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(Author note: this is a story in which I would like to explain how I wanted my life to be so I wish to see your reactions)

I wanted to express my feelings, so I did, I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it,

Entharion is my character and will always be so don't steal him.

If you have any suggestions or questions e-mail me at [email protected]

At first I wanted to make a short story but it ended up in a series :P

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The incredible change part six

When I woke up, I couldn't stop thinking of the pain I felt when dracko ripped me up, it couldn't be like this, were not supposed to do it, but it had made me feel good before.

"Why do I even bother thinking this" I called out and tried to think of something else, but I couldn't, I loved Jerhatan and darkfur, maybe I went too far, maybe it's a sign, maybe I should relax, maybe I'm going crazy, maybe it wasn't my fault, maybe it was, maybe I should go training for the next match.

"Ahhhh maybe I am going crazy" I yelled out as I arched my back and threw back my head, forcing myself to relax.

"What's the matter?" I heard a familiar voice say, it was my mother, she was sitting next to me and I kept looking up at the ceiling.

"Too much to explain".

"I have time, just tell me" I could have cried out.

"What am I?, I feel like I am lost in my own feelings, I cant concentrate on anything but sex".

"It's not your fault, it's just hormones I think".

"But what am I doing, what do I have to do?, I am so confused" I fell back on the pillow, just trying to relax.

"I don't know what's happening to you"

"That makes two of us" I just tried to concentrate on what I felt.

"Maybe I should go write again, maybe that will cool down my feelings".

"Writing? Like the things I found on your computer?" I looked up at her, not believing that she had actually found my stash...

"Yes... how did you find it?".

"I know you in and out, I felt you needed me, I brought a copy of your story".

"Ahh thanks, maybe I will get my feelings straight if I read it" I picked it up, it was printed on an a3 paper, and I could hold it with the tips of my talons, I felt relieved when I started reading the long lost expressions of my own feelings, maybe I am having an identity crisis, it's a big thing to hear yourself think that, and it just clicked, maybe I was having a hard time letting go of my existence as a human, I was so damn obvious.

"Why the hell didn't I think of that sooner?".

"What?".

"I'm not human anymore, I still feel like one, I don't want to feel like something I am not, I need to change, I need some time for myself" I jumped off the bed and looked at my mother, she understood I had to go and nodded, I walked trough the room and looked at my sleeping lovers, Jerhatan and darkfur, I looked back at the door and walked trough, I spread my wings and took off, without even eating or drinking I went looking for a nice spot to think and get my life straight, I flew past the mountains and the rivers, the forests and seas, until I had found the perfect spot, I didn't care how long it would take me to figure out my life, I landed at a beautiful lake, surrounded by forest and a mountain with a cave, I went to check out the cave and was satisfied with it's size and put some leaves and branches down to make a bed.

When I was done I lied down and looked outside over the lake as the sun set, I continued to ponder, how am I going to get my life on the track as a dragon, I cant just go on fucking all day long (wouldn't you like otherwise).

I had to have a purpose, otherwise I could have just stayed human, and what to do about Jerhatan, wasn't he concerned with it?, he had been a gryphon his whole life, he couldn't mind, I need a outlet, I need an activity, sex is fun, but only a few times a day, and not too rough, I remembered the pain from dracko ripping trough me and noticed myself getting a hard on, I pawed off and this time I squirted the cum in the bushes, I didn't want to be reminded too much of my friends, I wanted to be alone for a while and think.

I enjoyed the last of the sundown and noticed I was hungry, I looked around, I only saw some hippo's of some kind, I knew hippo's may look cute, but they are very dangerous, I walked towards them, I had enough fighting experience to kill one and I did do so with great effort

I jumped up into the air and glided up towards one, it wanted to run but I bit its neck, I never had killed and eaten a prey, I twisted it and broke its neck, I picked it up and took it back to my cave.

"Where to start?, hmm maybe I just bite... ehh no ehh... hmm" I decided to just plunge my head in its belly, it was still warm as I ate its intestines, at this point I didn't even feel remotely human, but I concentrated on feeding, not taking my head out of the corpse and I liked the taste of it's organs, it tasted different, nice, exactly the reason I wanted some time for myself, to discover new things and decide where to take my life, I had about 1180 more years ahead of me.

"Maybe I should go live in the human world, at least there is computers there, but I want to have my friends with me, I don't know what else to do" it was dark now and I went to sleep as the creatures of the night took over.

