punch before resting my head against the bag.

I-I can't...I can't think about anger right now. If the punching bag was Castiel the only things I would be doing to it would be tackling it and kissing it. Maybe running? I went to the treadmills and started to run, run as fast as I could. I was imagining myself running after Castiel. It was somewhat working before my ears twitch.

"Yuuta slow down...I don't think you can even hear me." I heard Castiel's voice say as I looked to my side...t-the treadmill Castiel would use is empty but when we did run we talk to each other while running, which would turn to walking then eventually just talking.

Was I no longer a fighter in my mind? Was I just a lover? Yes...I know I am. These hands that were once used for punching and clawing, used for combat reasons now think that they should only be used for holding my mate and touching his body.

I exited the gym hoping it was night or maybe by some spell months had past...not even an hour had passed. I was annoyed and frustrated, I literally decided to look in every room in the castle to kill time and it did kill 2 hours but nothing changed...it sure wasn't exciting either.

I found my way back to my room. I went over to the chess board...remembering the intense matches Castiel and I had...once we had both become angry over the position of a piece...the argument was settled when Castiel laid on the table and we made love the rest of the day. I thought to myself with a blush. We had such passion, it wasn't lust. Sure right now as a tiger I am going through the physical stage but according to the books when that passes I become a hopeless romantic...which I already think I am.

I played with myself in chess and got bored, I guess I wasn't an interesting opponent so I decided to read the books...only to be either haunted with the reality that Castiel won't be in my lap when I read them or blessed to remember the times when we did.

This whole day was dragged out. It was slow and unbearable but finally I was going to get the second day passed me. I shuddered for a moment about the night now...I know I'm probably going to still be tossing and turning, grabbing my blankets and try to use them as a substitute for Castiel's body...which they never do.

It took awhile but I finally found sleep after having to tire myself with boring speeches and lectures I make to the class in the future. When I did my dreams formed...a-and I pleasantly surprised.

I was looking at a field...a field of wheat. In the middle was this lone tree. It was a bit windy outside but that comfortable breeze everyone likes. The wheat looked like an ocean almost as I began to see the figure of 2 people sitting beneath the tree. When I got closer it-...it was me.... and Castiel.

Castiel was in my lap and I was holding him tight from behind...we were both sleeping, each of us had a smile on their face as I began to envy my dream self right now. I don't know how long I looked at them but the next thing that happened was when we woke up and we looked at each other.

"Yuuta....I love you...but am I really good enough for you? I mean you could have anyone in the world, so many better people than me and-" The dream Castiel said

"Castiel...you are the best person for me. I've loved you since the day I met you. I will never accept anyone else but you." My dream self said before they kissed deeply. Once again having a tingle of envy for my dream self.

Then the mood of the dream took a different turn. I couldn't help but see a distant glow in the distance...a glow of-...of fire! The forest behind us was on fire but-...but this wasn't a Riften forest...it looked tropical, jungle even like those on Nebain. I then saw people in tribal and shining armor fighting the other with banners of Riften and Nebain flying everywhere before I heard.

"Yuuta!!! Help!!" Castiel screamed as I woke up again.... panting and sweating again like the last time. Once again the bed was a mess and bare. I pressed my hands against my eyes cursing my night. Was forever doomed to have nightmares when Castiel is gone?

It was like the gods were cursing my actions when I just gave up on Castiel. They poisoned me with thoughts about our love but yet leave me in this cruel reality.

What could Castiel be doing right now? With no one to hold him, no one to tell him that he was loved and special. What if he's being trained to his limit? What if he's breaking down in tears on how cruelly the others are treating him? My arms on reflex wanted to reach out and hold something but I knew Castiel was gone this time.

The day seemed so much worse this time. The days without Castiel seemed to grow in length and its only been the second day. I hardly cared what I wore today; I grabbed the first things in my closet and headed off to school once again being plagued with thoughts of Castiel coming back to me. At least at first they were thinking about him coming back alive.

