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Okay here's my sixth instalment for my first story series! I'm still in intense pain ): Check up on my journals I'm going to be posting in the more often. Pain killers are STILL a nuisance. Thank you guys all for reading it, and constructive critisism will be helpful

Okay well here it is.

Usual M/m stuff apply

Any use of brand names are only used to enhance the story

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"Hey Taro' I gulped, turning my eyes away from the movie, ' I have something to say to you"

What is it? He also averted his gaze and locked his beautiful green eyes with mine.

"I um," My voice stumbled and faltered.

I err... really like you"

'You - what?" He choked on his words and sat up straight looking at me curiously

"I um... I think I'm falling for you Taro" I blurted out nervously, my eyes not meeting his gorgeous green ones.

"You like me?" He coughed, ' You're gay? Like Homosexual"

Gaining up some courage i met his gaze, gritted my teeth and said, "Yes I'm Homosexual and i really like you."

"Wow, that was unexpected" I murmured coolly, a totally different reaction then what i expected.

" You're not angry or mad? You're OKAY with it?' That was DEFINATELY not the answer i was expecting.

Taro Hofmeister looked at me and smiled smugly, 'Unlike most people, I'm not a homophobe. I don't care if you're gay."

I looked at him quite shocked, ' You don't mind? If i like you or anything? You - okay that's weird. I expected you too be like pissed off and stuff.'

He moved over closer to me, 'No i don't care, it's alright. But, we can't be together. I may not be a homophobe but I'm not gay. I'm going out with Trima and i don't think it's going to change. Sorry'

"we're still friends right?' i mumbled slowly and he replied simply.

"Of course. Maybe infect more. I'm a personal boundary wrecking guy as you just saw before. Most of my friends are like WTF are you up too? But with you, you don't care and that's cool."

I grinned. " I suppose it is"

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The next day i was feeling almost normal again and, forced by my mum, I found myself at the large entrance way of FurMastan High. With my timetable in my hand and my bag on my shoulder entered the main hallway, dodging the thick mobs of furs that clogged up it all up. Finding either Xerious or Taro in this crowd would be a mission so i didn't even try and start, instead i looked for my first class of the day. English. Oh fun. Damn. The time table that i held in my paw was as hard to figure out as the Davinci code.

From a school map on the wall i found out where the English block was and made my way over there, wondering if Xerious was in my class. Taro wasn't in any of my classes as he was two years older than i was. Eventually, i found the classroom, just before the bell rang to begin the first period. Seeing nobody i knew, i made my way to the back of the class and took a seat. At a fail looking desk. The teacher at the front of the room was an old worn out looking Giraffe, she looked like she would give out detentions if you put for foot just over the line. Instinct told me to get on the good side of her. As the rest of the class entered the classroom i looked through my bag pretending that i was searching for something, hoping that someone wouldn't sit next to me. I straightened up; I carefully put my bag under my desk.

Oh yeah just my luck.

A muscly, brown skinned male horse sat in the seat next to me, looking at me curiously. His arms bulged with strength as did his chest and legs; his dark brown eyes were filled with interest. With some courage i held out my hand a managed a somewhat clear "Hello, I'm Harlco, who are you?"

He shook my hand firmly and replied, ' Heh, I'm Sedgrik. Haven't seen you around here before. Are you new?'

His voice was as cool and smooth as his hands which were soft and pleasant to touch. That thought made me blush and i turned away before replying, 'Yes i am, this is my second day here.'

'Oh okay' He smiled, 'so, um... no offence of anything, but what species are you? You look like a wolf but a bit different you know?"

I grinned in response, none taken, i get asked all the time really. Well if you want to know. I'm half wolf and half human. I know an odd mix but here i am!' I stared into his entrancing eyes. I don't know why but i was drawn to this equine. Even though we just met i felt like we had been friends for a long time.

" Ah, alright. Wow I've never met a human before, think you could show me your parents? Okay that sounded wrong....'

I laughed loudly, ' Very wrong actually. But sorry Sedgrik you're out of luck, my dad who's the human left me when i was just 6 so i barely remember anything.

He put his hand on my shoulder and answered sincerely, 'I'm so sorry about that!"

I was about to say, "That's okay" when the teacher began the English class and cut us from talking any more

Sedgrik grabbed my arm as we were swamped by a crowd of fur when the bell rang. 'Hey as your new would you like to hang out with me?'

"Erg, sorry but i already have these friends that i spent the weekend with. Sorry' I felt genuinely sorry for some reason as i said that.

His shoulders slumped and without saying bye he left me in a totally swarm of furs. Shrugging i left the corridor and went to find Xerious or maybe Taro. I doubted that he'd hang out with me at school though, he'd hang out with all this Year thirteen mates. After a few minutes of walking and glancing around the absolutely huge school i found one of my best friends already skuxxing it up with four different girls. I almost laughed. They were all drooling over him. As i made my way over to him he noticed me and called out, 'Hey Harlco! Come have a seat!' I looked at all the girls around him wearily as i sat down on a wooden bench. I pulled out a muesli bar and began chewing it as he joined me, telling the girls to leave. He smiled at me and gave me a quick public hug. 'Hey it looks like you have something on your mind.'

I stared at him uncomfortably, how could you guess? I haven't been showing it up on my face have I?'

"No you haven't, but well. I know you too well. It's about' my best friend paused as he took a bite from a chocolate biscuit, 'It's about Him isn't it? Did you come out to him? What did he say? Is he gay?"

I fidgeted, running my claw like fingernails across the brown table, leaving noticeable grooves in the wood. 'Yes i did come out to him yesterday.'