"Maybe it's not so bad here either" it's cleaner, somewhat safer, there is no people trying to annoy you, you can be naked all the time and nobody minds, you can be free to just fuck about anybody you find on the streets, you don't need a diploma to get a decent job, no ridiculous laws and people that just want your money and trying to rob you, no constant manipulation with commercials, but the human world has its advantages too, technology and... hmm nothing, there is only bad sides on the human world, I spent the remaining hour thinking of the advantages that this world has over the other, I had a whole list by the time I got too tired to go on and fell asleep.

The next morning it was getting warmer as I felt the sun come up on my feet, I felt quite good today, I knew I was in the right world now, but I still didn't know what to do with my life, maybe I could be a cook or something, or a builder, or a mage, I love magic so I could be a mage, maybe even a warlord, I liked fighting, it made me feel powerful and I decided I had to become arena champion first, and I knew what I would do, become a warrior-mage, fighting with my body and mind as I fight my way to the top and be the greatest warrior in history, maybe even have my own clan once, that's what I am going to do, I'll train here, this is a perfect spot for training, but I need some stuff before I could begin my training.

I had 2 more weeks before the tournaments started, I decided to relax and think for a few more hours before I would go home, I was starting to miss my friends and went home, flying slowly, so I would remember my way back, after countless minutes of flying I reached the town and landed at my door, my friends were waiting for me there they looked very worried, when I came in Jerhatan and darkfur both stood up Jerhatan walked towards me and almost cried.

"Entharion, where have you been?" and he jumped into my arms, it felt great to hold him again, though I was only gone one day.

"We thought you would leave us" I looked into his eyes and hugged him, it was great to feel his feathered chest against mine again.

"I couldn't live more than a day without you, or darkfur for that matter" as he heard that he lit up and also jumped onto me, making me fall over, they licked my chest and hugged me, I didn't want to ruin the moment but my wing was being crushed and I sat up, I took their hands and walked with them to the bedroom, which was perfectly clean for once, but not for long, I sat down and bent over to Jerhatan, I started rubbing his shaft and I could see he missed me, darkfur started to play with my tailhole, rubbing the edges of it with his fingers, lubricating it with his pre, I sat down on my knees on the bed and Jerhatan went down on all four legs, wanting to feel me inside him, I started to rub my cock in between his legs and thighs, pushing it in between his legs, so my cock was rubbing his balls and some of his shaft, I loved the feeling of his furry balls rubbing them with my cock, darkfur had started to lick my ass and tail, making me moan, this way of non-penetrating sex was great, but I wanted more... so I grabbed his tail with my mouth and reached down and rubbed our cocks together, the mix of hot pre and the feeling of his fur felt great and I felt darkfur pushing into me with his 2 foot panther cock, the tip was wide but his shaft was smooth, he pushed in all the way and I felt his furry sheath against the edges of my tailhole as he purred softly, as he enjoyed the hot and narrow tunnel around his cock, I felt his soft fur rubbed the bottom of my tail and his claws grip into my thighs as he pumped into me while I was almost cumming, I let go of my cock and massaged Jerhatan's balls and shaft, I wanted to cum from darkfur's pounding into my experienced ass, I backed up and laid my cock onto Jerhatan's back while darkfur was almost cumming and I kept stroking Jerhatan's cock, I felt I was about to cum as I felt darkfur's hot cum inside me, while I splashed my cum on Jerhatan's back in between his wings and came too, covering my hands and the sheaths with his cum, we all moaned and roared, as our orgasms stopped we laid back next to eachother.

I thought back at my day off and how much I actually missed them.

"I really missed you guys".

"We missed you too, we were so worried, we didn't even cum yesterday, we just kept thinking you had left".

"I couldn't enjoy it either, but I needed some time to think".

"Your mother told us, but we were still worried about you, you could get hurt".

"I have made some important decisions about my life, I decided never to go to the human world again and stay with you guys, and become a warlord".

"That's much to decide in one day, are you absolutely sure?".

"I'm sure of one of those things" and I pulled my friends, still covered in cum closer to me and gave them both a kiss on their heads.

"I only came back to pick up some stuff to train, but now I don't want to go back".

"Just stay with us then, we'll help you train" I looked down into their eyes and saw their agreement.

"Thanks guys, I swear I will never leave you, never!" we lied there cuddling eachother until we all fell asleep, happier than ever before, assured we could count on eachother.

The end.