In history we talked about a war so awful that many bodies were either burned or lost...and a sudden terror filled my heart. What if Castiel was lost at sea? What if he drowned?! Nebain is an island jungle kingdom and the only way to get there is by ship. Nebain has a powerful navy force and there will likely be sea battles before the troops land on shore...oh gods what if Castiel didn't make it to shore?!

What if he died in combat and I didn't know about it for months later?! I-I must know how he is every day, every hour. I should have begged him to write to me! Like a sobbing fool I never did ask Castiel to send me letters when off to war.

What about the most horrible of all?...if Castiel's...body came back to Riften...oh gods the idea of his face...his beautiful face that once smiled at me. His lips that once kissed me, his cheeks that burned red when I teased him. The idea of that face being pale and cold...a frown on it....lips stiff and unmoving....cheeks gray....i-it so horrible! NO! NO I WOULD NEVER ALLOW IT! I WOULD SPEND MY WHOLE FORTUNE FOR HIM TO COME BACK BY WHATEVER MEANS!

This day was horribly slow. School seemed slower, the rest of the day seemed pointless. I will admit being male and mated I did have the-the thought of touching myself. After dinner I went upstairs and tried to pleasure myself b-but I just couldn't. It was use to having Castiel's body to make love too! Touching myself seemed impossible for me.

I wrote down things...things I would do when Castiel returned in a notebook I never used. My own little way to keep hope. Just naming a few I would tackle him down and kiss him, I will take him on the most romantic dates, I will give him the most special of presents, I will make the sweetest love to him, I will bring him to the most exotic of places, I will care for him as a true mate would, I will buy him a new house.... the list goes on for 13 more pages...and that was only today's thoughts.

There was actually another party tonight. It was relatively small considering most. I took deep breaths preparing to act noble again and trying to forget I would never have someone I could relate to again. When I brought Castiel to these parties I could be myself. Even if it was more talking between him and I it finally felt like I was really in a party for once.

This party though was awful. How did I survive these things before Castiel. I practically feel asleep from some of the things the others bragged about. I knew even before Castiel was my mate that these parties were boring but with him being gone now do I realize the true meaning of boredom.

My parents had to go meet with another noble family and wouldn't be back for a week or so. I was somewhat glad from that news, I can't bare to look at my father anymore. Its like he's a different man to me.

Finally nighttime had come both to my relief and dread. Relief that another day had gone by and I was another step closer when Castiel returns...and dread for the dream I might have. Try to stay positive...think about the mansion you will live in, the memories to be had, the love to be made! I told myself hoping my dreams would listen...they did the complete opposite.

Nearly immediately when I feel asleep I found myself in a jungle set ablaze with fire. I could hear screaming and fighting coming from all directions. Bodies littered the ground and blood was everywhere.

I then saw a clearing in the jungle. In the center of the clearing was a Riften flag waving proudly despite being covered in holes. All around it were bodies of both Nebain tribals and soldiers. All of them dead...except one. One man still standing carrying a sword and shield. I could many bodies of tribals around him as he had killed many of his foes...but he looked exhausted...he hair was brown though in a mess and it was wet with sweat. His eyes were black from lack of sleep and exhaustion from fighting. His armor though shined from the jungle fire....

It was Castiel...

My arms in real life started to reach over to the other side of my bed. He doesn't need to fight, he can be safe with me! I said in my thoughts before tribal screaming from the jungle in my dreams broke my thoughts.

Castiel mustered the strength to block a blow from tribal that swung down on him with an axe. Castiel then stuck his blade through the mans chest killing him then quickly deflected another blow from behind from another tribal carrying a machete looking weapon. Castiel quickly sliced his chest and the man feel to the ground dead.

My arms started to search the bed a bit more thoroughly now. N-No he doesn't need to fight! He can rest, he must rest! Just let me take care of them! I wanted to cry out before the dream turned horribly worse. A whistling sound from the battle in my dream echoed until I heard the sound of armor being pierced....to my horror I saw Castiel having an arrow in his back...the armor did not protect him fully. A saw a little stream of blood coming from the arrow penetration as Castiel started breathing and grunting heavily. Obviously in pain from the famous Nebain arrows rumored to pierce through just about any armor.

