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A/N Start:

This story contains extreme and sexual themes. Viewer discretion is advised.

If the following themes are unsettling for you, I advise you to leave the page:

- Monster Sex

- Vore

- Size difference

- Domination

- Violence

Not all themes have been introduced yet, though are planned.

A/N End

"Dude," I considered this word to be vapid and overused. Xander said the word 'man' so much though, that somehow hearing him say that twisted my gut. Three slow steps distanced him from me and Nargacuga, who had decided to stand by my side and observe Xander's growing confusion.

"Xander," I started. There was no reassurance I could offer, clarity, justification. The frightening truth I struggled to tell him was that I was embracing this lewd journey, as was Nargacuga. Did I have a choice though? Was I to simply control urges I hadn't been aware of, which were exploited by a monster? We were well past the point of no return, and this was only the start.

Xander could barely begin unwrapping this, potentially due to personal qualms about my relationship with Nargacuga.

"Alright," Xander started, and I prayed he'd get further than I did because, at this point, I was waiting for him to either walk away or prod into every detail. "This shit is not making sense when all I have to go off of is your dramatic statement." I pinched the waistline of my clothing, nodding and looking down.

"The most simple way I can sum this up is that it wouldn't be possible without the kinship stone," I stated flatly. He retorted with an inquisitive stare and I sighed.

"I'm not using that as an excuse though. Look, Xander, this is... not something I planned to tell you. But honestly, you deserve to know and should decide with the information I give you because I'm moving forward after this." Xander steeled himself, equipping an efficient poker face and waiting.

"There was an instance between me and Nargacuga where I was stimulated by his actions. The act itself of stimulating me was completely unintentional, but as soon as it happened, it sparked Nargacuga's... curiosity." I looked at Nargacuga. He stared at Xander, thoughts seeming to run through his head that I couldn't decipher.

"As soon as it became clear Nargacuga could feel what I felt, it became clear that one of the strongest feelings we shared, aside from pain, was... pleasure." My eyes wouldn't stand still, bouncing around and unable to look fully at Xander.

Xander stared and stared, and stared. Nothing happened for a painful seven seconds. Counting each second was the only thing keeping me from reiterating what I said, which would only serve as a pointless cry for acknowledgment. By the tenth second, I couldn't stand it any longer.

"Look, I know you're conflicted about this, and..." I huffed, feeling agitated. What didn't help was that when I looked at Xander, there wasn't that curiosity he yielded toward everything. Instead, I could feel the confusion, meaning he had reserved thoughts behind those lips, yet wasn't bringing himself to grace my ears with his doubts.

"If you don't say something, I'm gonna go insane," My voice came out shaky and only grew more hysterical while I took a step forward. "Too much has happened, Xander. Look, I'm not sharing any of this with pride, in fact, I've been stressed as fuck ever since..." I sniffed, raking a hand through my hair unblinking.

"I don't know Xander, ever since I met you, that's when this all happened! You lost your friends, my village treated you like shit, and you devoted yourself to helping me, which I appreciate more than you could know. But..." But what? Then we were attacked by Nargacuga, had near-death experiences, and Xander missed me and Nargacuga's moment of realization.

"Xander, I will take anything right now," I begged, retreating to Nargacuga. To my relief, Xander's poker face began transforming. Eyelids drew back, pupils shrunk ever so slightly, and his ears twitched at the same time his brow pulled downwards. These were all signs of rage, and for some reason, I was ready for it. I wanted him to scream, to be upset, to tell me I was fucked in the head, and maybe offer some sort of closure.

Instead, Xander wielded a calm anger, speaking cooly.

"You enjoyed getting it with a monster that not only nearly killed us, but killed my closest friends?" It was a killing blow. Xander's rage rattled behind brittle bars, and I wished it had come out prematurely because now I had to respond knowing my answer would unleash that rage.

"...I enjoyed it," My voice felt like it wouldn't reach him, but I could tell the pot had begun boiling. I drew in a shaky breath and continued.