He gasped. "And?" he made circling gestures with his black furred paw, indicating for me to go on.

"He's not gay." i said miserably finishing off my food and packing away my lunch box back into my school bag.

"Oh, I'm so sorry Harlco!" He gripped me into another "bear" hug before giving me his final biscuit. "Come one, bells about to ring and we have science next. I have no idea where the room is. Do you?'

I shook my head and allowed myself to be pulled up by the panther before quickly following him to find our class room.

Even though we left to go to the science lab early we were late to class by a few minutes and got a small scowl from a young cheetah teacher. I glanced around the classroom seeing if i saw any familiar faces. There were none and i wasn't surprised. Xerious and I took a seat at the back of the modern looking lab by ourselves looking around the classroom nervously, not meeting the gazes of everyone else in the room. We were just new uninteresting kids to them. They already had their friend groups. The young cheetah teacher took off his white lab coat and put it on his chair before writing a few notes about chemistry on the white board behind him with a black marker. Contrast.

My attention was diverted from my work when there was a knock on the door followed by a small cough and a, "Sorry I'm late sir." I averted my eyes to the door and opened wide and gasped loudly. There Taro was, leaning against the door wearing the same clothing as he did yesterday - the brilliant blue singlet and cargo shorts. He met my eyes and winked be making his way into the class and taking a seat to the right of me. 'What are you doing here?' i asked curiously while continuing writing down the notes from the board.

"Heh, i always come to this class, I'm failing chemistry. I just can't seem to get it. Can you help me?"

I almost laughed, "I'm not a very good teacher but i suppose i can try? Why do you want tutoring?'

"My house after school? Trima's got them Pony riding classes so I'm free. But hey," he squeezed my arm, "I don't think I'm going to breakup with her. Her and I, we're an item."

I nodded and game a small smile before turning back to my work.

Oh Taro, why have you done this to me?

"We're like close friends right, you and I?' he murmured also copying down the notes.'I mean, ever since you like um... came out, i like feel, well.' He blushed and turned away.

"You feel...?" i stopped my work and gave him my full attention.

'Well, protective. So many people i know, are all homophobes. I'm the only one in the rugby team that isn't a homophobe. It's sad really. That's why I'm not with you at interval. Too you that might not make sense but. If you hang out with me, people will start noticing and everyone will find out sooner or later. Man, I'm sorry but this is for your own good.'

Hot tears brewed in my eyes and i went back to my work, not saying anything. Tears dripped on my work and Xerious patted me on the back and glared at Taro with a "What the fuck" expression on his face.

Oh Taro...

The big, muscly, black furred wolf sighed softly and ran his paw through his hair before leaning against me and wrapping his arms around my body. "Aww. Why are you crying?' He pulled me close to him, letting me rest my head against his warm, musky scented chest. Thankfully every ones attention was focused on the work and nobody noticed what we were doing. Normally i would've enjoyed being held by him but now i couldn't care less. My teenage mind worked furiously. 'So what you're saying," i whispered harshly into his fur, "is that, 'oh we can be great friends but we can't hang out with each other because i don't want people to think I'm gay?'" I felt angry and confused.

He became angry and growled deeply, his chest vibrating, "that's NOT what i mean and you know it Harlco. I don't want you to be gang bashed or even gang RAPED. This is serious okay? More than just boyfriend girlfriend stuff!'

He blushed once more, "or in this case, Boyfriend, boyfriend.'

"I thought we were friends" I sniffed slowly, peeling myself from his body.

"Why do you have to be so stubborn? We ARE friends okay? I'm doing something good for you! You think that I'm being mean but I'm not. I'm just thinking logically.'

I blew my nose on a tissue that i pulled from a side pocket from my bag, "Well i think that-" I was cut off suddenly by Taro grabbing my hand and intertwining his fingers through mine before. Quickly

Quietly

Kissed me on the cheek...

....In front of every single person in the class looking at us.

"Oh, Harlco. I think you just changed my world.

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12.00am 26/06/10

Taro Hofmeister's Diary.

I don't know why I'm staying up at this time. I'm really tired but i just can't seem to get to sleep. Not after what happened today in Chemistry. What's going to happen? I still love Trima. Shes a goddess, a brilliant being, and yet. Harlco Jackson- a small fragile human/ wolf. He's also great. As soon as i met him i knew that we were going to be great friends. Little did i know though that it was going to be like this. Hell it's only been a week.

One thing I'm not sure of though is my sexuality. Would i be bi sexual now? I dunno. I look at guys in my classes, but I'm not attracted to them at all. It's just him. HIM. Oh i don't know how it works. It's all retarded. Well. I've got chemistry work to do, so i suppose I'll get around to that. Yes. At midnight. I'm cool like that.

Well, a short entry but meh. I'm not in the mood for writing at the moment. I'm all confused about what's happening. Well Doc i guess I'll be seeing you then.

PS: Keen to see Him tomorrow. I will think about what I'm going to do tonight. Heh. I suppose it's just The Way It Is

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We'll build you up, tear you down

To live like we used to

Believe in it while you can

Before it all lets you down

We'll crush your narrow opinion

To tell it how it is

It's out of date, out of date

And that's just the way it is

• The Way It Is

• The Sunshine Underground

Well okay, i hope you enjoyed that. That time of the journal is actually the exact time i wrote that Heh. Well I'm tired, so i guess I'll leave it short like this. Rate comment, Watch etc.

View my other stories. I would put them like in a story series like list thing but it comes up in the wrong order for some reason. Something's wrong with it. I'll have it checked out soon.

A shout out to Twist1. A great, close friend of mine that i really enjoy talking to. Hope you enjoy. Friend