I gasped in real life as my hand started frantically searching the bed for Castiel to hold. NO! NO! I-Its okay! I can heal him up and make that bastard who hurt you suffer for it! I'm your mate Castiel let me care for you!!! I screamed not wanting the dream to continue but it did.

Though in pain Castiel continued to fight on. The archer who shot the arrow came charging at him with a dagger but with Castiel having the larger blade and range he quickly cut down the charging madman. But before he could rest another tribal wielding a battle-axe tried to slice him down. Castiel barely managed to get his shield up in time to avoid a killing blow. The shield shattered on impact with the massive axe and to my horror I heard the sickening sound of bone breaking...Castiel screamed in pain as his shield arm went limb...his arm had been broken.

I was whimpering out loud now in real life as my arms were in a frenzy to find Castiel and hold him close to me! He is safe with me! I-I will never let anything bad ever happen to him when he's with me!!!

The dream continued as the battle-axe tribal tried again to swing down on him but let him completely open for a kill which Castiel did by piercing his sword through the tribals heart. Castiel had only one good arm left but was already exhausted from other fighting before. Castiel then quickly sliced down another tribal trying to sneak up behind him. But like the cowards the tribals are another one snuck up behind my beautiful mate who's face was now covered with blood and slashed his pickaxe against his kidney. Castiel once again cried out in pain but managed to somehow still stand. It was like I could see his thoughts...if he fell he knew he would never see me again so he was baring the pain for the desire to see me again.

With the remainder of his energy and life he pulled the pickaxe tribal to his sword and killed him but like living in my hell another tribal with a spear charged at him and pierced his right in the gut...Castiel wanted to cry out in pain again and fight on but...that face...the pain it read on his face. The pain of not only the wounds but the reality of that-that he would never see me again broke my very heart.

Castiel tried to stand still despite with the spear still being held on by the heartless tribal but Castiel....he-...he fell..

I heard the sound of a soldier falling, the sound of armor impacting the ground as 2 more tribals came to join the spear tribal one of them holding a sword and the other holding an axe. All of them impaling the poor brave soldier who fought so hard to honor his country to see his mate again...C-Castiel!!!

My arms were in a complete blur right now to find him-find and hold him so tight to me that all my worries and his wounds would disappear!!! I was whimpering crying his name in life on the bed praying he would let me hold onto him again. What did he ever do to deserve this?!?!

The tribals continued their heartless impaling for several moments before moving on to burn the Riften flag and continue the battle...my sight though was on Castiel...o-oh gods...his armors is littered with holes...each of them having so much blood coming out of them...and his face...by the gods his face...turning pale...both in excruciating agony and endless sadness.

His lips were still moving...oh gods he was suffering still. With all those wounds all those slashes and punctures he's still alive. I didn't know to be so horrified that he was still somehow alive by ways that would have easily killed me or hopeful that somehow he might still survive...oh gods he can't survive such wounds! Look at them! CASTIEL!!!

I saw his arm moving up...reaching for the stars...and in his agony...his final breathes he called out.

"Yuuta.....someone.....anyone....help me....w-why? Why won't anyone help me? Why is there no one here?" He cried before his arm went back down...and didn't move again...

I'M HERE! I'M HERE CASTIEL! I LOVE YOU AND I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU!! LET ME HEAL YOU! LET ME SUFFER FOR YOU INSTEAD!!! CASTIEL!!! CASTIEL!!!! I said in my sleep before waking up screaming from my night terror.

This nightmare was different from the rest. The other ones I woke up with a gasp...this one I was screaming and now...I'm shaking. Tears stained my face as I whimpered out in sorrow.... sorrow for my failure to defend and heal my mate in my dreams....the worse thought of it all...Is the fact that.-that it might really happen.

I was visible shaken from the experience. My hand was twitching and I had to hold it in order for it calm down. Eventually my breath started to slow before I laid back down on my nearly bare bed again. Castiel...I want to hold you. I want to love you and kiss you and keep you safe but I can't do anything! I'm just worthless right now.

"You seem like it to me." A voice said, I looked around even if they were cruel words from a miracle Castiel returning I would be alright with it. Then as if my eyes were playing tricks on me in front of me was a tiger...wearing a princely uniform and he had a firm glare directed towards me.