"I had my doubts, concerns, even the anger you harbor now, but... it all dissipated with time. Time that you were unconscious or away for whilst I was stuck with Nargacuga." I was pretty sure Xander hadn't blinked this whole time, which only proved how afraid I was to currently look away from him as his eyes somehow grew bigger.

"You're defending that monster?" My lips parted slightly, twitching hastily in search of a response. I felt emotions from Nargacuga begin to disturb my train of thought, a jumble of regret and protectiveness disorienting me. Nargacuga looked ready to act on my behalf, but I doubted that would end well and tried to continue.

"Xander, as I said, I had been angry too." Air exploded between Xander's lips, lethal amusement thickening the space.

"Angry? You got fucking horny! Man, I was incapacitated, trying to save your pitiful life, and what, you-" Xander sputtered as he seemed to try and concoct a lewd phrase that complimented his disgust. Upon failing, his hands rose in an angered hurrah, closing into trembling fists at the sides of his face as he growled.

It was sickening. Everything he said pulled the worst feelings out of me, and it felt useless to argue back. Was I a piece of shit? Something told me I wasn't. I knew Xander was missing critical details, but my heart was in agony. It was enough for me to finally break eye contact, clutching my chest unknowingly.

"You mustn't skip over important details."

Nargacuga nudged me. His eyes shone with strength, asking me to not give up. I wished Xander could understand Nargacuga because being someone's messenger Cohoot made things terrible.

"Pray tell the 'details' I've missed, fucking PLEASE." I blinked. Once. Twice. Me and Nargacuga did so in unison. We then looked back at Xander, who barely caught the drift of our surprise.

_"Alright then," _A pinch of anger, quickly masked with a cool tone, Nargacuga stepped toward Xander, who just now realized what was going on. I hadn't even realized my kinship stone was glowing a whitish color, like glowing strands of white chocolate drizzle, frozen behind glass.

Xander licked his lips, readying to say something but he couldn't. His mouth hung, eyes flinched, but these were the only reactions he could give. Nargacuga was kind enough to remain cordial, though I could feel he was a bit agitated due to my distress.

_"You have every right to be mad, but not at your friend." _Xander glanced at me for a split second. Nargacuga did not and demanded his attention for a once-off explanation, moving closer.

_"He hated me for a good while, just as you do now. Both of you hated me rightfully so, for me being a monster and living my way of life. But things have changed. Our bond, due to this stone, has made it so I think no longer along the lines of mere survival." _Nargacuga circled Xander, who twisted in the direction of his continued movement, each word subduing him into a more intense silence.

_"I want to make a few things clear that have been bothering me. After that, I'll leave you with your feelings and have my closure." _Xander flinched at that, though Nargacuga did not care.

_"It was I who saved your life. I dropped you off at your village, due to guilt." _Xander's eyes sparkled but Nargacuga raised his voice slightly.

"If I hadn't met you 'friend'," _Nargacuga said the word heavily, _"then I would have feasted on your body or left it. At least, the past me would have done that, as everything to me before... bonding, was keeping my territory safe, and surviving."

Nargacuga quickly closed the distance between him and Xander, who froze up and followed his gaze as they turned to look at me.

_"If I had not felt the fear, the pain, and the arousal that has so quickly angered you, I would have felt no sympathy." _Dissonance welled up within Xander's face. Nargacuga stared back at him, still as close as ever, waiting until Xander looked back.

"Humans are warriors, both good and bad, and warriors are dangerous to me. I saw something else the day I almost killed you both." Nargacuga slowly left Xander. His head found its way into my arms, nuzzling my chest while glancing at Xander.

_"We are all flawed. If you'd spare us your time, I believe you could find perfections in our... imperfections." _Nargacuga seemed pretty proud of himself, thrumming quietly while my hands praised his chin. I hadn't expected such eloquence, though was more than pleased with his involvement in the debate.