His fur has healthy orange and he looked pissed at someone...the tiger in front of me...was me. The past me, the prideful Michaels are everything me. The foolish and blind past self that hated Castiel before. I can tell because I every since I've been dating Castiel my body became less stiff and I could smile more unlike my past self. I swear if this inner memory is here to tell me to forget about Castiel and worry only about the Michaels I swear I'm-!

"Well look at the mighty Prince Yuuta Michaels now. Bedridden and crying like a baby. Geez I turned pathetic." It said to me as I glare at it back.

"Shut up. Like you know what its like to be in love. Do you really think the Michael name is all that? It's a stupid name with history that for all we know is a lie. Like your any better than me." I said back to it.

"I am better than you because unlike you when I want something I go get it!!!" It shouted back as I paused stunned at what he told me.

"What?"

"You heard me when I want something I go get it...anything I want, an object, a title....or a mate in trouble." It said to me as my jaw opened in disbelief...w-was this past part of me telling me what I think it was?

"Yuuta your mate is in trouble. Yuuta you knew just like I did back then if there was anyone you wanted to mate with it was going to be with Castiel. When Castiel was about to be sold as a butler I took action to save him unlike you know who's sitting here and crying like a woman." It said to me harshly...but these words were not meant to hurt...they were meant to build a fire in me...

"B-But father sent him away by-" I said back before my past self growled.

"Your father is nothing more but a man! He doesn't know true love because he was forced to be with his suitor! You are a better man than him if your willing to go against every word he suggests and get your man back! Do you think all the Michael heroes got famous by obeying the wishes or their parents and by playing it safe?! They all went against the norm! They all were willing to risk everything to get something they wanted! Castiel is the thing you wanted Yuuta! He's what you need!!" It told me as I sat up feeling energized.... hopeful even for the first time in these miserable days!

"Y-YES! But how?" I asked as my past self look at my safe.

"Money does have its uses Yuuta. You have over 10,000 coins in the bag and you must be willing to part with everyone to get your man back! Think about it Yuuta! You could easily bribe the army to either let you in to join or buy Castiel out! It may be the heroic going to slay the dragon to save your mate but we Michaels heroes did what we had to back then to get where we are in history!" The past self loudly...with a smile.

"Y-Yes! I will! I'll spend every last coin to be with him again! I'll travel all the way to Bornir on foot if I have too! I won't rest until I have him in my sights! Castiel is my mate! My mate and mine alone! Gold is useless and honor is pointless without love!!! T-Thank you..." I told myself as it nodded...then disappeared.

Immediately I stood up and rushed over to my closet. I pulled out a traveling beg most people would carry if they went hiking or camping. I started to pack some clothes but not noble clothes, practical things, casual. I am not a prince right now, right now I am a tiger in love with his human mate! And he's willing to do anything to get him back!

I put on my low town clothes, the ones I would always wear when visiting him, and went to the safe. I put the combination in quickly and opened the safe with all my might...inside was the bag of over 10,000 gold coins. This was my weapon to get Castiel back.

Father is a blind fool. He does not know love and that is his lost, besides like always they are not even here right now so I might even get Castiel back before anyone notices. I stuffed the gold bag inside my traveling bag and went over to the door. I opened it and snuck out of my room and went into the kitchen taking things I would need. Some bottled water, food, pots to cook with, a large cooking knife that would serve as both my weapon and silverware, and lastly some matches. I opened the front castle door and looked outside to make sure the guards wouldn't see me leaving.

There were 2 guards standing by the gate that separated the castle from the rest of high town but after throwing a peddle to the far left the guards both went over to check it out giving me enough time to open the gate and run into mid town.

I was really doing this...I was going against everything a noble Michael would do and-and it feels so good! It feels like I have freedom for the first time! I have the liberty to choose my mate over honor!

I was actually chuckling to myself as I rushed into low town. Is this what it feels like to be a rebel? Something like a thief or a spy? My gods the rush of excitement going through me is almost as addicting as it is to love and mate Castiel!

I ran into low town almost tempted to go to Castiels house and leave some of the gold I have and secretly give it to him but I might need every last coin in order to get him back. Besides when I do get him back he can have anything he wants. Whatever the price and whatever the cost.

As heroic as I felt I did have to be realistic in this situation. Traveling to Bornir on foot would take forever. The army had a week to march there I may only have a few days. I went over to the low town stables. It was a bit past midnight right now so of course they would be closed but I wasn't going to let that stop me. I counted out 500 coins, a more than fair price for a steed, and wrapped it around in a blanket and wrote down a note "For the horse." I then broke into the stables and took the first horse I could find and took off in the direction of Bornir.

The steed was big and fast. I picked him well! The wind blowing against my fur was amazing! It felt like I was doing the thing I was born to do! Riding a horse in the middle of night does have its attractions. The trees and fields of corn being pasted was a beautiful sight and the bright moon was guiding my way.

I was coming Castiel, I'm sorry it took me awhile to gain my confidence but I swear I will be a better man because of it! I know now how important it is to me that I am mated to you! You gave me comfort, you gave me hope! You are my shining knight in armor!

3 days have passed and I am closer to Bornir each day. Right now I can see Bornir in the distance maybe about 10 miles away! The horse was exhausted by the hard travel conditions and I admit I haven't been giving it the breaks it needs. I gave it apples and sugar cubes from traders I bought it from when I could and I promise this horse will get a reward it deserves. Heck I'll make it the most famous horse in Riften!!

But that wasn't a huge concern on my mind right now, I was still thinking about what I have to do to get Castiel back. I'm going to have to either join the specific ship he's on and bribe the captain to let us both leave the army or at least just Castiel. I'm willing to take his place in this war if I have too. I won't probably have to buy myself in the army, I'm sure they take any volunteers they can. The problem is what I ship Castiel will be on.

Looking at Bornir, the port city, even at a distance the ship armada had probably well over a hundred ships some of which were waiting for everyone else to pack up and head out to Nebain. To think that somewhere in that big city...somewhere in one of those big ships is a beautiful human who I mated...and will continue to mate until I die.

My dreams were also getting slightly better with each night traveling. The first night it was just me running after Castiel...but thankfully when I hugged him he didn't turn to ash...he stood there and let me embrace him tight. That's were the first dream ended, sure it was simple and sweet but a lot better than the nightmares in Riften! The second night I had a dream about us making love in the room. Before that I was taking off his armor as we kissed passionately. Now we'll see what this night brings.

Hehe...looking back at it now the 3rd dream was actually quite funny and comical. The dream started out with Castiel and about 30 other tough looking men on the ship. Each of them big, ugly, and disgusting. Castiel was the only clean one and they were ordering him around to clean the entire ship by himself. Castiel looking like the hopeless maid he was said in almost a female like voice.

"Oh I wish some handsome hero would save me right now!"

Then as if in a play and on cue. I dreamed about me in another ship with only myself on it. I was wearing knight armor and a sword at my side and in my arms was a rope. I swung over to the other ship and landed effortlessly like a cool hero would.

Castiel stood up looking at me lovingly like the female would do as the 30 men took offense and withdrew their weapons as did I. Pointing my one sword against their 30, I had a smirk on my face and with a corny heroic voice I said.

"Unhand that beautiful human cleaning your ship you fiends!" I said heroically as they growled and snarled.

"Never! Have at you!" They said as they charged at me. I effortlessly defeated them all until it was only the captain left. He lasted a bit longer than the rest but soon he feel to my blade...it didn't even look like I cut them as they was no blood or screams of pain in usual fighting. Once I had disarmed them or hit them once they fell down and never got up.... literally like this was a bad play.

Then the dream took a different turn as I sheathed my blade and went over to Castiel who looked in awe of my skill and looks. I bent down like a knight would do for a maiden and asked.

"Are you alright love? Those horrible men will never make you clean unreasonably again." I said as Castiel looked so happy from the cheesy line.

"Oh my hero! I can possibly thank you enough!...How-...However shall I repay you?" He asked ending the sentence by ripping open his shirt revealing his beautifully built body to me as my heroic dream self smirk with a teasing grin.