Xander's eyes glazed over. The shimmer said enough. Aside from having to swallow this new predicament me and Nargacuga were venturing through, he was still plated with his friend's deaths.

"Xander, I don't expect you to adjust immediately, and wouldn't even be surprised if you didn't. But me and Nargacuga aside, you have your miseries that I know you're still struggling with." I sighed, fingers interlacing.

"Don't... alienate me, man. I still care. That's never changed." I finished awkwardly. Our short time together had produced one of the strongest friendships I ever had, which now dangled on a thread between us.

The tension only worsened, unresolved thoughts not being communicated as Xander grew torn. Ultimately, this seemed to defeat him, the fight leaving his form.

"...I'm pissed, y'know that?" He mumbled. I only nodded, humming in taciturn acknowledgment. A forlorn puff left his nose, and just like that, his exposed feelings were bottled up as he looked at me with newfound purpose.

"Well, you're my friend, that didn't suddenly change," He patted his pockets rhythmically, fishing out a notebook and staring at blank pages.

"I'd be an idiot not to research something like this, despite my initial... concerns." He added, earning an embarrassed yet hopeful grin from me.

"Well, I hope so because I need you more than ever. I'm not sure how to navigate this at all, and your analytical ass would be nice to have around." I felt a sense of peace as soon as Xander smiled. It was a smile that masked pain, but it was a start.

"Alright." Xander closed his book, ready to move on. He then reopened it and scoffed. "Actually, I need to start taking notes immediately." Weight left my chest, watching his mindset shift.

"You have a few known abilities I need to write down. There's certainly more to uncover, not to mention any variables that may present themselves with other monsters." Nargacuga stopped purring, pulling away from me to look at Xander. With mutual understanding, I unconsciously felt my stone glow as I enabled the ability for Nargacuga to speak to Xander.

_"Other monsters?" _He quipped. We shared the same concern, though Xander was not swayed in the slightest.

"If I'm going to research something, as well as come to terms with... everything about your relationship," I felt my cheeks redden, seeing Xander's hand stop writing for a split second. "then I'm going to want to see how other monsters react to the kinship stone."

Nargacuga wasn't too fond of this subject, even though we had addressed it together at some point. "That is dangerous."

"It's a lot of things," Xander replied quickly. "The anticipated aggression, empathy, sexual interest, I'm sure we can expect that and more from future monsters." I guffawed as Xander matter of fact laid this out. He looked at me with a raised brow, still writing.

"I'm sure you realized living peacefully and together wasn't the plan, right? Man, you gotta get your head out of the gutter, it's time to start wanting to understand this better and let me get involved. I'm gonna slap you if you keep standing there awkwardly." I stiffened up, astounded by how swiftly Xander managed to switch gears.

Nargacuga chuckled aloud, a breathy spurt of growl-like chuffs escaping him. He looked at Xander's book then at Xander amusedly, drawn in by his behavior.

_"You're saying you wish to take notes on us, as well as his interactions with other monsters?" _Xander looked up at Nargacuga and nodded, further amusing the flying wyvern.

_"What of our freedom? Are we subjected to this journey and supposed to welcome danger?" _He snarled, though Xander was unfazed.

"The choice is yours, you two. I'm here for support now, but I'm sure you understand without me having to say it: it's just gonna get more weird from here. You're better off grabbing the reigns and uncovering the mysteries of that stone, instead of waiting for something to happen." Nargacuga huffed at this, the amount of sense his statement made annoying him. As he turned and stomped away in thought, he looked back at Xander.

_"And so what, you'll be watching your friend fornicate with other monsters too? For your 'research'?" _Nargacuga distastefully threw the word out. He was right though, this endeavor was beginning to seem more absurd as questions were thrown out.

"Yeah, if I find it necessary." My heart stopped. Xander clapped the book shut, walked over to me, and rested a hand on my shoulder. Nargacuga cackled heartily, walking away.

_"Humans..." _He muttered.

"Xander, that's..." He squeezed my shoulder, both his eyebrows raised.