"I can think of one way love." He said crawling over Castiel as suddenly somehow we were in a well-lit room with a bed in red silk and somehow my armor had disappeared. I heard the sounds of a passionate make out and gasps and moans of both of us before I sadly woke up thanks to my horse.

Despite me disappointment of the dream ending early I was still happy to have such a wonderful dream despite how corny it was.

Ha! Chances are the heroic tale will be a 'bit' different in real life it might be just walk up to the enlister "hey I'm looking for Castiel." "Oh really? Okay here he is" "thanks here's the money to pay him out of the army." "Okay thanks, have a nice mating Castiel and Yuuta!" Haha! For once I was smiling about this.

Today was going to be fine! I rode into Bornir and they were clearly busy with all the affairs it takes to build an army. The streets were literally crowded so much people barely had shoulder space. The street merchants had to yell at the top of their lungs to fight back against the commotion of Bornir.

Right now I had to find a stables to put this fair steed in and find the enlister. With my horse in hand and keeping a close eye on my bag I moved through the crowds making sure no tried to steal the coin I planned to use to buy Castiel out of the army.

Still it was taking such a long time to find anything of use in this crowd! I suppose with the army being here business would be up but I was having difficulty seeing 20 feet in front of me! I had to find my way out of the crowds!

I looked around despairing that I hadn't found a stable yet. I considered just letting the steed go into the crowd but for all I know it could find its way to the butcher shop. The horse deserved better than that...until

"B-But I paid for 2 horses! I must return to the farm with 2 horse my father said so!" I heard a young voice of a boy said.

I looked around before seeing a boy with a female horse in his hands begging to this bull who had his arms crossed and didn't look happy.

"Tough luck kid. The army needed horses and they gave me more money than your father did. And don't ask for a refund, we don't give refunds back." The bull said sternly and heartlessly.

"B-But-!"

"Get lost!" The bull screamed before slamming his door in the boys face. The boys began to sniffle and cry before I took pity on him.

"Hey..." I said going over to him.

"N-No this horse is not for sale I don't care if your from the army of not! I-I need to return with something!!" He cried out not even looking at me before I touched his shoulder gently that made him look up...it was a human boy...with brown hair and eyes...he was cute, he almost looked like Castiel when he was little.

"O-Oh I'm sorry I thought- I didn't mean to accuse its just..." He said wiping his tears as I smiled but felt bad for the boy.

"What happened? What's wrong?" I asked

"My father bought 2 horses from this dealer before the war was declared. We had finally saved enough money to move to Gilda and have a better life. We only needed 2 horses to pull the wagon b-but the dealer already sold one of the horses to the army! I-I don't know if we can move the wagon with just one horse! We already sold our house here and we're moving into the farm in Gilda tomorrow b-but!" he said before I pat down on his head rubbing his soft hair. He was like a little Castiel. With a smile and looking back at my steed I handed the boy the reins.

"Here you can have my horse. He served me well and I can't take care of him for much longer. He'll be much happier on your farm." I said as the both looked so happy but yet concerned about something else.

"B-But I don't have any money! I should-" He said trying to be humble. Before I hatched a cute idea. If he was like Castiel he won't take it unless he really did have the money. With a quick motion I took out a small bag of gold coins and placed it in his pocket when I told that I saw his father behind him..., which was a lie.

"That's not my father. Besides he wouldn't have the money either..." The boy despaired as I nodded my head.

"Oh okay I guess....hey...whats that?" I asked pointing to his pocket as he was confused but was then stunned to see a bag of gold coins in his pocket.

"H-How did-?" He questioned confused.

"You know...that looks like enough for a horse...if you're willing to trade still?" I asked as the boys face lit up with happiness.

"Y-Yes I'll take your horse! Thank you sir! Thank you soo much!" He said taking my former steeds reins and leading it outside of the city...it was the same like with me and Castiel...me trying to sneak gold by him and him trying to be fair to everyone...Speaking of my mate.

With the horse gone now it was time to find the enlister and get Castiel out of the army. Without the horse it was easier to move through the crowds and find my way to the port. In every direction there were sailors or soldiers marching or packing up supplies for the coming war. The air reeked of the salt water and smell of all sorts of people working.

I took a deep breath knowing it was going to be difficult to find the enlister but I had to try! Even if I have to sneak my way onto the ship, or swim all the way to Nebain I will-...oh wait.

I then noticed a out of place desk with a man sitting behind it. On the desk was a large book that looked like the enlistment book. Well...that didn't take long. I went towards the man and found out he was actually sleeping. The desk wasn't a mess so it wasn't sleeping of over working was it-?

"Um excuse me...sir?" I asked as he moaned before jumping up in surprise.

"Hm? Oh-um-Arumph! Excuse me sorry I was just sleeping a little. How can I help you sir?" he asked professionally.

"Yes I'm looking for someone his name is-" I said before he rolled his eyes.

"Wow okay now pal if your asking me to track down some guy you can forget about it. This is an enlistment center, not a soldier search committee could you imagine trying to find one specific guy in these 50,000?" he said all of a sudden talking casually.

"P-Please I'm willing to pay-" I said before being interrupted again.

"Pal unless your like some king with mountains of money that can halt the armada so we could find this guy we can't help you. The armada shipping went faster than expected and we're expecting to depart tonight." He said as my eyes shot open...leaving tonight?! I thought it took weeks to prepare! Even if I did bribe my way to get Castiel out to get all the official paperwork and signatures and seals it would take would be at least another 2 days to pass!!

Seeing the severity of the situation bribing Castiel out was no longer an option. It doesn't matter either way! I told myself I was willing to do whatever it takes to get him back and I meant it!

"T-Then I would like to enlist in the army!" I said to him as his eyes opened.

"Wait...really? Your volunteering?...wow...its just no one enlisted in this war all I've been doing is checking in people who were already drafted. Um okay I'll take your name and we'll assign you to a ship." He said as my lover said protested.

No! it must be on Castiels ship! The chances of you being randomly put on the same ship is like 150 to 1! I had the gold coins and-and! Wait...another concern is when I'm on the ship itself! With my real name Castiel will know its me and tell the others to send me back! I know he will he thinks he's defending me by doing that but I won't allow it....and after making such a huge scene on a warship boat father will find out and-...no I had to change my name and make a bribe.

"Its Tarack...Tarack Hildano. I'm a traveling merchant with no family sadly and if its okay....I would like to be put on a specific ship." I said as the man wrote down the name but then shook his head.

"Nope sorry sir you are assign to any ship we give you and there's nothing that changes-..." He said before I took out a handful of coin and placed in on his desk. His eyes went wide open in amazement from the amount.

"Are you sure?" I asked as he started to put it in his pocket quickly looking around to make sure no one else saw.

"Okay-Okay but you have only 6 hours! That's the final call before the ships get ready to set off! Just hurry and choose whatever ship has your friend or whatever." He said not really caring about me but about his position if he was caught taking bribes.

Nodding to him I looked to my left and then my right...and realized how impossible that request seemed right now. I was in the dead center of all the packing ships probably about 50 to my left and 50 to my right. If I went the wrong way I could only pray that somehow I did manage to get paired with Castiel's ship by the enlister.

Taking a deep breath I went right praying I had made the right choice. I started to examine each ship... not for their structure but for their crew. I had to see humans with brown hair in order to give a it a closer look. Some were put aside fast as there were no humans at all one some but others took forever as they only had humans on them and brown hair is a common trait.

Frantically searching each ship did I realize there's another problem. The possibility that Castiel might see my first and tell the soldiers that I can't join due to my noble blood. I had to find him first then! I don't care what happens. If I have to punch through the whole army to get to him I'll do it!!

After 4 hours and finding nothing, no sign of him did I despair...dammit...I must have turned the wrong direction! Curse my fate! Curse my noble blood! My mate doesn't deserve to fight to the death! He and I deserve each other!

My hopeful side told me just to look at the next ship before turning around to go back to the enlister. It was hopeless though, I could be on the completely opposite side of the port for all I know. Standing behind some crates I looked at the ship taking note of its crew...half human and half furry...so a slim chance.