"Weird? Sure, but it's not the first thing that's weird." That was the truth. My chest had grown heavy again, and I only nodded with anxious understanding.

"I'm gonna give you some time. I need some as well, but... why don't you prep yourself and Nargacuga for the future." I shot Xander a helpless look, and he only offered a shrug, wiggling his notebook at me before tucking it away.

"Well man, glad we're still friends," He said, clicking his tongue as he walked off. I watched quietly, then turned toward Nargacuga's whereabouts.

Just one thing at a time...

I rubbed my eyes and followed Nargacuga's trail. He was back at the lake, staring out in deep thought. I found my way over to his side, running my fingers along his blade-like wing. I stopped by his forepaw, thick enough to size up to my kneecaps. He continued to stare out, not looking back, though I felt a twinge of pleasure acknowledge my presence.

"I guess some of what we're worried about is about to get addressed," I said, sitting and resting my arm on one of his rough toes.

_"I don't see why you need to understand this power any further. You could just live your life and keep those who respect you close." _Nargacuga stated. My fingers grazed an ebony black claw, a single claw the size of my hand.

"Humans like to understand and prepare for things they feel could trouble them in the future," I said thoughtfully.

Nargacuga drew his head back, craning toward me and nipping my body with his maw. With ease, I was picked up and placed in front of him, so that we made eye contact. His forepaw rested back beside me as his head rested on the ground, level with my sitting figure. In a sort of childish way, I could tell he wanted me to keep playing with his claw, he had simply wanted me to look at him too.

I continued to feel it curiously, throwing an assuring gaze into his disgruntled one.

_"These are surprising lengths your friend has offered to go, that you seem willing to allow." _Nargacuga's eyes held me with measure as I responded.

"I'm not sure of anything Nargacuga. I just know I'm happy he's... still my friend. I don't want this new element in my life to define who I am, and I want to be in control of it. I don't expect everyone to understand it, nor do I intend to preach to the world about this weird aspect of me, because that's not what defines me." Nargacuga leaned forth, his breath lashing against me and prompting a shudder.

_"This part of you... is a part nonetheless," _He said huskily. My hands met his beak to push away but I found myself melting against his touch instead, seeking comfort. His head pushed into my arms, welcoming himself into my embrace.

I knew what he was getting at. My relationships with monsters, should ours develop and more get established in the future, couldn't be a completely hidden aspect of my life. The people I cared about would inevitably get put through the same test as Xander did, though hopefully not in the same manner.

"I know two things," I whispered, my cheeks pressing against his black fur that had been soaking up the sun. A natural and bodily heat seeped into me that strengthened his beastly scent. I had grown fond of this, now nuzzling him as he did so in return, invested in my scent and touch.

"No one, at least whom I consider worth being around, yields an identity simply based on their sex life. It's not something I preached before all of this, and I don't intend to start doing so now. People close to me aren't close because of such things. Other qualities define me and make me worth being around." Nargacuga sniffed my neck, the constant huffs of air he exerted moistening my skin.

_"Second?" _He urged with a blend of curiosity and desire.

"Second..." I breathed out, seeing the thinning patience in Nargacuga's eyes as he awaited my answer and battled an internal hunger that had ensnared me.

"I would rather experience... all there is to experience rather than live in mystery," I pursed my lips, swallowing with a sense of vulnerability.

"And I want to explore that with you. I- I hope you desire the same-" Nargacuga cut off my words, his answer clear before I could even express my concerns. He performed a kiss, immobilizing my body as he covered it fully with his muzzle. The suction and my desires pulled me forth, planting my lips on only a small surface of his rimmed lips, though I knew he was getting the full experience thanks to the kinship stone.

The human gesture, performed by him, was breathtaking. In only mere seconds, I gasped and plopped against his paw, my eyes opening and realizing just now that I had closed them.

_"Did... I do that right?" _He quipped, tilting his head. I began laughing, though stifled it, and lightly kissed between his nostrils.

"I think we're gonna do just fine."