They were still packing up but nearly done. It was over I had no choice but to-

"Hey Castiel! Get that last crate of spices! You don't realize how salt and pepper makes a military meal so much better!" A person called as I froze at the name...d-did he just say Castiel...as in....MY CASTIEL?!

"Yeah-Yeah I'm on it. LIKE ALWAYS!!!" A voice said before chuckling. T-That voice! Its-Its-!

I looked towards the ships to see a human with brown hair carrying a heavy crate up to the ship. His face sadly being blocked out by the crate but he's coming back! He must come back for me to be sure!

And like the gods themselves had sent me a blessing...I saw his face....It was Castiel. He looked a bit tired from lifting crates and-and his shirt was off. Sweat making it shine miles away and-and he never looked so arousing to me before.

What force was keeping me from running at him, dodging all other people and obstacles and just tackling him down making love to him right on the spot I don't know but I was close.

Castiel leaned down showing off that gorgeous body of his again before he looked at my direction. As much as I didn't want to I had to turn around facing the other way to make sure he didn't see it was me. I waited for a moment before looking back to see him carrying another crate up to the ship with his beautiful back facing me...ohhh its going to be so hard to keep myself from making love to him on the spot but I'll have my chance! I know it!

I looked at the ships name seeing the Marie Elen on its side...the ships name. I knew what ship I had to get on! I ran towards to the enlister again with a smile on my face! YES-YES! MY MATE! MY MATE LOOKS ALRIGHT AND HE'S GOING TO BE SAFE SOON!

I got back to the enlisters desk and he was looking for me it appears.

"Good your back and you better tell me you found a ship you wanted." He said

"Yes! Yes! Its called the Marie Elen! Place me on that ship!" I said happily.

Taken aback from my excitement he wrote it down before continuing on with the formal enlisting.

"Okay now you need to decide...light armor or heavy armor?" He said showing two pictures of armor. One chainmail being the light, the other having plate being the heavy. There was something though that concerned me about both.

"Um...where at the helmets?" I asked realizing that Castiel would recognize my face if he saw me even in armor.

"Helmets are for high ranking officials and ordinary troops don't get them. Nebain tribals will probably avoid face hitting as much as possible...but then again this war." He said shrugging.

"No-No I need a helmet! Where can I get one?" I asked as he frowned at me clearly annoyed.

"Sir I told you can't have a helmets unless-" He said before I got fed up. Taking another handful of gold I placed it again on his desk as he shook his head in disbelief.

"Why are you paying so much to get 'into!' the army! With this you could easily buy your way out." He remarked to himself as my bag of coins was hardly lighter.

"My helmet?" I asked in a demanding tone as he handed me a plate helmet that would completely cover my face so no one could tell it was me. Plate armor it is then!

Okay put on your armor if you wish and pack your stuff on the Marie Elen. You set sail tonight soldier! Good luck!" He said before picking up the gold coins.

I went over to the quartermaster and showed him the order for plate armor. It was actually a lot lighter than Riften plate armor. Doesn't matter I was given a room to change which I did and I put on my helmet.

I went over to the Marie Elen seeing the enlister and the captain I guess waiting for me.

"Tarack welcome to the Maire Elen! Next stop Nebain!" He commented after shaking my hand.

I got on the ship at first not spotting Castiel but when I went down to the lower levels I saw him placing some cannonballs near the side cannons. Smiling to myself as I went to the lower levels of the ship seeing strangely a well made bed in the storage. It must be a high ranking officers bed for when we land in Nebain. No matter.

I placed my bag full of my bribe money behind some crates, don't want some crew member accidently finding it.

I went back up to the top level seeing the whole crew present...Castiel on the other side sadly but like I said...I'll have my chance. The captain addressed the crew.

"Men it is an honor to have you on board! The gods will grant us a swift victory and I promise you will all return home famous, rich, and possibly no longer virgins!" he said with a laugh as the crew did too...no matter someone else has already taken my virginity....and he's right here on this ship.

"Set sail! We go to Nebain!!!" The captain shouted as the crew cheered and got to work.